Rick

I've tried a few times to write this entry but the words just weren't coming. I don't know how to put these feelings into some sort of understandable text. I don't understand any of it. I'm even finding it hard to reply to people's posts in TDS.

Yesterday morning my mom called to tell me that a neighbor found my oldest brother dead in his trailer. He died sometime between Thursday (01/13/11) afternoon and Saturday morning. We don't know the cause.

He suffered his whole life but these last few years were the hardest. He got to the point where he was unable to take care of himself. He had physical problems in addition to his alcohol and drug addictions. He was diagnosed with diabetes at the age of 14.

I learned last night that it was not a self-inflicted gun wound. This was my greatest fear.

My parents left for Tennessee from Pennsylvania this morning to assess what needs to be done. I suspect they will be shocked with his living conditions due to his addiction.

My other brother and I will be going down to pack his personal belongings and bring them back home.

I really don't know what else to say
 
Oh my god. OD, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. And in such circumstances too...

My heart goes out to you and your family, and as with a_c please don't hesitate to get in touch if you need anything. I will fedex you a lasagne if required, man. Just say the word.

(that said, I don't know how that would work with customs and all that--- I'll look into it at work tomorrow; my colleague handles a lot of international shipping)

Be well, be strong, but don't be afraid or ashamed to be sad. Men are as emotional as women, and there's nothing wrong with expression said emotion.
 
Geezus OD...am so so sorry. :(
Please mind yourself hun, again if you want to vent ANYTHING, any kind of confusion, however even with out a response just pm me.
You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. <3<3
Again look after yourself, you are hugely loved.
 
<3 OD, I'm glad you put it down.
I can't imagine what you're going through but I truly hope that you and your family are doing as good as can be expected.
<3 I am really at a loss for words <3
As I've said before, I'm here if you need me.
 
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