Relapse???????

Molly29

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Anyone out there that can help me get this off my mind, ive been off heroin since March 13th and its all that I can think of! Its kinda scary. If it was in front of me now... smh:!:(
 
I had insane cravings yesterday and made full plans to get high. A bunch of unexpected stuff happened and I just couldn't get anything, the craving went away and I'm still clean. Sometimes u have to just put a bunch of obstacles in your way so u can't get high even if you are dead set on it. Its so fucking hard I don't think most people realize just how much opiates get control over u. Even saying this if I had dilaudid in front of me it'd be gone so fast.
 
You have to find ways to keep your mind occupied so the thoughts of getting high are not in the forefront. Of course, you still think about using and it's normal when you're in recovery. Anything to stay busy, go for a walk, call a friend, do some housework. Whatever you can to keep from staring at the walls. Easier said then done right.
 
Yes its alot easier said than done. The only reason I didnt relapse yesterday is because 1. i didnt have the cash and 2. I dont know where to get it than I started to think of how awful I felt from the withdrawls after that I went to you tube and watched a video called crocodile in heroin and that scared the crap out of me because it was found in Arizona. However Im still craving the foil with that piece on there. Theres got to be something out there that makes this craving go away ... I cant get out of bed and im not wanting to do anything and its making me fat ugh. I appreciate everyones motivation and words of wisdom thank you so much
 
I hear you Molly. You could imagine fifty different bad consequences from relapsing. But when you get an opportunity to use, they seem to disappear. Keep looking for new reasons not to get high. It's ok to be unmotivated to get out of bed, if that's what will get you through today. Watch tv and baby yourself, you won't get too fat! If this went on for weeks I would worry. But cut yourself some slack. I promise it does get better! <3
 
it has gone on for weeks :( I dont have any motivation to do anything Im going on Monday to look into this place called La Fonteria have you heard of it?
 
There's got to be something out there that makes this craving go away ...

The only thing that is going to make it go away is not out there--it's within. It is going to take time to change your thinking, your habits, your circumstances and your relationship with whatever is difficult for you. there's probably even more than that that goes into it so practice patience with yourself. Understand that it will happen, believe that you can resist and have faith that eventually it will be gone. "Eventually" is made up of lots and lots of moments and every single one of them holds choices. Hang in there--you are doing great.<3
 
I would also try and flip the argument.. instead of coming up with endless reasons not to use which are just spit out in our minds as justifications to use, I would ask it why use.. there is no good answer to that.. let it ware itself out for awhile.. you should hear some of the nonsense I got back as proposed answers to this.. utter insanity after awhile.
 
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