I’m having a hard time sleeping which is a surprise seeing as this is the first time I have been able to sleep in a bed in almost a year now. You’d think I’d crash right out. I didn’t even get to make it to the gym like I wanted to. I guess I could go now…it is open twenty-four hours and I don’t feel like I will be going to bed anytime soon but I have to be up in six hours to watch my cousin all day and wouldn’t be back till two or three in the morning and I’d be exhausted making getting up even harder then it’s already going to be.
Amanda came by the house this morning to bum a smoke off me. We chatted for a bit, apparently the owners of her boyfriends place want her out in two days. Problem is that they have nowhere to stay. She said they are going to try and take the landlords to court because they don’t have a legal reason to “evict “ them and they only gave them a week’s notice which is no time at all to find a new place and move out. I really do wish her the best of luck; I know how much it would suck for her to have to live with her parents again. Before she left I asked her if she could get me some weed since all my connections were dry as well as I’ve been trying to “stay clean off dope”, she told me she would try but it seems everyone’s been dry this past week.
About mid-day when I was feeling a little down Friendly gave me a surprise call which made me feel a little better. As I said in an earlier post he left Colorado and today when he called I believe he said he was in Chicago? Either way at the shelter he was staying at he heard the song Life is Beautiful by Sixx:A.M. and he said he had to call me because it reminded him of me and made him miss me. For the first time since he left he asked me if I was dope sick which I told him I was trying to quit again…for like the fifth time. Then he really said something that almost got me in tears…he mentioned that he wanted to come back to Colorado because he really missed me…he missed the dope too but if he could have anything he wishes we could both stay clean best friends. Sadly I know the chance of both of us being clean off junk is so slim, but it’s nice to dream right? I can’t wait till he comes back to Colorado even though he was someone I used a lot of drugs with he was such good company to have. Really one of the only friends I had honestly.
I was also up in my old hood today and decided to try and visit some of my old homies and weed dealer’s but to my surprise they all fucking moved! I was upset I lost contact with them; they were some of the most down to earth people I knew. Oh well shit happens. I am thinking about going downtown to check up on an old acquaintance who is / was a meth user, maybe have dinner with him. I could really use the company…
Amanda came by the house this morning to bum a smoke off me. We chatted for a bit, apparently the owners of her boyfriends place want her out in two days. Problem is that they have nowhere to stay. She said they are going to try and take the landlords to court because they don’t have a legal reason to “evict “ them and they only gave them a week’s notice which is no time at all to find a new place and move out. I really do wish her the best of luck; I know how much it would suck for her to have to live with her parents again. Before she left I asked her if she could get me some weed since all my connections were dry as well as I’ve been trying to “stay clean off dope”, she told me she would try but it seems everyone’s been dry this past week.
About mid-day when I was feeling a little down Friendly gave me a surprise call which made me feel a little better. As I said in an earlier post he left Colorado and today when he called I believe he said he was in Chicago? Either way at the shelter he was staying at he heard the song Life is Beautiful by Sixx:A.M. and he said he had to call me because it reminded him of me and made him miss me. For the first time since he left he asked me if I was dope sick which I told him I was trying to quit again…for like the fifth time. Then he really said something that almost got me in tears…he mentioned that he wanted to come back to Colorado because he really missed me…he missed the dope too but if he could have anything he wishes we could both stay clean best friends. Sadly I know the chance of both of us being clean off junk is so slim, but it’s nice to dream right? I can’t wait till he comes back to Colorado even though he was someone I used a lot of drugs with he was such good company to have. Really one of the only friends I had honestly.
I was also up in my old hood today and decided to try and visit some of my old homies and weed dealer’s but to my surprise they all fucking moved! I was upset I lost contact with them; they were some of the most down to earth people I knew. Oh well shit happens. I am thinking about going downtown to check up on an old acquaintance who is / was a meth user, maybe have dinner with him. I could really use the company…