Yesterday I had to put my dog down. I feel absolutely horrible even though there wasn't much choice. Just been eating norco 10-325's all day and I still feel horrible. I got kicked out of my apartment a few days ago, been living in my car. I still have a few posessions like my phone and 357 magnum revolver. My ex gf doesn't give a shit about me anymore, I feel better off dead. I'm in south padre island, thinking of driving our to the north end, driving on thw beach to a secluded area and... ending it there on the beach.
rest in peace.
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I'm really sorry about your dog. It is such a miserable feeling when that love and nurturing and responsibility is suddenly gone. I wish you would get rid of that gun, though. It scares me that you have a gun when you are feeling so down. Life goes up and down forever. It is not good to put yourself in danger with a weapon at hand when you are in one of the all time lows. PM me if you feel like talking, even if it's just for distraction. Sometimes you just need more time. Give yourself more time.
I'm so so sorry for your loss. Losing a pet is IMO one of the worst experiences that we have to go through. As herby said, please do get rid of that gun. I know you're in a hard spot right now, but believe it or not there are a lot of people that care about you and would be devastated if you were to leave this world too soon. I understand that you're feeling really low and are having a difficult time getting yourself back up, but I do believe that you can. Please give yourself some time you need to grieve and be kind to yourself. You do deserve it.
@ crimson - I do need money. The thought has crossed my mind to sell it, constantly in fact.
@ herbavore - The main reason I keep the gun is so I can sleep good at night. In case somebody catches me sleeping and pulls one on me, I don't want to lose my home. That and it's not bad for small game hunting; it has a nice laser sight. As far as cars go, it's a pretty nice one that's paid off. 2010 ford fusion SEL package, 4 cylinder. The insurance is paid through July, liability only though, so I wouldn't have a place to sleep if I got jacked. I get Rx'd 120 norco 10-325's every month, which I don't take everyday so with a CWE I could just as easily overdose on those, along with my valiums.
Thanks guys for understanding though. It's such a lovely place ... on the beach. I guess it's pretty cool I can legally drive my home on the beach here, I just imagine such a peaceful death here on the beach.
I wish life wasn't so painful... I'm gonna go ahead and pop a couple norcos and try not to feel for a little while. Thanks for listening and understanding everyone.
@ herbavore - The main reason I keep the gun is so I can sleep good at night. In case somebody catches me sleeping and pulls one on me, I don't want to lose my home. That and it's not bad for small game hunting; it has a nice laser sight. As far as cars go, it's a pretty nice one that's paid off. 2010 ford fusion SEL package, 4 cylinder. The insurance is paid through July, liability only though, so I wouldn't have a place to sleep if I got jacked. I get Rx'd 120 norco 10-325's every month, which I don't take everyday so with a CWE I could just as easily overdose on those, along with my valiums.
Thanks guys for understanding though. It's such a lovely place ... on the beach. I guess it's pretty cool I can legally drive my home on the beach here, I just imagine such a peaceful death here on the beach.
I wish life wasn't so painful... I'm gonna go ahead and pop a couple norcos and try not to feel for a little while. Thanks for listening and understanding everyone.
