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Requiem for a Heroin User

johnnyfried

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Just wanted to hear you guys' stories. When/how did you start? How long have you been using? Still using? Do you have any regrets?

I guess I should go first.... Started when i was about 17. After getting into the world of substances, (always said I'd never do the brown btw) came across some and never looked back. I was told by the seller I'd "die if i shot up the first time", so i did what we call a "shebang" around here (same prep as IV, but you use the syringe to squirt into your nostril and snort) and then shot up around 20 mins later at a friends house. Been 2 years now, and still going.

Only regrets are to see close friends and acquaintances fall to far into the grasps of this drug. Always tried to keep a safe enough distance, even more so now of late. Been about 2 months since the last time we met...but I'd be lying if i said I didn't want some right now.

Thoughts? Tell me your story.
 
I've been using for one year about and I got into it due to some chronic pain I was suffering from as a result of coming off a large xanax habit. Over the year it grew on me more and more until now where I wouldn't even consider spending money on a drug that wasn't heroin (and I used to like all sorts of drugs). Heroin fit right into my lifestyle and I think that is one of the reasons I am finding it so hard to give up. I am still using but I am planning to get clean soon (been sayin' that for a while now though).
 
Burn out, whats your ROA?

Kind of same here, I used to fool around with a lot more different things, and still do to some extent, but heroin will always be my DOC. I am the type of person who appears very level-headed, as though i have my shit together, but really I am a mess. Subconscious anxiety just kills me, and heroin is the only thing that makes me feel content with myself, and anything around me. So far I have been able to avoid making it a crutch I use regularly, but I acknowledge the high potential for me personally.
 
johhny, I'm confused, are you still an addict or are you recovering at the moment? You say

Been 2 years now, and still going.

And then you say

Been about 2 months since the last time we met...but I'd be lying if i said I didn't want some right now.

Sorry, just want to get this cleared up.
 
johhny, I'm confused, are you still an addict or are you recovering at the moment? You say



And then you say



Sorry, just want to get this cleared up.

It sounds like they quit without wanting to, and would still choose to relapse if the opportunity presented itself.

This thread would be better in Drug Culture I believe, it doesn't seem appropriate for OD.
 
Burn out, whats your ROA?

Kind of same here, I used to fool around with a lot more different things, and still do to some extent, but heroin will always be my DOC. I am the type of person who appears very level-headed, as though i have my shit together, but really I am a mess. Subconscious anxiety just kills me, and heroin is the only thing that makes me feel content with myself, and anything around me. So far I have been able to avoid making it a crutch I use regularly, but I acknowledge the high potential for me personally.

Ninety-nine percent of the time I snort it. I has also tried plugging and IV but I'm very bad at IV and I'm not sure I want to actually learn to do it properly because I'm having enough trouble kicking this habit as it is.
 
johhny, I'm confused, are you still an addict or are you recovering at the moment? You say



And then you say



Sorry, just want to get this cleared up.


Sorry, that was a little confusing. I have never been a true daily user, always "kept my distance", as I said. I have gone a week or so with daily use, but always followed it up with a good break. I have always used like this, and that is what I meant by "still going". Long story short, I am still using, but even less frequently than my usual, sporadic use.
 
Sure, we'll take the thread, why not?

Anyway, I was pretty straight-edge for a long, long time -- all through high school and most of college, really. I mean, I drank occasionally but I never got wasted, ever, and I smoked a little weed rarely but I learned to hate the paranoia and anxiety.

I had never given much thought to presciption pills before, but I was hanging out with an ex-girlfriend and bitching about all the papers I had to write. (I was in my sophmore or maybe junior year of college at the time.) She pulled out a bottle of adderall and told me to take one. I loved it, fucking loved it, and that's when it finally clicked for me, like, "oh wow, so a drug you swallow can actually get you high, huh?"

