BlueHues
Bluelighter
^Don't ask questions my nig, lesh jush do this shit! lol
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I'm not advocating violence due to the HR policy of this forum... but I'd definitely ride out with you to help you out if you rode out with me to help out. BL bandits roaming the streets.
BlueHues
Bluelighter
Yo, that's jus' how it work! I gotchyou! Y'heard?
sad to say, I am a crazy enough dude to track people down and hand out an ass whuppin, in certain cases! truthfully, it wouldn't do anything in this situation....I really don't enjoy hurting people and I'm not like that at all! I like to laugh and have fun! I'm in bad situation, but lashing out and going after people will get me nothing here!
Some guys really do need to run into a "good old fashion ass whuppin" to teach them a lesson, but I'm not gonna get myself fucked for the satisfaction of being the one who doles it out!
It definitely won't impress this girl, borderline lesbian that she is.....
sad to say, I am a crazy enough dude to track people down and hand out an ass whuppin, in certain cases! truthfully, it wouldn't do anything in this situation....I really don't enjoy hurting people and I'm not like that at all! I like to laugh and have fun! I'm in bad situation, but lashing out and going after people will get me nothing here!
Some guys really do need to run into a "good old fashion ass whuppin" to teach them a lesson, but I'm not gonna get myself fucked for the satisfaction of being the one who doles it out!
It definitely won't impress this girl, borderline lesbian that she is.....
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oh... well I wasn't really joking. if it were possible I'd dole out the ass whooping for ya. I'm usually one for psychological torture. but this sounds more like something that needs physical intervention
BlueHues
Bluelighter
^LOL...we should come up with a show called, "Physical Intervention"....everyone who needs to get their ass kicked just gets fucked up! It's be some borderline "Hunger Games" shit!
I'm down. get to make money AND do what we wanted to do. fantastic idea!
pofacedhoe
Bluelight Crew
get a job! sorry to be a dick but that should be your long term plan for more than one reason
how will you become attractive to a heroin fiend who used you for money for years to keep her in dope without a source of income.
in this relationship who payed most of the time? and what happened when the roles were reversed.
also if you get sexy messages from this guy on YOUR phone why not reply to them and run him on a wild goose chase. there's more than one way to skin a cat as the saying goes. have a little fun with it and use that to defuse your rage and then deny it all later
how will you become attractive to a heroin fiend who used you for money for years to keep her in dope without a source of income.
in this relationship who payed most of the time? and what happened when the roles were reversed.
also if you get sexy messages from this guy on YOUR phone why not reply to them and run him on a wild goose chase. there's more than one way to skin a cat as the saying goes. have a little fun with it and use that to defuse your rage and then deny it all later
BlueHues
Bluelighter
Id' love a fucking job, believe me, and she is not really a junkie, she never really used until she met me and she was living with me when I started using and then she tried it and it was over!
she's not a typical drugged out chick at all....I'm sure we sound like white-trash type people or something reading this, but we're really not....
she's not a typical drugged out chick at all....I'm sure we sound like white-trash type people or something reading this, but we're really not....
Comrade Kane
Ex-Bluelighter
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Should take the advice everybody has given you already. About the only thing you cannot (well you can but shouldnt) do is continue the way you are. If you dont change things then nothing will change except for the worse. Its always like that. Its (kind of) like entropy. Everything decays and gets worse and worse unless you make an effort to change things.
pofacedhoe
Bluelight Crew
I'm not gonna judge other for drug use cos if there is one thing i love its taking drugs
who cares if you are white trash or not- its not relevant to your need to improve your social standing and the level of control in your life
have you been looking for a job? it takes times but when you have something to do all day and you have the power that money provides these other suitors will seem less attractive to her. either way its pure win
is she still on the heroin
BlueHues
Bluelighter
No, we've both been off of heroin....she couldn't find it to save her life...I've lived very transient, druggy lifestyle and I've dragged her into some things I shouldn't have...Most normal people wouldn't feel comfortable living the life-style I've lived....I'm not really a "hippie" and I don't really identify with any particular group of people, I'm more of a loner....I do wander from place to place, live on the fringes, do what I have to do to survive...I'm kind of sick of it at this point, it loses its romantic appeal somewhere along the line
girls are very attracted to me, especially young ones who are drawn to "dark, mysterious people" but this is the first girl I've ever really let into my life completely to where I actually took her along for the full trip....She was young and naive, but we fell hard in love...
