Well here I am 27 and after all 12 years of sexual activity. I still love me a train wreck.
I'm no player, never claimed to be. I've never even slept with a girl that I didn't end up dating for a while. The thing is every relationship I've ever been in has been with girls/women who were emotionally distressed. One was suicidal another had cripling social anxiety disorder and another had quite possibly the most fucked up family ever and those are just girls I was with for over 3 years. Aside from that I have been the other guy twice with women who had their own relationship issues. I don't want to get any further into their private lives because I do respect them. That's not the point of this anyway(is it?) the point is to find out why I'm attracted to these women when I know full well that it will crash and burn.
To me anyway it seems that I'm bored with mentally healthy women. I'm not the picture of mental health myself (obviously) I'm just very entertained by their lives. I don't try to be their hero, I don't want to be. I'm a voyeur. I'm a scorpio as stupid as that sounds to me. Idk it makes sense to me, I fit the description everyone probably does but whatever.
To the reason I even typed this dribble. A new one, perhaps. O she's a mess this one is. I met her through drugs, which is proof enough aside from that eh... idk she's definitely a mess but maybe she's the right kind of mess for me. Maybe this one will be the kind of mess I need to be entertained. The one that won't bore me with the same old problem, maybe that's what I want is a woman that always has new problems to keep me happy with. Or maybe this one will crash and burn too. O well only one way to find out. Fuck me I always do this. No matter I barely know her anyway...
I'm no player, never claimed to be. I've never even slept with a girl that I didn't end up dating for a while. The thing is every relationship I've ever been in has been with girls/women who were emotionally distressed. One was suicidal another had cripling social anxiety disorder and another had quite possibly the most fucked up family ever and those are just girls I was with for over 3 years. Aside from that I have been the other guy twice with women who had their own relationship issues. I don't want to get any further into their private lives because I do respect them. That's not the point of this anyway(is it?) the point is to find out why I'm attracted to these women when I know full well that it will crash and burn.
To me anyway it seems that I'm bored with mentally healthy women. I'm not the picture of mental health myself (obviously) I'm just very entertained by their lives. I don't try to be their hero, I don't want to be. I'm a voyeur. I'm a scorpio as stupid as that sounds to me. Idk it makes sense to me, I fit the description everyone probably does but whatever.
To the reason I even typed this dribble. A new one, perhaps. O she's a mess this one is. I met her through drugs, which is proof enough aside from that eh... idk she's definitely a mess but maybe she's the right kind of mess for me. Maybe this one will be the kind of mess I need to be entertained. The one that won't bore me with the same old problem, maybe that's what I want is a woman that always has new problems to keep me happy with. Or maybe this one will crash and burn too. O well only one way to find out. Fuck me I always do this. No matter I barely know her anyway...