Ruthless

So. My mind is kinda numb right now but I need to try to get this out of my head anyways, because I'm ridiculously irritable right now and my emotions are on thin ice.

Lately I'd been questioning my place with a "friend". He'd started acting distant lately, ever since the last time we hung out. I still don't understand why, because everything was fine then. He started ignoring my texts, phone calls, friend request on Facebook, and evaded making other plans to hang out after this last Saturday (we were supposed to chill but it completely slipped my mind and I didn't remember until he texted me asking what happened). I kind of knew the friendship was slowly crumbling. Deep down, I even knew that he was causing it... and that he didn't care. He was pretending to be my friend for his own selfish reasons. I started biding my time for the right time to tell him I was done, that none of it was worth it to me anymore.

Sunday, after he ignored my phone calls and texts... and then yesterday, after he never called me back like he said he was going to... I finally broke down and told him a little bit of how I felt. That I didn't know what was going on, but that I felt like it was personal. He called me then, said it wasn't personal, gave me all these excuses just to appease me, we hung up a few minutes later... I didn't feel appeased. If anything, I felt more unsettled than I had before we talked. After we hung up, I sent him a tentative text asking if he still wanted to chill this week (since that was originally the purpose of me calling him and him calling me back to begin with, but I'd forgotten to bring it up on the phone). Which he ignored. Well I finally texted him and told him that he was still doing the one thing I told him was bothering me and that I needed to take some time to figure out what I wanted to to do. Then I turned my phone off because I knew he was just going to ignore me some more and I didn't want to deal with that.

So I finally turn my phone back on, and guess what? He didn't ignore me. Guess what he said INSTEAD?

"Thanks!"

Well you know what... fuck you. I was prepared to just walk away quietly. I would have been happy to do so. Until he said, "thanks". Yeah, thanks for not wanting to talk to me. After all the shit I did for him too, all the dumb secrets I kept for him, all the shit I put up with, all the patience I had... how fucking rude.

So you know what else? Fuck that. I'm NOT going to just walk away quietly. Because that hurt. Bad. For many, many reasons that I will not get into on here. But you can be sure that he's going to be hurting just as much as I am when I'm done...

"Thanks!".... lol... what the fuck is that shit...

He would have been better off ignoring that text completely.

 

Not to be a dick, but if I read this right you basically stood him up? He's not the only one at fault here. I'd be pretty pissed if someone did that to me.

But perhaps I misread it.

 

lol it's cool, you didn't misread it. In a way yes, and in a way no. The plans were tentative anyway... I told him I was going to be in the area about a week prior and that we should blaze, and he said to call him and he'd see what he was doing. So they weren't set in stone. He, however, has stood me up a couple of times when we actually DID make plans. Not that he stood me up, really... more like he made dumb excuses. Idk dude. Our friendship is complicated.

 

Sure seems like it. I dunno, I don't last long in complicated situations; don't have the social facility to deal with them, and for the most part I just don't get involved with people who complicate their lives.

Sounds like you sorted things out (in your more recent post), so that's good then!

 

Yep, for the most part.

I normally don't get involved with people who make things complicated either. I have enough of my own issues I'm working out, I don't need to add other people's issues on top of that lol. But with this guy, something about him keeps drawing me back in... idk what it is with this guy. Meh.