Regretable night...

[Cristina]

Well, Friday I had the house to myself and my boyfriend and I were having some problems so I invited him to adventurous night with me. I bought an 8-ball of 'high quality' coke and told him to get his butt to my house asap...
Well, the night started at about 11 pm. We both don't like bumps so we did 1 line each as we started to set up my room and make plans for the night. About 30 min. later we both took another line and headed to the gas station. We bought ciggs and some beers for later and we drove around in his car and listened to music. We drove back to my house and talked outide on my balcony for a little. We went back inside. Did a few more lines and we just started....
Talking about our problems, ways that we could fix things, how much we cared about each other, blah,blah,blah etc.
Next we decided to get a little crazy. We went to the community pool at my complex and made the night ours. As the sun started to rise we made our way to my roof top and watch the sun rise. It was beautiful. I will never forget that sight. Finally we ended the night at about 8am by taking a really long and sexy shower together and falling asleep in each others arms at about 11am.
Well anyways I'm glad I bought the 8-ball and I'm glad we worked things out. But now we got into a REALLY BIG fight this morning when we woke up and we broke up. I'm at work now depressed as hell. I haven't been able to stop crying for more than 5 min. and I don't know if it's because I think that this whole weekend was fake, or because I'm kinda down because I did mad coke on Friday night, or just because I feel helpless.
Friday night was a unforgetable night and he is making me regret it to the fullest.
I know this is kinda long but I know 5-htp helps you on your e comedowns (more experienced) but when it comes to coke I have done it very few times. What can help with my depression?

 

[Partykid12]

Yeah Coke can somtimes make you say stuff that you dont mean, kinda like E when you talk about everything to anyone. Whenever I do coke i just sit there with a bunch of buddies and we just talk about anything there is to talk about, we say we are going to do shit and it never happens, kinda like glass but a little different. But you shouldnt' rely on drugs to help out a bad situation, you should do them for fun. But the best of luck to you and your boyfriend and i hope everything works out. Something that I usually use on a coke comedown is either xannax or GHB/GBL but thats kinda hard to get now

 

[PLURalism]

Partykid is right; doing coke with your boyfriend is certainly not the key to solving your relationship problems in the long term. Enjoying yourself on coke or E may be a bonding experience in the short term, but a lasting relationship has to stand on something that lasts longer than a night's buzz. But as you said, you regretted what occurred, so no need to lecture. Maybe you guys can work it out, maybe it's time to pick up and move on to something else. Either way, try boosting your mood naturally with some herbal supplements like St. John's Wort, kava kava, and 5HTP (while cocaine works on the dopamine receptors, boosting your seratonin certainly won't hurt).
Best of luck ...

 

[Ayrios]

Kava kava as a supplement? I've only heard of recreational use and most don't consider it to be much of that, either...

 

[Cristina]

Thanx you guys. I agree for a long relantionship a one night buzz is not going to solve our problems. But we talked yesterday and we are doing much better.