Speeedmagic
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Mar 9, 2016
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So I was in Withdrawl from benzos (Valium,kpins,ativan) and amphetamines (adderall) about 5 days before I inevitably relapsed.. after about 2 hours of sleep last night, and foam puking on my pants 2 days in a row I was done.. I found a mg of lorazapam, and an old 300mg gabapentin I just took about an hour ago, and then after ANOTHER panic attack chewed 2 dexadryne 20s. And I feel better finnalllly.. it's just so odd how my body reacts to this combo. I can't have one without the other. I know speed makes most people more anxious if anything, but not me. For some reason when I have the Benz-amp cocktail, the amps make it easier for me to stop a bad train of thought EARLY, before it spirals into a panic attack or hypo-mania.. (manic depressive).. now I refill on my stims tomorrow which is a godsend, but I don't know if I'll be able to get any Benz until next week. Which scares the shit out of me. This WD was especially nasty this time around. I'm afraid I won't make it through the weekend.. as I'll be away in a remote location... with family... and alllllll that comes with that.. I can't think about proceeding on this trip Friday because without my Benz I can't function. And just trying my absolute hardest got me 5 days.... any help is appreciated!!!!!!