Jennyfur_Karma_Kin
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 8, 2011
- Messages
- 174
This is the final chapter
The last bit of verse that I’m writing for you
I’m just going to spit it out onto the page
It’s not even going to rhyme
It’s just going to be all the things inside my head
That still eat away at me
That I’m always trying to force back down
Every time they start crawling up my throat
Did you ever know how many sugars I take in my tea
Or that I've only been abroad once in my life
The only thing you seemed to recognise in me
Were my flaws
Yet you'd flip them over and accuse me of lies
Barely giving me a chance to explain
I used to know you
Could read you like a book, mate
I don’t know if I ever had the ability
Or was just so invested
In mending your fragility
I’m tired
I’m so fucking tired of the silent screaming
That goes on every time we argue
You never listen to me
I don’t actually think you know me
I can still see your face so clearly
Silhouetted from the eyebrow
With that slight frown
I know the shape of your hands
As they fidget
When you talk
I've smelt your tears as they dried on your clothing
There’s nobody in this world
That has more knowledge of how to hurt me
Who I expected to keep me safe
But you used it against me anyway
How and why could that happen
When I trusted you with so much
Sometimes I really was genuinely asking for help
But you just couldn't deal with my pain
Then you'd shout at me for it
When all the time you were using my pain
To fuel a friendship with someone else
That eventually poisoned you
I hope you got some benefit
From using me as a common secret enemy
Is that all this was worth?
Did you ever even question anything that she said
Or did you just blindly believe her
Because you think she is more worthy than me
I honestly don’t know
Because all I can feel is the pain of betrayal
As it scorches through my heart
Cutting off my patience at the source
Let her be your tourniquet
Just don’t expect she’ll stop the bleeding
And when she rips it off
I won’t be there to cauterise the wound
I loved you.
Remember that “d”.
It’s very important.
The last bit of verse that I’m writing for you
I’m just going to spit it out onto the page
It’s not even going to rhyme
It’s just going to be all the things inside my head
That still eat away at me
That I’m always trying to force back down
Every time they start crawling up my throat
Did you ever know how many sugars I take in my tea
Or that I've only been abroad once in my life
The only thing you seemed to recognise in me
Were my flaws
Yet you'd flip them over and accuse me of lies
Barely giving me a chance to explain
I used to know you
Could read you like a book, mate
I don’t know if I ever had the ability
Or was just so invested
In mending your fragility
I’m tired
I’m so fucking tired of the silent screaming
That goes on every time we argue
You never listen to me
I don’t actually think you know me
I can still see your face so clearly
Silhouetted from the eyebrow
With that slight frown
I know the shape of your hands
As they fidget
When you talk
I've smelt your tears as they dried on your clothing
There’s nobody in this world
That has more knowledge of how to hurt me
Who I expected to keep me safe
But you used it against me anyway
How and why could that happen
When I trusted you with so much
Sometimes I really was genuinely asking for help
But you just couldn't deal with my pain
Then you'd shout at me for it
When all the time you were using my pain
To fuel a friendship with someone else
That eventually poisoned you
I hope you got some benefit
From using me as a common secret enemy
Is that all this was worth?
Did you ever even question anything that she said
Or did you just blindly believe her
Because you think she is more worthy than me
I honestly don’t know
Because all I can feel is the pain of betrayal
As it scorches through my heart
Cutting off my patience at the source
Let her be your tourniquet
Just don’t expect she’ll stop the bleeding
And when she rips it off
I won’t be there to cauterise the wound
I loved you.
Remember that “d”.
It’s very important.