I got turned on to percocets, but I wasn't a big fan because of all the acetapminophen and how many I had to take; long story short, I got turned onto oxycontin until they changed the formula, and I just wasn't ready to give up my little weekend, recreational activity. I made the switch, and ever since then I've been copping dope. I don't really regret it, either. It's cheaper, the dope around here is really good, I can still sniff it as I had done with the oxycontin, and uh... the high isn't too much different from any of the other opiates I've experienced. It's a good time, for sure. lol
 
I started with opiates the summer between high school and college. I was smoking weed regularly at the time, and one day at work the kid I worked with said he was grabbing some vicodin, and asked if I wanted in. We had a lot of work to do, and he told me how much it helps him get work done. I had been prescribed a few for recovering from an operation a few months earlier, and although I had gotten a buzz from them then, I didn't really get high. Anyway, since I was prescribed them before, I wasn't afraid to take them again, so I accepted the offer. I felt amazing on them, and this quickly became our Friday routine. I kept it at once or twice a week for a while, and the dealer worked next door so it's not like it was far away.

I made it a year keeping my use to mostly weekends, and I never tried anything stronger like oxy because I had a friend that was hooked on it and he would look pretty scary when he was nodding with one eye rolling in the back of his head, and his face turning pale. I stopped hanging out with him because it was no fun to hang out with someone that is nodding that hard when you are just trying to smoke a blunt and chill, plus I didn't want to be seen with someone in that condition. My point is, he scared me away from using oxy at that time.

After about a year of using vicodin on weekends, I started using it a lot more regularly. I kept up at this pace of using vicodin for another 10 months until it was barely working. I'm pretty surprised that I was able to get high off of vicodin for close to two years without increasing the dose much, but that came to an end at the start of the summer going into my junior year of college.

I remember trying percocets around that time and feeling a lot more from them, but for some reason they were pretty hard to come by. That's about the time I got an oxy connect. He was someone I knew from being in the weed game for a while, so it wasn't a big deal for me to call him after I heard he was selling. That was the summer of oxy. It was when I realized how many people I knew that were using it, and it was also when I first started hearing about heroin.

I got busted with pills that summer, but it didn't slow me down much. I continued blowing all my money on oxy that summer, and in the Fall I started court mandated outpatient rehab. I went back to only using a few days a week, allowing enough time to piss clean on the one day a week that I could possibly get tested. Outpatient was a joke though, because I knew everyone in there, and after meetings we would get together and pool our money to buy oxy for cheap.

That November, I called my usual oxy dealer and he said that all he had was dope. I wasn't even withdrawing at the time, so wasn't desperate to get well, but I guess I just wanted to get high still. I rode the H train from November to February, which is when I finally slipped up and failed a drug test. Got sent to inpatient, and when I got back I started on suboxone. I only got high off of dope 2 times in the 18 months I was on suboxone. After that I went away to school, far away from any dope. I made it two more years with just using while I was home during school breaks.

I graduated and am now back home in the land of dope. My usual summer run didn't have to come to an end because I didn't have to go back to school since I finished. I kicked before it got that bad, and am not just chipping 1 or 2x a week, using about 1/4 of the dose that I used to take. I still sniff my dope, although I have tried IV a few times but it worries me too much and I don't like the rush. I'll probably end up using 3-4x a month for a while. I drink very heavily when I don't have opiates around, so it's better for me to stick with occasional opiate use.

Regrets? Mostly financial, and of course getting arrested sucked, which is mostly a financial issue though. Not being able to do other stuff with friends because I have spent all my money on dope is a pretty common regret, but if I was out with friends we would be drinking like crazy so it's not like I'm picking the less healthy one.
 
Wow, seems like there are a lot more insufflator's than IV'ers in here! Kind of surprising to me.

Tommyboy, can't believe you don't like the rush! Though I can certainly appreciate different people's perspectives! Wish I didn't like it so much.

Also, seems several of y'all started off on oxy's. Truth be told I had never taken an oxy until I had been using for a few months.
 
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