PhorIndicator
Bluelighter
Although mirtazapine is an anti-depressant that is used for sleep and is generally considered to be non-recreational, one of the most insane drug experiences of my life occurred under its influence. it was actually when I was in rehab and was on the first night I ever took it. One of remeron's side effects is unusual dreams. And that is what this trip report is about.
My dream began in a movie theatre with 3 other people who I knew that went to my high school with me but whom I had never really known too well or hung out with. We were sitting by the aisle and one of them offered me some heroin in a bag. The heroin was black and looked like miniature black broccoli. I snorted some of it and WHAM!
I was thrown into the deepest levels of consciousness I have ever known. I left the reality of my dream in the movie theatre and entered some other place. It was so extremely vivid, that is was like a cartoon. Although is was even more vivid than a cartoon. I found myself floating (levitating) above a dark blue/purplish river that was flowing beneath me in the opposite direction. I was also moving forward through the air. The sky was purple and strange plants I have never seen before were waving and undulating all around me, they were colors I had never seen before. The sky was light purple.
All of a sudden two eyes appeared from the river (as if it was alive). And when I say appeared, that is really the wrong word. They formed and rose up out of the water, blinked twice, and then disintegrated back into it. A i kept on floating through the air and was now completely drawn to the river. I couldn't stop looking down at it. The eyes kept reappearing and blinking at me and then dissolving back into the water. The I started notcing logs floating by, but I was mainly just totally enamored with these fucking eyes.
This lasted for a little while, then all of a sudden I started seeing little silver holes appearing in the water. I looked in my hand, and saw a nickel. Without knowing what I was doing I threw the nickel into a silver hole, and as it went through, I immediately dove in after it into the hole.
Once inside the hole, I found myself in a scene from my life that had happened to me when I was 18. (I was 19 at the time of my dream). It was a very significant scene from my life and it involved my parents (I'm not going to go into detail about what it was). Anyways, after it was over, I came out of the hole and found myself floating above the river again and watching it move beneath me. Then I saw another silver hole in the water. I threw another nickel in it and then dived back in and I found myself in another scene from my life that happened when i was around 16. And then I came out of the hole again, and the whole process like repeated itself. I must've gone though about 8 different scenes from my life until I saw the last one, which happened when I was like 5 years old.
All of the scenes form my life were like little video movie re-enactments where I watched everything take place from somewhere in the room and had no control over what was going on. Also, most of them were memories I had long since forgotten or had never thought about since.
After the last one, I woke up. And I could like barely speak. I don't think I said a word all morning except "no" or "yes". I couldn't believe how DEEP into my own mind I had traveled and also how POWERFUL the mind really was. It was by far the most intense experience I have ever encountered. The only drug experience I could compare it to would be a very intense K-hole, but it was different than a K-hole, because of its clarity and perfectness, somehow. The river and its surroundings could not have been recreated or drawn by the most talented artist.
Remeron will give you some fucking insane thoughts and dreams, but none of them will compare to the first time you take it. Your mind is totally unprepared for what it's in for. I'd also reccomend a smaller dosage, like 7.5 mg, so you will get the full effect of the crazy dreams. More than that will surprise your brain too much and knock you out too cold to remember.
My dream began in a movie theatre with 3 other people who I knew that went to my high school with me but whom I had never really known too well or hung out with. We were sitting by the aisle and one of them offered me some heroin in a bag. The heroin was black and looked like miniature black broccoli. I snorted some of it and WHAM!
I was thrown into the deepest levels of consciousness I have ever known. I left the reality of my dream in the movie theatre and entered some other place. It was so extremely vivid, that is was like a cartoon. Although is was even more vivid than a cartoon. I found myself floating (levitating) above a dark blue/purplish river that was flowing beneath me in the opposite direction. I was also moving forward through the air. The sky was purple and strange plants I have never seen before were waving and undulating all around me, they were colors I had never seen before. The sky was light purple.
All of a sudden two eyes appeared from the river (as if it was alive). And when I say appeared, that is really the wrong word. They formed and rose up out of the water, blinked twice, and then disintegrated back into it. A i kept on floating through the air and was now completely drawn to the river. I couldn't stop looking down at it. The eyes kept reappearing and blinking at me and then dissolving back into the water. The I started notcing logs floating by, but I was mainly just totally enamored with these fucking eyes.
This lasted for a little while, then all of a sudden I started seeing little silver holes appearing in the water. I looked in my hand, and saw a nickel. Without knowing what I was doing I threw the nickel into a silver hole, and as it went through, I immediately dove in after it into the hole.
Once inside the hole, I found myself in a scene from my life that had happened to me when I was 18. (I was 19 at the time of my dream). It was a very significant scene from my life and it involved my parents (I'm not going to go into detail about what it was). Anyways, after it was over, I came out of the hole and found myself floating above the river again and watching it move beneath me. Then I saw another silver hole in the water. I threw another nickel in it and then dived back in and I found myself in another scene from my life that happened when i was around 16. And then I came out of the hole again, and the whole process like repeated itself. I must've gone though about 8 different scenes from my life until I saw the last one, which happened when I was like 5 years old.
All of the scenes form my life were like little video movie re-enactments where I watched everything take place from somewhere in the room and had no control over what was going on. Also, most of them were memories I had long since forgotten or had never thought about since.
After the last one, I woke up. And I could like barely speak. I don't think I said a word all morning except "no" or "yes". I couldn't believe how DEEP into my own mind I had traveled and also how POWERFUL the mind really was. It was by far the most intense experience I have ever encountered. The only drug experience I could compare it to would be a very intense K-hole, but it was different than a K-hole, because of its clarity and perfectness, somehow. The river and its surroundings could not have been recreated or drawn by the most talented artist.
Remeron will give you some fucking insane thoughts and dreams, but none of them will compare to the first time you take it. Your mind is totally unprepared for what it's in for. I'd also reccomend a smaller dosage, like 7.5 mg, so you will get the full effect of the crazy dreams. More than that will surprise your brain too much and knock you out too cold to remember.
