Sad Anniversary

[BayCityRolla]

Yes today is 2 years since I last had an E..
Yet I think about it everyday ( this is BL fault mainly ) and I do remember how good it is, I even think I get little rushes when I hear a great old track on the Radio....
But don't feel sad for me BL's this will all be changing at the Brunswick St Fest...I'm going to rock it big time..
But back to the 2 year gap in taking E..
I'm sort of wondering will I crave for e when I'm 50 or 60..I believe i will , we know how it makes us feel and safe it really is... Does this mean there will be a generation of old timers droping pills at Lawn Bowls ?
Cheers ( in response to Candyflip's Lurker thread )

 

[Soma]

RANT
Petrol Prices. The Government lied to us. GST on retail petrol is a 10% on what is mainly tax. A Tax on a tax...
/RANT
[This message has been edited by Soma (edited 23 August 2000).]

 

[mona]

OK Soma.
I fully respec' you man. I do. You always make me laugh and there have been numerous posts of yours when 've said "right on" in true dirty hippy style in my head, and I hate for this to be one of the few times that i DO reply to anything you've posted (seeing as though it's going to be slightly negative).. BUT
Why the rant? Although I agree wholeheartedly with everything you said, I'm not sure if it was needed here in this thread. You've ranted this rant once before and yes it was completely necessary then (can't exactly remember but it was some dickhead going on about how they can't go a few days without pills).. but why now?
am I missing something?
no offence. I still think you're fucking funny.

 

[SpankY]

I certainly hope Im gonna be taking pills when Im 50 or 60! Not STILL taking pills tho - i plan to have a fairly big (20 year?) gap during middle life during which i make a shitload of money, then spend my old age in a drug-fuelled binge. After all, when you're old, what do you have to lose??
Yep, when Im 65, Im gonna hit the hard stuff. Bugger the kids inheritence, Im gonna blow it on drugs.
SpankY

 

[Soma]

Hmmm not sure Mona. I think it mebbe because I'm not working at the moment, the recruitment people havn't been getting off their asses and I havn't heard anything from a couple of interviews. I'm sitting on my ass all day this week doing bugger all. I have never been this bored in my whole life except for those times in Uni when I was working nightshift packing nappies as they came off the production line.
Petrol prices are through the roof, for the first time in 6 years I'm living with my dad again, I'm slowly running out of cash from my last annual leave payout, I still have $10,000 worth of HECS to pay out, I havn't had a decent relationship in ..hmmm about a year (see fuck buddy thread), my last holiday I went on I got chicken pox (sydney new years), I'm still suffering a tad from mid week depression (not bad now though!), my room is a mess and I my dad made crockpot consisting mainly of beans last night for dinner...
deep breath.
hahaha holy shit where did that all come from! I think all I had to do was delete the other post. Might be time to go for a bikeride methinks!

 

[mona]

aawwww Hun-neeee..
now all you did was make ME look like a whinging dickhead

Not to worry. I hope things start to look up for you soon. Lordy knows moving back home is as awful as it can get

stardust and sunshine from me to you.
(and sorry for picking on you)

 

[BayCityRolla]

Hey Soma - I read your original reply .. I just don't get it ..What is wrong with my post??
Please explain !!!
This is not good for BL

 

[Lilly]

AAAAwwww...soma...
Big hugs here from a mystery BL girly....
Hope all goes welll , my existence is seeming pretty bloody crappy at the moment too...."got nothin' but love for ye baby..."
Cheer up Charlie
Byee
Lilly

 

[Soma]

BayCityRolla - I have absolutly no fucking idea what I was thinking when I wrote what I wrote. I think I must of been looking at something else where someone was saying they had E ever 2-3 days. Or something. Mebbe. I need more ice cream.
Sorry dude. IOU 10 mins of red blinky light time.
back into the gimp box I go!

 

[CrazyAustralian]

BayCityRolla,
If lawn bowls is your thing when your 60, then you may very well find yourself dropping an E at that age! Personally, i don't see how I can NOT do drugs when i'm really old, i would have liked to try most things in life, but some i just don't want to waste my life on, you know what i mean?
ie, i would like to try acid some more (only had it once - and loved it!) but I also feel like i can wait ages before I do it again. hope this makes sense.
Soma, how can i get an IOU of 10 mins blinky light time?

