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rough child hood=drug use?

druggyjs

druggyjs

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this is a very controversial topic i know it but i just want to know how many of you have had it rough and may have turned to drug use because of it i personally dont think i did it because of this but maybe its a subconcious/unconcious thing that we dont think about idk im just high and have no medical knowledge/ phyciatrick knowledge at all. i know i started experimenting with weed at 14 now i do it everyday aswell as E and lsd/ shrooms <--first drug done <3 best thing ever.

i do bath salt now to which i am on now and probabaly why im sharing this but thats another story. anyway my rough begining started at 13 months old when my father left me i knew nothing about him and was told bad things about him and then i finnaly saw him at the age of 8 but only for about a week and he worked alot so i did not get to know him. I have had 4 step fathers and probably working on number 5 due to my moms attitude towward him, step dad 1 was just a semi blind ass whole who i belive sexually assualted me and possibly drugged me when i was 5-6 because i remeber waking up without my undewear on and no explanation for it, but have never talked to anyone about that due to the lack of proof.

Step dad 2 was a drunk rich ass hole who beat my mom but he was my favorite because he told me he loved me and has since quit his bad habbits. step dad 3 was really nice and wealthy owned a company and cared for me and my mom but my mom never "loved" him.

step dad 4 current one is bi-polar and stays home alll day lives on social security while my mom works and is allways negative probably why she is divorcing this one

i have always done bad in school I.E skipping and such and still do even more now that i have moved away from my mom and live far away in ohio with my nieive to me doing bad things father and due to the fact that i have a car purchased with my own working money but he pays the insurance i am soon leaving to arizona to get my MMJ card for my pain in my chest i have a disfigurment that makes my ribs pop out and gives me chest pain and bad arthitus in the knees and im only 18 im going to be a caregiver in scottsdale or presscot after i get some cash flow going.<off topic sorry but im pretty exited about it and looking forward to moving on even though it may not be the best way._would love to hear opinions on the subject sorry if someone has already touched base on this didnt use the search button. Thank you for reading
 
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nah . sure i had a rough childhood but i dont blame it or anyone except myself for choosing to use drugs.
 
same here! along with all my friends who do drugs but like i said i dont know if we do it because of our childhood subconciously or unconciously like to wear we dont know we are doing it for that reason would love a proffesionals opinion on this. or anyones opinions at that just wana hear your reasons. and again i appologize for my spelling cant wait to read my threads sober :P
 
Not the cause, but plays a very large factor in the way one reacts to life I believe. An emotionally absent or just absent father is such a massive trend in people with addiction problems. Seeking love and comfort in other places becomes a way of dealing with life.
 
i agree, as i see that all of the people i ususally smoke with everyday have had parent problems whether it be a parent dying at a young age or a mother leaving a father vice versa.most of them have built up anger that they share when they are sober, but i do have 3 or so people that just like pot and have no problems with family. its just something i see everyday so i thought id bring it up. glad some people are interested. i personnaly dont do drugs to forget about my problems i just talk to a couseler every week and im a pretty happy guy. just the settings i was in made me want to do drugs and its more previlant in schools nowaday
 
and my spelling is awefull sorry guys.. cant really do much right now typing is pushin the limits of my ability atm hah..sure some of you have been there.
 
Sounds good with the counsellor man, if you carry on with that and keep using a positive outlet for lifes problems everything should be ok. :)
 
I have thought about this a lot recently. Although we might think we choose drugs all the time maybe in some cases, especially with the downers like opiates, benzos and alcohol we stumble across them and because of events in our past subconsciously get addicted to the physical and emotional relief they bring from life.

I had a great environment to be brought up in, with a loving family and enough money to not have to worry about finances. But at the age of 10 I saw my older sister get killed in front of my eyes in an accident, that was one of two critical events which occured during my upbrining. I wonder if the residual grief from that or the latent stress subconsciously made my first fling with opiate all that more enjoyable.

I think it's an unanswerable question.
 
^Sorry to hear that Oxy, that sounds like a horrific thing to deal with. :(<3


This is a really interesting thread druggyjs- its hard to define these things but it can be cathartic to think about them. :)
 
I agree maybe this should be studied by a group of proffesionals, it would be nice to know the answer to that question im sure lots of people have who knows maybe the study could lead to other discoveries. it really does make you think if you understand what i mean by subconcious and unconciously. But like you said oxycodone it is an unawserable question. hopefully it will be answered so people will know why we who have had it difficult or had any traumatic experience during our life tend to go for drugs more then those who dont, even if we dont know we do it for that reason. i know people on lsd and coke/ meth know what im talking about and just people who think about things like this like me. poll for a study like this guys? haha its a long shot but for those who would just like to know the true reason it would be worth it but idk if anyone could ever figure it out... maybe a mystery people will never know, some people will never care. ohh well im just draggin this post on and on im think im coming down though finnaly...phew


thank you for your post asclepius i looked up the word cathartic you used because some like me may not know what it means and its used very well in your post :)here is the definition for those wondering: A release of emotional tension, as after an overwhelming experience, that restores or refreshes the spirit. i think thinking about this does release some emotional tension because we can share our experiences when talking about them with other friends, i know i like talking to my friends about this because it gets pretty deep sometimes and i learn alot about everyone i hang out with.
 