The most stable I've EVER lived my life was when we went back east to my hometown....I worked a really good job and supported us and we had everything we needed. My family was excited because they thought I was finally gonna be a normal person and have kids and what not....My mom and her got along really well...She's a pretty decent artist, and my mom has been painting for years, so they would go paint together...
It would have been the perfect circumstances to the chaos behind me, but instead I get both of us hooked on heroin...then, we spend the next few years living a secretive, druggie life, constantly having to hide the drugs from everyone....she worked at a record store for a few years and she almost got caught nodding in the aisles a few times, I think her boss knew!
At one point, she quit her job at the record store, I took a leave of absence from my job and we drove to the smoky mountains to kick dope...It was great! It was like a fresh start! We drove out here to Nebraska to stay with her family for awhile and everything felt like it was gonna change!
We made the decision to head back east and try it again...I was able to go back to my job because I was on a leave of absence for the few months we were gone.....Guess what happened?!
We got a nice place, and a new bed and furniture and stuff only to end up back on heroin for about 2 more years!!
Now we're here and this girl leaving me alone to hang out with very mediocre musicians (I'm a snob when it comes to that) and I'm left out here to get drunk and stew!
I did deprive this girl of what should have been her college years to introduce her to a life that really has no measurable benefit to it....I think she just wants to be normal and have the little things in life! I do too, but apparently it's too late for us....
sorry to ramble, and thanks everybody....sigh
girls are very attracted to me, especially young ones who are drawn to "dark, mysterious people" but this is the first girl I've ever really let into my life completely to where I actually took her along for the full trip....She was young and naive, but we fell hard in love...
The most stable I've EVER lived my life was when we went back east to my hometown....I worked a really good job and supported us and we had everything we needed. My family was excited because they thought I was finally gonna be a normal person and have kids and what not....My mom and her got along really well...She's a pretty decent artist, and my mom has been painting for years, so they would go paint together...
It would have been the perfect circumstances to the chaos behind me, but instead I get both of us hooked on heroin...then, we spend the next few years living a secretive, druggie life, constantly having to hide the drugs from everyone....she worked at a record store for a few years and she almost got caught nodding in the aisles a few times, I think her boss knew!
At one point, she quit her job at the record store, I took a leave of absence from my job and we drove to the smoky mountains to kick dope...It was great! It was like a fresh start! We drove out here to Nebraska to stay with her family for awhile and everything felt like it was gonna change!
We made the decision to head back east and try it again...I was able to go back to my job because I was on a leave of absence for the few months we were gone.....Guess what happened?!
We got a nice place, and a new bed and furniture and stuff only to end up back on heroin for about 2 more years!!
Now we're here and this girl leaving me alone to hang out with very mediocre musicians (I'm a snob when it comes to that) and I'm left out here to get drunk and stew!
I did deprive this girl of what should have been her college years to introduce her to a life that really has no measurable benefit to it....I think she just wants to be normal and have the little things in life! I do too, but apparently it's too late for us....
sorry to ramble, and thanks everybody....sigh
don't blame yourself man. it takes two to tango. she willingly put dope up her arm like you or me. she fucked her own shit up. like I said, sounds just like my ex fiance and me. I kicked *her* to the curb. it was hard at first, but things get better.
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pokepoke420
Bluelighter
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You say you are the "loner" type. Is you moving back home completely out of the question? It sounds like to me, as hard as it may be... To go back home, alone. If she wants to lead you down this path by living with you, and seeing other guys, I don't understand why you are just sticking around taking it. Just leave and start over. The thing is, she can't have any time to miss you if you are just "together" but not being together. It is the same ol' thing, and she is getting attention from everyone. You are her safety net, and she has all these other guys giving her praise. If you left, how do you think she would feel? Devastated? Would she want to change how things are?
