Mental Health Relapsed on Oxy. Depression relieved.

Opi_Kid_Rock

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Lost. Always have been it seemed.
I thought I gave up recreational substances since going on Suboxone but the truth is, relapsing never felt so good. I now have temporary relief from the dreaded depression that has been haunting me every single day.
It is no wonder I fell in love with opioids. The depression relief feels incredible to be completely honest. My anti-depressant Citraline isn’t working. I’m worried I’m going to be a life-long addict. The antidepressants arn’t working for me and I am tormented to no end in my thoughts and feelings of hopelessness.
 
I thought I gave up recreational substances since going on Suboxone but the truth is, relapsing never felt so good. I now have temporary relief from the dreaded depression that has been haunting me every single day.
It is no wonder I fell in love with opioids. The depression relief feels incredible to be completely honest. My anti-depressant Citraline isn’t working. I’m worried I’m going to be a life-long addict. The antidepressants arn’t working for me and I am tormented to no end in my thoughts and feelings of hopelessness.

How many AD's and which ones have you tried? How long were you on them? What were the side effects?

It took me a long time to find a good combination of meds because everyone reacts so differently to them, so don't give up here.

For me, wellbutrin worked the best, because i'm sort of a dopamine junkie and all the SSRI's made me lethargic.
 
I thought I gave up recreational substances since going on Suboxone but the truth is, relapsing never felt so good. I now have temporary relief from the dreaded depression that has been haunting me every single day.
It is no wonder I fell in love with opioids. The depression relief feels incredible to be completely honest. My anti-depressant Citraline isn’t working. I’m worried I’m going to be a life-long addict. The antidepressants arn’t working for me and I am tormented to no end in my thoughts and feelings of hopelessness.

Although my ADs mostly work, I have no desire to give up opioids for the very reason - depression and boredom.
 
Sub has a good reputation for treating opioid addiction, and for treating depression. Ibogaine I know has a reputation for itself, but I'm not sure of the legality in your area. Hopefully it becomes part of the mental health machine soon. It really can work wonders. Though it's definitely not for everyone.

If you don't mind, what sort of timeline are we looking at? How long were you on opioids, what one did you take, and at what sort of dose? I know that drug withdrawal is the pits, but it is a sign that your weary brain is healing. The same with all recreational drugs: what goes up, must come down. If you were up for a while, you might be down a while. But it definitely does get better.

Cravings are frequent in the beginning. The good thing is that cravings don't usually last more than a few minutes. Then, as time goes by, the cravings lessen in intensity and frequency. Then, one day, you make it through the day without even thinking of it. Things get better and better the longer you can withhold using.

It's really easy for me to say this, I know. But I've also been addicted to opioids. I went cold turkey in a really cold area wherein I was supposed to basically exercise all day. With little to no sleep for the first several weeks, I was destitute, but luckily had nothing to use around me. Then, things got better and better as time went on. I know how miserable it can be.

For your well-being and health, try to cut the ties that you need to cut in order to save yourself. We are here with you all the way!
 
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