Sad Day For Me

TJ5

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So, I got a phone call early this morning from my aunt regarding my mom. Mom has been in a skilled nursing facility/rehab. Her health was critical Jan 29, then got a little better, but then turned to shit once again. Apparently, she had internal bleeding and septicemia which I'm assuming is what killed her. I went to the ER at the hospital and she was already unresponsive. Her eyes were open, but she wasn't blinking. Although she drove me crazy a great deal of the time, we were also very close as well. I'm an only child so I was all she had in terms of kids. She was 80 years old and most of her family and friends are dead. It was a shock that she died this morning. I expected another 5 years out of her, but that did not happen. In addition, I will lose the home I have shared with her on and off since 1977. This house and everything in it remind me of her, but mom had a huge income when she was working. I have never come close to her earning potential, which means even though she left the house to me, I can not afford a mortgage, homeowners, maintenance and property tax. Not even close. So, I will lose my childhood home since 1977. I dread the thought of renting an apartment with inflation as high as it is. In the 1990's I was paying $600-$700/mo for a one bedroom apartment. Where I live they now cost $3000/month. Even renting a room runs $1500. So, I'm hurt I lost my mom. I'm hurt I will lose the house and I'm hurt at the uncertainty of my future. She had some life left in her. It's such a tragedy that she's gone.
 
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