I acquired tianeptine while outside of north america and began taking a daily regimen of it. The first pill I took produced immediate, full-fledged anti-depressant effects in a way which seemed impossible to that point. This included the oft-referenced stimulating sensation of the drug, which seemed quite key to its symptom-relief.
I took it for 4 months, with narry a side-effect and that stimulating sensation maintained the way through. Tianeptine seemed to push my brain into an absolutely perfect state of balance. I felt a return to a state of mind I had not experienced in eons and was suddenly adverse to muddling it with any other recreational drugs. Alcohol depressed the effects; adding nicotine to the stimulus became overbearing to the point of nausea; caffeine seemed to have no effect whatsoever.
But then I ran out. Back in north america, where it is not available at market. I was forced into withdrawal as I waited for a supply solution. The withdrawal was punctuated by constant headaches which felt best described as my brain shriveling down to a dead state. I acquired a small supply off the internet. It didn't work, or at least it was severely muffled from before. I put a tremendous amount of hope and stock in the fact that the package seemed to indicate it was expired, or that perhaps it sat in the Turkish sun for too long and degraded.
However, four months later, I have now acquired unexpired medication through perfectly legitimate means, from western Europe, and I am devestated to find no difference. There is no stimulating sensation, and there is a negligible change in mindset. Mostly it just induces fatigue after it's apparent peak and fall in my bloodstream.
My question is what happened? And how can I reverse it? It seems that a tolerance to it developed in its absence, which is awfully counter-intuitive. I am willing to try anything to get its original effects back and I have access to anything prescribe-able should a mix of something else be the solution.
I took it for 4 months, with narry a side-effect and that stimulating sensation maintained the way through. Tianeptine seemed to push my brain into an absolutely perfect state of balance. I felt a return to a state of mind I had not experienced in eons and was suddenly adverse to muddling it with any other recreational drugs. Alcohol depressed the effects; adding nicotine to the stimulus became overbearing to the point of nausea; caffeine seemed to have no effect whatsoever.
But then I ran out. Back in north america, where it is not available at market. I was forced into withdrawal as I waited for a supply solution. The withdrawal was punctuated by constant headaches which felt best described as my brain shriveling down to a dead state. I acquired a small supply off the internet. It didn't work, or at least it was severely muffled from before. I put a tremendous amount of hope and stock in the fact that the package seemed to indicate it was expired, or that perhaps it sat in the Turkish sun for too long and degraded.
However, four months later, I have now acquired unexpired medication through perfectly legitimate means, from western Europe, and I am devestated to find no difference. There is no stimulating sensation, and there is a negligible change in mindset. Mostly it just induces fatigue after it's apparent peak and fall in my bloodstream.
My question is what happened? And how can I reverse it? It seems that a tolerance to it developed in its absence, which is awfully counter-intuitive. I am willing to try anything to get its original effects back and I have access to anything prescribe-able should a mix of something else be the solution.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. And yet Tianeptine works great for pulling myself out of a depressive pit.
David Foster wallace