 

[Smurf]

Hey Bay City Rolla
Your prolly a minority on here (ie 2 year break)...so can you tell us
a) did your desire for E diminish whilst on a break
b) did your enthusiam for other (ie non party related) things increase
c) did you fill the 'gap' with something useful (ie relationship, work, gym, beer etc)
or are we all constantly going to be thinking about pills even if we are not consuming them.
I think the longest I went was about a month off, and do think about it most days (even get rather distracted by it)

 

[mona]

Heehee
Will wonders never cease... Smurf 'putting in' with something that doesn't involve crude sexual innuendo(e)s of some description
*chuckle*
Just kidding mayte.. you know I love ya

HAHAHAHA!

 

[entropope]

I'm pretty damn sure that by the time I'm 60 I will have grown out of pills.
Sorry.
Soma, life can suck sometimes aye? For me, when it gets really bad, a good few days on the whizz always sort me out... always in a different way too. Can't promise it'll work for you tho.

Keep posting tho bro, I love to read your typings!! I was just thinking tonight (or was it yesterday? hmmm I got no chronology) that you fucken rock (for want of a more descriptive, less zombified term) so I'm sad to see you're unhappy. Good luck finding the way back up.

 

[Soma]

Ta peeps. Feeling better - don't go all soft on me you lot! I know you are all viscious people deep down!! grrrrrr..... like a tiger *rowl!*
heehe... don't worry about me I was just having a whinge because I can. Life's not really *that* bad, I think I've had the most fun this year than I have for my whole entire life.
Besides, got my tax return result (not the return just what I'll receive) yesterday.
*tip* become good friends with accountants that have had 25 years practice.
hehe life's not bad he says, as I sit here at 2:24am because I got SMS'd 90mins ago and can't go back to sleep. No unconcious problems for me to work out no siree! At least I got to eat Nutella sandwitches in the wee hours of the morning

*tip* Nutella is better for you than peanut butter!
*yawn* starting to feel tired again now.
Hey BayCityRolla come roll with the Bluelight crew at SSU this sat. I want to see you after a two year wait

Smurf managed to ask some good questions *duck*, answer away...

 

[BayCityRolla]

Hey Soma - It's alright man I was just after an please explain.I hope everything is cool now mate..No need to go back into the box.. " Bring on the Gimp"
Smurf - Great q's mate..I just wrote a huge reply but I had typoed my user name and lost it all..Shit big time shit..But I'l do it again..
Backround - Had first pill in 1989/90 DCM Sydney..Over a course of 5 years ..I must of taken inxs of 300 pills and shit loads off speed..I was a heavy user (duh no shit )
a) The desire has never diminished In fact it's increased so much so that I am now very desperate..Afters 2 year I would have thought otherwise..There's not a day go by without thinking about dropping a good E and dancing my nut off..I used to love it so much..
b) I've noticed over the 2 years that I'm playing alot more sport and going to the Gym( hooray I've got muscles )..I've Always love sport but during my E years I just stopped..It's great to be back into it..
I'm also doing some bush walking and camping . I now have such great respect for nature and love of the Aussie bush..
c)Most of my time is spent with GF.who i met overseas and moved to melbourne for..(ahhh love ). So I left behind in Sydney all my friends and rellos..Most of all I left the partying behind. As the song goes "All my friends are fuck ups But I love em" I think thats it..This is true is my case...If I had gone back to Sydney I would have been straight back into the pills/speed/coke and cones..My GF and I are saving for house now so theres another reason for the break..She's great I love her to bits..She has turned my life around...
But 2 years is long enough..Give me MDMA
Cheers Everyone - hope this has helped a bit Smurf
PS - I was never good at English at school .But I did pass year 12..
Sorry for the shit spelling and Grammar
[This message has been edited by BayCityRolla (edited 24 August 2000).]

 

[Smurf]

Baycity...ta mate, just as I thought...if you cant fight, why worry about it (party on this weekend)

Mona...My goal in life is to surprise you. (No I didnt know you loved me)

Soma...*whack*

[This message has been edited by Smurf (edited 24 August 2000).]

 

[hippy]

hmm, i don't think there's a chance in hell of me making it to 60. i'll be in a freakin' wheelchair by the time i'm thirty.
ahh, i can see me now, on the front porch, in a rocking chair, blanket over my knees, bong in hand...