Repeating a trip while clean?

[Redhearts]

Okay, let me try and figure out where to start this...

I've taken acid a couple of times before, all half tabs of one of the only kinds we get here (redhearts. Don't know if they differ from anywhere else, but they're very visual and quite an experience). They all turned out great. But of course, not realizing what I was getting into, I got cocky and thought I could handle a full tab.

Long story short, I was overwhelmed and had a horrible few hours, sitting outside shaking and being overcome by this, paranoia and loneliness. Came out a bit more wary with a new found respect for acid, the one it deserves in the first place. Not something to be played with.

That was about 2 months ago. A few weeks ago I was feeling unsure but decided the best way to remember the good times I'd had before was to try it again. Took half a tab again. It was okay. Not magical but bordering between good and okay.

That's not the problem though. Today I was sitting waiting for a maths exam to start and I felt this wave wash over me, that same bad feeling I got the first time. And i'm not even on anything now, no weed or anything to cause it.

It took me about 15 minutes to calm myself down again and think clearly, but it's terrified me. Why did it happen? Was it a flashback? Am I always going to feel this fear that I could start tripping again at any moment?

If there's anyone who's had a similiar experience or can tell me what to do, please help!

Acid is not for me. I'm never taking it again.

 

[blode]

There is a name for this but basically in easy to explain terms it could be kind of like a mini Post Traumatic Stress effect, you were traumatized on the lsd so something probably triggered a flashback, maybe nervousness about your maths exam or something. Just stay relaxed and calm for a month or so and you'll be fine.

 

[tylerwashere]

Something similar to this happened to me after i had a "bad trip" about a year ago on 4tabs. The feeling stayed with me for about a month or so and then it went away. It was just as you explained, i got the same feeling that i had during the trip, it was a feeling i'd never felt before and i havent felt since, it was horrible and easily recognizable. Just chill on the acid for awhile until you feel comfortable again, you'll be fine man. I'm not saying it doesnt suck though. LSD definitely deserves respect.

 

[dcraver877]

sounds like a panic attack....it'll go away soon enough. a lot of times i have an afterglow for a few days after a trip and if you have a bad trip it can be a dark/evil/uneasy afterglow. for example, i've been feeling unusually extroverted the past couple days since i tripped on mushrooms..

 

[realm]

It's all in your head. Your still remembering the bad trip and any negative feelings you have that remind you of it may trigger an episode in your head similar to that of what you felt on LSD. I actually stopped calling trips, bad trips, years ago. Instead I realize loops within a trip. You were nervous when you tried that dose i'm assuming and it kept itself as a common theme in your trip until it ended, you were in a 'loop'.

The loops are what I like to call things we do repeatedly subconsciously without realizing it. Maybe this is the first time you've realized you actually get panic attacks and they are intensified after the trip because you now notice them more. This goes away. But, I like to do something about it and change it.

On the other hand, it could just be a panic attack and has persisted from your 'bad trip'. It goes away like the other's here said. There are no bad trips dude, you are your own bad trip.

I often go off into bouts of paranoia when I take too high of a dose, noticing it, calming yourself down, and relaxing usually works great. It usually results in a wonderful walk outside for me through a park or talking about something that has been bothering me deeply with a friend.

Oh by the way, welcome to a high dose of LSD, scary sometimes right?

 

[Redhearts]

Thanks for all the responses. Think they've put my mind at ease at least a little bit, knowing that whatever I'm feeling will pass over time.

Since the first post, its been on-off all day. Not as bad as this morning and I think I've learnt to control it enough not to let myself get into a complete freak-out and want to run out the room. Or I hope so.

The first bad trip was a combination of factors. Higher dosage, panicking and fighting the acid, a friend who tends to get a bit much running after me flickering the lights (which started the entire thing turning bad in the first place) and possibly a bad batch (if such a thing exists) to start with.

I think my problem is that I'm a highly-emotional person, very easily affected by comments and small things, I can't remember ever really having a panic attack like today though.

I still stick by what I say. The way I feel right now, I won't take it again.

Thank you for all the help. I'll let you all know how things go.

 

[Venrak]

The first bad trip was a combination of factors...A friend who tends to get a bit much running after me flickering the lights (which started the entire thing turning bad in the first place).

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Don't trip with this dude.
Or at least until he understands why that's not a good thing to do.

And it definitely sounds like a flashback/PTSD episode, in which you relive a stressful +/- psychedelic experience. In this case it was negative and you are reliving the emotions and what sounds like cognitive patterns you experienced during the trip. Yes, the feelings will subside. It takes time, and understanding of what the trip was. Try another perspective...Stop thinking of the experience and trying to define what went wrong. instead, try to define what the trip was to you at that particular time, if that makes sense. I'm compelled to say as a being, but "being" doesn't quite describe what I mean.

I can relate; to this day, a year and a half after a particular smoked Salvia extract trip, I still occasionally flash back. For me, it's a depersonalisation and the sense of being at the edge of the Void, coupled with the anxiety of finally losing my mind as I always have feared. Or is it that I'm not ready to die yet and go back there... and that the Truth is closer to my conscious than anyone of us feel comfortable with. Colours enhance and deaden, visual distortion, and then slowly fade to white, fighting to regain the the reality I know and to supress what in the core of my being I know to be true...

But the last one I had my friends, it brought the Truth a bit clearer in focus. Though when the concept surfaces however briefly and I become aware of it, it's the key to a door I fear of falling through.

At any rate dude, I hope you pull through without too many heavy experiences before it dieas away. I'm quite sure you will, as you're already getting a sense of what is happening and ways to calm yourself.

You'll find your tricks, you'll find your triggers. and you will prevail.

 

[bBh]

Sounds like a panic attack, which others have also said. It might not even be related to your doing LSD, it might just be a nice gift that your unique physiology is giving you!

With that being said, if you decide to trip again, make sure set/setting are right before you dose. There's nothing worse than trying to "fix" a trip that's turning negative.

 

[mushmind62]

sounds like a panic attack....it'll go away soon enough. a lot of times i have an afterglow for a few days after a trip and if you have a bad trip it can be a dark/evil/uneasy afterglow. for example, i've been feeling unusually extroverted the past couple days since i tripped on mushrooms..

I think the panic attack sounds more like the problem. Vary common. Exspecially before an exam. You probally gave yourself a p/A when you did the full dose. I bet if you did full dose an somehow kept your mind off it being to much, you would have a "magical" ride. See a dr. about the p/a though. you don't want to go through life with these.