Regret

[E-girl]

We hurt the ones we love most,
And we find out to too late that not everything
Can be fixed with "I'm sorry."
That sometimes,
"Let's try to make things work"
Is replaced by
"Why didn't it work the first time"

Sometimes, when you fall apart in the arms of the one you love
On your bedroom floor
And things left unsaid for a long time
Surface on a sunday afternoon.
You dont know its coming,
it just lumps itself in with a conversation about something mundane
And there you have it,
All the assumptions you made about each other
Finding out you were wrong
And realizing all the things you took for granted.

And when I force myself to be strong
And think I won't let you see me cry
Over such silly things
I watch a grown man crumble in my arms
Wishing he had said things, or done things different.
And sometimes, you're one moment too late
Not this time... but maybe sometime

I would have always regretted
Not knowing, not wanting to know
If tomorrow would be worth waiting for
If everything that we've done so far
Has meant anything in the end
I would have regretted it
If the tears weren't shed sooner than later
And i'm glad you listened
When my heart decided to do the talking,
Inside of my rational side.

So i guess sometimes
We need this,
So that afterwards we can be stronger
And everything inbetween could mean more
I'm still not sure if i got all my questions answered
But the look in your eyes said enough
To let me sleep easy tonight.
I just wanted you to know how it felt
When someone sleeps with their back to your at night
And gets more excited over a new record than at seeing you,
I didnt want you to feel like you've hurt me,
Just somewhat disappointed
But i guess it goes to show that they're not always right,
When they say Actions Speak Louder Than Words...
Sometimes, you need to *say* it too.
Sometimes.

Don't leave me sitting on my front porch
Wondering what went wrong
Cuz i did that once
And it killed me.
And i wont go through it again,
Not with you...

We are meant to have tomorrow.

 

[cherub]

sometimes our lives are so busy assumptions take over, and that point comes when it time to clear the air. sounds like you had one of those.

Girl,,, your writting is always so touching and well written so many people can relate too awesome again !

luv ya girl!

 

[up all night]

^ Yep I agree cherub.

I think I'll always be able to relate to what you write because you break emotions down into their most simple and pure form and your words give them life. You seem to understand your emotions and describe them perfectly... and that's what most writers are striving to acheive.

 

[smileyfish]

Every now and again these emotions just build up in us until they burst forth and something needs to be said. It shows the strength of a relationship when both parties can allow themselves to be vulnerable enough to go through this process together, and you're right, it does make the relationship stronger. You know you want this one to last, and it sounds as though both of you are willing to make it happen.

 

[E-girl]

Please archive this too.

Another memory that hurts to read, but needs remembering so that I know where I've come from.