TatersGotALifeToLive
Greenlighter
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- Jun 4, 2025
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Howdy everybody! A couple days ago I relapsed on Iv Cocaine. Was middle manning and got caught in a taste test for the buddy on the receiving end. I know I shouldn’t have. But some back story I started with pills at 14. Hydro, oxy, opanas and morphine soon to follow. I shot heroin by 16. Rehab by 19. Made my way to Texas by 20 for rehab #2 (many to follow unfortunately, and have never left; where I have a beautiful daughter and a good job. I am recently single from Toxic relationship and I’ve been doing really well. I got out of jail (90 day stent) in feb 2023 not shit I know but it was the best thing that happened to me for my recovery. I was released with a script for subutex and Wellbutrin promptly moved in with a girl I had previously had history with and stayed together for 2 years. I relapsed once for 3 weeks and went to rehab for my umpteenth time. And it was a good experience I came out and stuck to psychedelics and weed for nearly 2 years. It really works for me. Or was and will continue to after this blip. Hopefully. I guess I’m posting about advice and support due to this previous choice to Iv Coke on Sunday. It’s Wednesday now and my boss thinks I have the flu. I’m thinking of just taking a Xan and sleeping tomorrow and eating food, and be back by Thursday. But I’m rather quite dreading the guilt. I’ve told one girl I’m in a situationship with across the country but idk if I should keep it to myself or tell my loved ones and daughters mother parents etc; Or if that might cause more damage. I’m kinda thinking of keeping it between me my homegirl across country and my roommate. And dealing with the loss of time. I’d still like to claim my 2 years from heroin and fet and meth in August but i think that’s more of a technical personal win. Idk y’all any advice or shared experience or advice would be appreciated on how to navigate the guilt and shame of it and just hopping back on track hoping that i can just move past it considering I didn’t want to use H or fet. I don’t feel as bad regardless very displeased and disappointed in myself
