In a coupla ways....
I'm done with BL (TDS specifically).
If I start gettin' high again, I'll come back but right now I'm feeling like I'm seen as 'the enemy' because I quit the shit. This is a drug forum after all so, what the fuck am I doing here if I'm gonna be treated like an asshole? Not looking to join a 'recovery forum' like some jerkoff from Senior Staff pointed out. I fit in more here but 'my views' on complete abstinence make folks uncomfortable. I'm not that powerful, assholes. Some 40 year old bald dude isn't hurting anyone by telling them they can get treatment for fucking FREE and my presence wasn't that fucking strong
Fuck it... met some good people but all they really are/were was a coupla user names on my screen. Phony and superficial kindness helped when I needed it. Now I'm looking for something more real.
I deleted what posts I could but couldn't touch the archived ones. I dunno, man. For what its worth... it IS possible to put the shit down. It isn't easy but it can be done. No one wants to hear that, though. Fuck 'em. I'm sitting here with 8 months and 8 days of complete abstinence from all that shit and I can say that all the blood, sweat and tears that have been shed has been worth it.
Yeah, I'm feeling a bit salty but, once again, typing it out makes me feel a bit better.
I really felt a part of this thing here but its really all just a bunch of self-centered bullshit (including my own)
I'm done with BL (TDS specifically).
If I start gettin' high again, I'll come back but right now I'm feeling like I'm seen as 'the enemy' because I quit the shit. This is a drug forum after all so, what the fuck am I doing here if I'm gonna be treated like an asshole? Not looking to join a 'recovery forum' like some jerkoff from Senior Staff pointed out. I fit in more here but 'my views' on complete abstinence make folks uncomfortable. I'm not that powerful, assholes. Some 40 year old bald dude isn't hurting anyone by telling them they can get treatment for fucking FREE and my presence wasn't that fucking strong
Fuck it... met some good people but all they really are/were was a coupla user names on my screen. Phony and superficial kindness helped when I needed it. Now I'm looking for something more real.
I deleted what posts I could but couldn't touch the archived ones. I dunno, man. For what its worth... it IS possible to put the shit down. It isn't easy but it can be done. No one wants to hear that, though. Fuck 'em. I'm sitting here with 8 months and 8 days of complete abstinence from all that shit and I can say that all the blood, sweat and tears that have been shed has been worth it.
Yeah, I'm feeling a bit salty but, once again, typing it out makes me feel a bit better.
I really felt a part of this thing here but its really all just a bunch of self-centered bullshit (including my own)