RIP G'ma, It's been 2 years.

I can't think straight. That's the benadryl, combined with the shock of forcing myself to look at your picture of you lying in your coffin. I have no one to talk to, everyone in my phone is dead. I'm speechless for once. Idk what to do. Keep pressing on like I'm fine. For the first time, I can't visit her grave.
 
I'm sorry for your loss. From your posts it couldn't be more clear on how compassionate and feeling you are.

Its refreshing to see someone care so deeply for someone in their family but please don't beat yourself up that you aren't able to visit her this year.

There are many TDSers that you can talk to but you definitely don't have to 'keep pressing on' like your fine. I admire someone that can openly express their pain (especially over the loss of a loved one). The pain you're feeling (to me) sounds like just another way of expressing love.<3
 
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