Jumprope85
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Hi all,
I have suffered from pretty severe ADHD since I was about 8-10yrs old. Possibly brought on by the death of my dad or possibly just genetic. I doubt I’ll ever know. The real impulse control side of it which caused aggressive outbursts and severe bad behaviour at school have massively mellowed as I’ve grown up but the real genuine struggle to concentrate and get neccesary work done has remained throughout my life: I have adapted somewhat by getting a challenging, often exciting non-desk jib career however the inevitable important administrative tasks remain not to mention the important task for my family life like you know cleaning, organising meals, budgeting. No matter the detrimental consequences and no matter how hard I try to focus I still can’t seem to get a grip on this. Sadly it has caughtuo with me and my workand home life are suffering due to my failings. This isn’t a simple case of procrastination or lazyness.. I’ve worked hard since I was 16 and often complete 80+hrs work a week. My IQ is fairly high and I function in a high level government job of sortw. I’ve done well for myself considering but I can’t help feel this constant sense of under achievement because no matter my accomplishments I can’t get the simple basic things in orders: worse still mind seems to work at a billion thoughts a second and I can’t keep head nor tail of it at times.The inky ‘positive’ i experience is when I really get in the zone at work and become almost obsessive about finding the best possible way of getting the job done and completing it to a high standard. Sadly though I can’t Pick and choose when this happens and I’m equally as likely to randomly obsess over a new musician or a newacademic subject until I burnout.
Waffle aside I was never diagnosed as a kid in part due to my own stigma about sPeaking to a MH professional and also due to a lack of awareness of the consition. I have now asked for help from my GP and am on a 75,000yr waiting list for general adult psychiatry and I have no idea what, if any help they might offer.
I guess the Crux of my question is this: are there any fellow adult ADHD/ADD sufferers out there in a similar boat and or any who have tried medication such as adderall / ritalin / concerts and if so, how did you find that experience? Did the medicine help at all / how did it make you feel? ..: or did you find it to just be a big pharma marketing ploy and find no relief from your symptoms?
Sorry for the long windedpost.. this isn’t stuff I’ve ever spoken to anyone about so i ended up just kind of verbal diarrhoeaing as I wrote..
any information would be greatly appreciated as I’m trying to focus my thoughts and make a list of symptoms and weigh up pros and cons of treatment options I’d like to ask the psychiatrist about if and when I ever get to see them.
Cheers
JR
I have suffered from pretty severe ADHD since I was about 8-10yrs old. Possibly brought on by the death of my dad or possibly just genetic. I doubt I’ll ever know. The real impulse control side of it which caused aggressive outbursts and severe bad behaviour at school have massively mellowed as I’ve grown up but the real genuine struggle to concentrate and get neccesary work done has remained throughout my life: I have adapted somewhat by getting a challenging, often exciting non-desk jib career however the inevitable important administrative tasks remain not to mention the important task for my family life like you know cleaning, organising meals, budgeting. No matter the detrimental consequences and no matter how hard I try to focus I still can’t seem to get a grip on this. Sadly it has caughtuo with me and my workand home life are suffering due to my failings. This isn’t a simple case of procrastination or lazyness.. I’ve worked hard since I was 16 and often complete 80+hrs work a week. My IQ is fairly high and I function in a high level government job of sortw. I’ve done well for myself considering but I can’t help feel this constant sense of under achievement because no matter my accomplishments I can’t get the simple basic things in orders: worse still mind seems to work at a billion thoughts a second and I can’t keep head nor tail of it at times.The inky ‘positive’ i experience is when I really get in the zone at work and become almost obsessive about finding the best possible way of getting the job done and completing it to a high standard. Sadly though I can’t Pick and choose when this happens and I’m equally as likely to randomly obsess over a new musician or a newacademic subject until I burnout.
Waffle aside I was never diagnosed as a kid in part due to my own stigma about sPeaking to a MH professional and also due to a lack of awareness of the consition. I have now asked for help from my GP and am on a 75,000yr waiting list for general adult psychiatry and I have no idea what, if any help they might offer.
I guess the Crux of my question is this: are there any fellow adult ADHD/ADD sufferers out there in a similar boat and or any who have tried medication such as adderall / ritalin / concerts and if so, how did you find that experience? Did the medicine help at all / how did it make you feel? ..: or did you find it to just be a big pharma marketing ploy and find no relief from your symptoms?
Sorry for the long windedpost.. this isn’t stuff I’ve ever spoken to anyone about so i ended up just kind of verbal diarrhoeaing as I wrote..
any information would be greatly appreciated as I’m trying to focus my thoughts and make a list of symptoms and weigh up pros and cons of treatment options I’d like to ask the psychiatrist about if and when I ever get to see them.
Cheers
JR