Regret
Sorrow lies on my chest
I think its for the windows I shut for what I rejected this weekend
With your eyes open I tell you always see people and want to talk to them
With every break my will grows stronger, self-confidence goes up, and belief in my own new lies and promises
With every challenge I do not pass, with every move I tell myself I must make - I don't; trust in myself slowly dies
Intellectuals: The most important knowing is not anything to do with anayltic understanding or any sort of insight. It is the knowledge of your own will - what you want to do you will do, trust in your own self
I know my place in the world is insignificant, that life is long and short, that one day i will be dead so all my work will be forgotten, i know about pain and about monkey and a bit about meditation and psychology and have seen different scenes
None of that is the knowledge a person needs to do what is neccessary, and that is what is important
Repeatedly I set up the target of getting rid of my inexperience and taking those steps to manliness by going to clubs and looking for women,
on friday feeling great I turned down a pretty girl who had started rubbing against me, why? -
I didn't speak to some people who noticed my awareness of them
they seemed friendly
These things, regrets, they weigh heavily and
want to drag you down into the past with their talk of unbreakable habits
of old moves
Living in the present means freedom to look out and feel that you can do what you want, move what you want, make what you want, use that public space most people deem private.
Old actions recurring informs our view of the present that there is no choice, that we arent presently free, it is a lie.
Freedom is always there, always, whatever freedom you want within your own action base is there, if
you keep it to the moment and act how you want. The only thing that can change is your impression of freedom, psychological and physical.
That is my painting, are my continual failures to change my movements testament to the fact
that I'm wrong
Or is it right?
The only way to know is through going again and doing, not trying, just doing; that is knowledge. This is metaphysical experiment in real life.
Can my actions be changed through act of will?
If I don't do it then that is just 1 person not doing it, can other people do it from an act of will?
But I will always have my own personal proof, that I live presently, I can change my past actions when I want.
If I don't have this what will it say to me about myself, can I even respect myself if i think I am simply to weak willed to do anything about it. My talents - whatever those are will burn down in flames that will have become cinders scattered on the ground.
My journey will still be the journey only I have seen, and for that and that each person gets that it is beautiful that's all the more reason to take pride in it, which will then be also burnt up atdeath.
By doing this always that is the only way to really convinyself, more and more and more, then when the right time comes I will be more ready than ever.
Last night I saw proof 80% of guys are cowards, let me not be in that 80%.
I throw away my regret taking it as a lesson learnt and the slate is once more clean, but witheach further clean, and with each further time it gets messy remember that it gets harder and harder to make it spotless; the longer it stays clean the less it gets messy and slowly it might even develop some flower.
Yeah I dont have the best word style but liked the theme
Sorrow lies on my chest
I think its for the windows I shut for what I rejected this weekend
With your eyes open I tell you always see people and want to talk to them
With every break my will grows stronger, self-confidence goes up, and belief in my own new lies and promises
With every challenge I do not pass, with every move I tell myself I must make - I don't; trust in myself slowly dies
Intellectuals: The most important knowing is not anything to do with anayltic understanding or any sort of insight. It is the knowledge of your own will - what you want to do you will do, trust in your own self
I know my place in the world is insignificant, that life is long and short, that one day i will be dead so all my work will be forgotten, i know about pain and about monkey and a bit about meditation and psychology and have seen different scenes
None of that is the knowledge a person needs to do what is neccessary, and that is what is important
Repeatedly I set up the target of getting rid of my inexperience and taking those steps to manliness by going to clubs and looking for women,
on friday feeling great I turned down a pretty girl who had started rubbing against me, why? -
I didn't speak to some people who noticed my awareness of them
they seemed friendly
These things, regrets, they weigh heavily and
want to drag you down into the past with their talk of unbreakable habits
of old moves
Living in the present means freedom to look out and feel that you can do what you want, move what you want, make what you want, use that public space most people deem private.
Old actions recurring informs our view of the present that there is no choice, that we arent presently free, it is a lie.
Freedom is always there, always, whatever freedom you want within your own action base is there, if
you keep it to the moment and act how you want. The only thing that can change is your impression of freedom, psychological and physical.
That is my painting, are my continual failures to change my movements testament to the fact
that I'm wrong
Or is it right?
The only way to know is through going again and doing, not trying, just doing; that is knowledge. This is metaphysical experiment in real life.
Can my actions be changed through act of will?
If I don't do it then that is just 1 person not doing it, can other people do it from an act of will?
But I will always have my own personal proof, that I live presently, I can change my past actions when I want.
If I don't have this what will it say to me about myself, can I even respect myself if i think I am simply to weak willed to do anything about it. My talents - whatever those are will burn down in flames that will have become cinders scattered on the ground.
My journey will still be the journey only I have seen, and for that and that each person gets that it is beautiful that's all the more reason to take pride in it, which will then be also burnt up atdeath.
By doing this always that is the only way to really convinyself, more and more and more, then when the right time comes I will be more ready than ever.
Last night I saw proof 80% of guys are cowards, let me not be in that 80%.
I throw away my regret taking it as a lesson learnt and the slate is once more clean, but witheach further clean, and with each further time it gets messy remember that it gets harder and harder to make it spotless; the longer it stays clean the less it gets messy and slowly it might even develop some flower.
Yeah I dont have the best word style but liked the theme
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