Listen, that isn't even the important thing right now. You need to focus on yourself. You need to figure out how you can be succesful. Once that works out, maybe worry about her? Maybe she'll come crawling back to you, realizing the connection you two shared is out of this world compared to others. You need to try something different my man. You can't keep doing the same shit and expecting different results. Take a long look into your soul, figure something out. Are you strong enough to go home? Can your family keep you away from drugs? Keep your chin up, and look at other options. Move somewhere, live in a car. Shower at parks. Find jobs. Do something man. Go to school. I don't knnow what to say. What you are doing is not healthy, especially if you are suffering from a mental illness. Take care of yourself, show this girl and more importantly show yourself that you have what it takes to succeed.
Listen, that isn't even the important thing right now. You need to focus on yourself. You need to figure out how you can be succesful. Once that works out, maybe worry about her? Maybe she'll come crawling back to you, realizing the connection you two shared is out of this world compared to others. You need to try something different my man. You can't keep doing the same shit and expecting different results. Take a long look into your soul, figure something out. Are you strong enough to go home? Can your family keep you away from drugs? Keep your chin up, and look at other options. Move somewhere, live in a car. Shower at parks. Find jobs. Do something man. Go to school. I don't knnow what to say. What you are doing is not healthy, especially if you are suffering from a mental illness. Take care of yourself, show this girl and more importantly show yourself that you have what it takes to succeed.
BlueHues
Bluelighter
^thanks man, you're right......The problem with going home is, I'm SO entrenched in the drug culture there, I've proven to myself time and time again that I can't live there and not use drugs, heroin in particular....It's so second-nature to me, it's like a reflex....I think if I find a job and we have a car, things would definitely be different...
This girl is 23 yrs old with no license.....I think she just hates being stuck here and her only way out is to get these guys to come pick her up....she gets easily bored and is really flaky, not easily impressed, and doesn't like being treated "like a girl".....She's sees our relationship as the problem, but it goes way deeper than that....I think our relationship is the one good thing either of us really have....
time will tell, I guess....She's not fucking anybody else yet or even fooling around with anyone, I really don't think....wait for that thread! Oh baby! lol
BL has been great for me, because I can discuss and give advice about drug use, which is the only thing I know besides music....
This girl is 23 yrs old with no license.....I think she just hates being stuck here and her only way out is to get these guys to come pick her up....she gets easily bored and is really flaky, not easily impressed, and doesn't like being treated "like a girl".....She's sees our relationship as the problem, but it goes way deeper than that....I think our relationship is the one good thing either of us really have....
time will tell, I guess....She's not fucking anybody else yet or even fooling around with anyone, I really don't think....wait for that thread! Oh baby! lol
BL has been great for me, because I can discuss and give advice about drug use, which is the only thing I know besides music....
pofacedhoe
Bluelight Crew
you need social mobility. that comes from first getting a job (big hint here- start applying for everything in sight, websites/newspapers/going into places and asking for application forms, etc.), then getting a car and her getting her licence.
when you have no job nothing is above you- take anything as long as you get enough hours. the £10 per hour job with 5 hours a week is worthless compared to the £7 hour job where you can do a sixty hour week and get your shit together quickly
she might not even be into these men, just using them as taxi's because she can
you need a break from your lifestyles of old. heroin is not good, and i've used poppy pods in moderation over long periods of time but that was always manageable. i wasn't looking to nod tho, just enough pain relief to get through the working day.
you need a new way to relax/get fucked up. weed? its a lot less destructive than opiates and when used moderately (a wee pipe every other day) can be insightful and it makes sex really good.
all i know is druggy types are always replacing one thing with another (i speak from experience) and heroin just ain't working for you
when you have no job nothing is above you- take anything as long as you get enough hours. the £10 per hour job with 5 hours a week is worthless compared to the £7 hour job where you can do a sixty hour week and get your shit together quickly
she might not even be into these men, just using them as taxi's because she can
you need a break from your lifestyles of old. heroin is not good, and i've used poppy pods in moderation over long periods of time but that was always manageable. i wasn't looking to nod tho, just enough pain relief to get through the working day.
you need a new way to relax/get fucked up. weed? its a lot less destructive than opiates and when used moderately (a wee pipe every other day) can be insightful and it makes sex really good.
all i know is druggy types are always replacing one thing with another (i speak from experience) and heroin just ain't working for you