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Maybe if you guys do some lsd or shrooms with some friends or even coke or meth, even though i dont really like the last two :p but i cant say shit because im one of the few that like mdvp, anyway off topic if you do any of those drugs maybe even some dank maryjane you should ask your friends because you will be surprised at what someone will tell you on these things and it only makes friendships and realationships stronger and of course share your past expreinces helps alot to i know it helps me when i talk to a counseler or even a friend who can relate helps me more then telling a counseler who has no idea what i have been through and who dont really trust or know because i dont know her life. and you learn more and i personally love gaining knowledge that why i like smoking or doing any substance with an older person and way im off topic again its this mdvp i appologize again for my grammar and spellin as it is horrrrible so please dont mention it lol i know already... i just cant help it
 
a week after the first time I was raped I started smoking weed (10 yrs old) - it never stopped since then moved up the food chain to dope etc ... it's a normal easy escape when you feel you cannot talk to anyone.
 
Yes stimulants can increase your thinking but often to the point of suppressing any emotional or intuitive input. I wouldn't consider that positive thing. And considering that just about every thought sounds good at the moment it can lead to very poor decision making.

It may help you to open up and talk about things that you otherwise wouldn't have felt comfortable doing so. But in this case any therapeutic benefit is from the act of opening up, not from the drug itself.

I understand where you are coming from and I've often relied on substances in order to feel some sort of connection with people. I wouldn't consider it an effective long-term solution.
 
I agree with the not a long term thing you said maybe just for a short time just to open up at first untill they can talk to someone without it.but then again they are addiciting and that may be hard for some people to do like myself. but again my 2 cents and i also agree with the point you made people make stupid decisions on them. some people do, do stupid things bad on uppers and the people like me that dont do bad things on them are looked down upon i would never ever hurt someone or any thing I.E animals or whatever i can hurt i just cant do it on an upper while im high but the comedown is tottally different i will rock the F*k out of someone that says something during the comedown. but im usually home and have smoked a bowl before that happens. so i mean if your safe about it you avoid all the possible bad things that could happen.
 
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I'm not sure I had the typical rough childhood, or even a rough childhood at all. I have loving, caring parents who live very healthy lifestyles (they didn't even drink when I was a kid) and I had the perfect mix of freedom and rules that made childhood fun.

Except, I was regularly called a hypochondriac when I complained about assorted medical problems. As an adult, we now know those dumb things I was complaining about were very serious medical conditions not the least of which was undiagnosed epilepsy. In the end I quit complaining about everything and it stewed throughout my childhood until it exploded at age 18 into crippling mental illness that almost killed me. I promptly turned to drugs to self medicate and escape.

I am still extremely bitter about that part of my childhood and I don't seem to be able to convey to my parents (particularly my mother) HOW bitter I am. I'm 29 now and the drug use is now firmly entrenched in my being and I will happily use until the day I die.

On a similar note, I've had 11 years of psychotherapy, including 2 years of addiction specific therapy and no thank you, I WILL continue using to treat the hurt I still feel from childhood.
 
I'd say it was something along the lines... I didn't have a very good public school experience.

I've always been addicted to something.

In middle and high school I would play MMORPGs like a meth addict. Only sleeping 3-4 hours a night. Skipping class to play, skipping meals to stay on. God I miss that addiction :). I would actually get withdrawals from not playing for a few hours. I remember a time when I could not play for 3 days. I felt like absolute death. I would sneak on for an hour and it was like a rush of euphoria.
 
Glad to hear everyones story's and glad you guys are liking this thread te few that do come on it and post personal things are in my eyes strong people, I am at pix airport tripping out just took 3 percs so hopefully I'll chillax this is the part of mdvp and any other upper I hate! Te comedown haha I hope I make in onto my airplane without having a mental break or something crazy like that :p wish me luck I'll be on later tonight after my flight is over.
 
Do any of you guys feel any sense of relief talking about this if you havnt shared these stories with close friends or family I recommend doin that it makes you feel a tad bit better inside weather you know it or not because your letting some of those hard times out and expressing how you feel so I guess in a sense your releasing pressure out of a pressure cooker little by little till there is nothing else left to bother you, you will not forget these things, I know It dont no matter how much I share I can't get rid of my memories of these events in my life, hopefully I someday will and I hope you all find a way to forget and forgive the people that hurt you most I havnt even strarted the forcibly stage yet because I'm somewhat afraid to I don't know why but I am.
 
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