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Relapsed on oxy please advise

dragonflies

dragonflies

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We'll I screwed up, after being clean for 23 days I took a 40mg oxy. My previous habit was two years about 80mg OxyContin daily. My question is, after dosing like this for two days, will I go back into full withdrawal? I am set to go to a meeting this Monday, but am kicking myself for this slip up. Anyone know what I can expect? Thanks for anyone who takes the time to answer.8(
 
If it's really been a couple years, and you have only done it for a couple of days, you should be fine. However...I really don't recommend taking them beyond the one week mark, because usually (at least for me), if I take them past a week...ITS OVER LOL, I start taking them every damned day. Not worth the painful withdrawal (that eventually WILL happen if you abuse it).

All things in moderation. Enjoy the rest of your stash then give it a break for a while. Less is more. Also, it never hurts to have a couple benzos on hand to help sleep if you end up withdrawing.

BTW don't beat yourself up. We have all slipped up at some point. Some people just can't help but want to have fun every once in a while. It's not about the fact that you have to tell yourself you need to "stop forever", it's really about how much self control you can show yourself, and choose to optionally accept or decline drug use. If you can enjoy yourself with or without them, like pick it up or walk away at will without it consuming your life, then you can do it manageably. If you can't just do the once-in-a-while thing and have zero self control, the you should abstain from any use.

I personally get recreational from time to time, but I say no when the appropriate time comes. Remember, there are highs and lows in life. The highs just wouldn't be special without the lows, so you can't stay high all the time. :)
 
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Total noob here, thought I posted reply but can't see it on screen, don't know what I did wrong? Anyways thanks for your answer, I really appreciate it. Yeah my habit was 2 years but I was only clean 23 days, with along with a dumb meth stunt, k pins and mj. So wondering how much damage I did to my brain that was trying to heal from opiates? Any ideas on that? I agree with all you said, I know for me I can't be an occasional user, because I love it too much, and don't have the willpower you do. I really can respect that though, the ability to take it or leave it. Wish I was that strong, but no. Thanks again for your help.. Hopefully I post this right. Haha what a noob!
 
Read this article, it should be very insightful to long term opiate usage.

http://neuro.psychiatryonline.org/article.aspx?articleid=103089

Basically just causes a cognitive deficiency (your brain won't work as quickly or efficiently as it should) but really that's with anything you abuse. Two years is not the worst case out there, there are some folks who have been on opiates (like myself) for a long time 5+ years and I have been able to heal and kick my lack of control. I feel just as good as ever right now, but I probably would be physically a bit better off if I had used a lot less. You will be okay, I can assure you. You will always have sort of a residual psycological tolerance to opiates, each time you use them it brings about a great sense of tolerance to them, even if you wait a while. Needless to say, don't wait six months to do your normal "high" dose, because you might kick the bucket, but mentally it won't take long to build back up to that as opposed to an average person.

If you really don't have the willpower to be a "weekend type" user, then you really should stay away. I had to stay away for a while, but I came to terms and realized I can't feel that good all the time, and I should just wait and do it every once in a while so I can still keep some of that "magic" going you know? Doing it everyday, you feel good, but you know how it is, it just gets shitty after a while and boring, expensive, and ends up being a pain in the ass with withdrawals.

You would be really suprised what the mind can do. Stay strong...positive reinforcement. Your post showed up just fine obviously lol. If you are able to get on the computer, talk to me about this, and recognize your problem, and are actively trying to confront it, you are already miles ahead of most man. Good for you
 
Thanks so much sghouston5 you are the best. I needed that encouragement! Interesting article as well. Yeah even though my habit was fairly small, it got way expensive, and using just to function, not even get high anymore was not the biz. I will stop beating myself up from here on out, and move on. Thanks for the support! You really helped me today, I was way down on myself!
 
I just did the same thing, only it's been three years since I took oxy. A couple weeks ago a friend gave me 6 ms contin 30 mg. I was feeling pretty good and made them last 4 days. After that, I was fine (besides wishing I had more) I've never been a take it or leave it person either.

For you, it may feel a little more intense. I don't think you will be sick, but you may be in danger emotionally of relapsing again. My advice to you is stay away from friends that use, it's too tempting. You have more strength than you give yourself credit for. You can beat this, you already had 23 days. Wish you the best and Welcome to Bluelight!
 
Thanks for the welcome and support T. Calderone!!! Yeah, 23 days was quite a feat for me, and I hear of people on such higher doses for long periods of time, and I feel like if they can do it, certainly I can! I came down hard on myself, but no more. Three years with no oxy, that's great! Guess it serves us better to focus on our clean time than our slip ups huh. Yeah cutting ties is necessary at this time, I feel you there. I am dragging my ass to a meeting Monday, even though I feel embarrassed to be so open with people, I know I need the help. Thanks for your support
 
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