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RIP pontifex

It really doesn't pay to be on my friends list.

I've never quite seen someone not get over something like Tom. He was struggling massively. This is no surprise, but no less tragic for it.

RIP Tom <3
 
We did feud a lot on the surface, but I felt Ponti was a really nice guy underneath and he would apologise through PM. Obviously, I wasn't quite aware of the emotional problems he was going through.

Intelligent, academic, friendly person. Seemed to be doing quite well for himself also; graduated from University. But definitely felt Ponti was quite a damaged person who had been through a lot. Became very emotional and unpredictable at times.

Absolute shocker; terrible news... he was only young and had so much potential.
 
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Can't say I knew pontifex very well and I don't believe we ever really spoke. Be that as it may, I've read his posts from time to time and to me he seemed like a good and intelligent person who showed much promise.
It's very sad to see you go. You were still so young, with so much left to offer. I'm pretty much speechless right now, so I'll say just one more thing; I hope that, wherever you are, you are at peace. You will be missed, Pontifex.

RIP.. :(
 
oh not again! :(

He'd got clean, maybe he went back..? Often happens that way, usual dose with highly reduced tolerance

:( RiP :(
 
Such sad news. Always came across as an intelligent,sensitive bloke who really took his friends passing to heart.
Thoughts go out to his wife and friends and family.
 
WTF :(

he was one of the most intelligent eloquent sounding people on here, a heart of gold underneath the anger and frustration, such a sad loss. RIP :(
 
Come on for fuck's sake not him, he's the EADDer I exchanged the most PMs with, as we both speak Italian we had been talking regularly for the past year or so, he even invited me to stay with him for a couple of days in Milan in September as it's only an hour and half drive from where I live but I couldn't go due to work. The last message I got from him he wanted to involve me in a legal high business, never replied to him though, feel bad about it.

He was always really helpful, last year when I was living in Aus and he was still in Bangkok he offered to send me a tazer and an extendable baton to defend myself from the local bogans as I was having a tough time there.

He was seriously a top bloke, short temper for sure and prone to bouts of rage on the forum, but through private messages he came across as a great guy. I will seriously miss him and now I feel guilty for not having met with him in real life when I had the chance. Messed up he only got married last December, can't believe we lost another one like this.

R.I.P. mate
 
Jesus fucking christ, not Tom.

He was a very good friend of mine IRL and helped me through so much, someone please tell me this isn't true or something.

Fuck. FUCK.

I have so much to say but I don't know where to start. This can't be happening.
 
Saw the thread title first thing and thought it was a thread asking where he was. Clicking on it to find out the truth was the worst feeling.

Like others have said, he always came across as clever, talented and thoughtful, albeit very very troubled. There's a small handful of BLers I'm on PM-exchanging terms with and he was one of them. Recently we'd been speaking a bit about personal stuff and I honestly thought he was possibly on the verge of turning a corner. Just goes to show that you never really know what's going on inside another person's head.

A real loss for everyone who knew him, whether in real life or through BL.

Terrible. RIP.
 
Could the thread title be changed please? It's too much of a shock coming in expecting a 'where is he' thread and finding this.

What a fucking shit world we live in.
 
Not cool, we didn't always see eye to eye but he posted in reply to Backroll a few weeks ago speaking up for me & once helped me out with a issue I had with a Vendor.

Seemed a really smart guy over all, so many have fallen this year on here :(
 
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WTF :(

he was one of the most intelligent eloquent sounding people on here, a heart of gold underneath the anger and frustration, such a sad loss. RIP :(
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This. Times a million.

Ponti on the face of it came across as argumentative and sometimes insulting, which was likely the product of his emotional state and perhaps not quite having such an eloquence with words.

But he wasn't those things. The Ponti I knew was deeply caring who just wanted the best for people. I will really miss my exchanges with him, from the long drawn out chats about MXE, to the ridiculous freestyle battles that he enjoyed, and seeing his painful thread announcing the loss of his bestie FT. That thread showed the best of ponti and his capacity for love, despite how gut wrenching it was for him, to which it seems like he never truly recovered from.

Such a loss. Thoughts to friends, family and wife if reading. <3

Edit: And thank you Ponti for the help you gave me. Hope somewhere you can see this mate.
 
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