neverwas
Bluelighter
i looked at your photo today.
wondered how you were.
first i was sad.
then i was happy.
then i was full of hurt.
all those years gone by,
not one single word.
me making all the effort,
only for you to turn around
and for me to hurt.
she said you're no longer getting married?
that you have put it off?
she said your life was in such turmoil right now,
robbed three times
i know you have cancer.
she said,
that you NEED me?
why?
answer me this then...
why the fuck do you NEED me?
to hell with you.
i dont care that you're broken and hurt.
when you left me standing there at your door.
locked away.
forgotten.
like a feather blowing in the wind.
you moved on without a care in the world.
started a new life
with the family
i once new.
you snatched them away from me.
told me i would be fine.
do you even know how many countless night i have cried?
so another night ticks on by.
i sit here stare at your photo.
try to write a letter.
but all i can say,
is how much i hate you.
how much hurt you have caused.
i wonder...
why do i bother to write....
when all i get is a return to sender?
wondered how you were.
first i was sad.
then i was happy.
then i was full of hurt.
all those years gone by,
not one single word.
me making all the effort,
only for you to turn around
and for me to hurt.
she said you're no longer getting married?
that you have put it off?
she said your life was in such turmoil right now,
robbed three times
i know you have cancer.
she said,
that you NEED me?
why?
answer me this then...
why the fuck do you NEED me?
to hell with you.
i dont care that you're broken and hurt.
when you left me standing there at your door.
locked away.
forgotten.
like a feather blowing in the wind.
you moved on without a care in the world.
started a new life
with the family
i once new.
you snatched them away from me.
told me i would be fine.
do you even know how many countless night i have cried?
so another night ticks on by.
i sit here stare at your photo.
try to write a letter.
but all i can say,
is how much i hate you.
how much hurt you have caused.
i wonder...
why do i bother to write....
when all i get is a return to sender?
