Hi All

I have been keeping my head down a bit after pouring my whole life story out on the thread, i felt a bit mortified after that. But i'm back to my old self now & i just want to say thank~you for all the kind posts & P.M's, you really are a great bunch of people who i consider good friends! My friends on Bluelight know MUCH more about me then my friends outside Bluelight!!
So the up~date in Dublin is pretty much the same old story, i went on a bit of a session for the last week, for the first time since the start of the drought i have scored every day! I had got a few texts to say that the proper stuff was back, so through-out the week i scored in 5 different parts of Dublin. But in my opinion the gear is not back to normal yet, its all still fairly weak! Although the last place where i scored in South Dublin i noticed a slight improvement, it was the only source that i went back to to get more of! But the gear is still not as strong as it should be!!!
Some of the gear i was getting sounds exactly the same as the gear that you were getting Effex26, just like you described there was no real nod or anything off it but there was the kind'a nice feeling with it, although thankfully i didn't end up as sick as you! Are you ok? That must have been very frightening for you having to call an ambulance for your self!! I really hope your feeling better now?! But yeah i was getting what sounds like the very same gear as you had, its practically the same gear that is available everywhere in Dublin. I have to laugh at some of the bullshit that some of the dealers come out with!!! Stuff like "i have the best gear in Dublin at the moment, even the dealers are buying their own gear off me, they sell off the bash gear that to the punters & then come up to me to score the real deal" & i'm just thinking yeah what-ever, just give me the bags & get the fuck out of the car!! Coz i know before i even open the bag that its the same old gear that Dublin is flooded with! Worse fool me for scoring it! But i just felt like letting my hair down a bit this week!!!
One thing that i will say about the gear thats around is that i haven't needed to take my methadone at all this week, even though there isn't much of a buzz off the gear it still holds me fairly well, in fact better then the methadone! I'm totally convinced that i've built up a tolerance against my methadone, the 60mls is just not holding me anymore. I have done a little bit of research on this & it seems that just the way our bodies build up a tolerance against heroin that makes us need to use more & more heroin, it seems that our bodies can build up a tolerance against methadone that leaves is needing more! Apparently it takes much longer to build up a tolerance to methadone, its something to do with the fact that it works in your body for up to 36 hours. All i know that over the last 2 or 3 months the 60mls isn't holding me, i have awful night sweats & nightmares, & during the day in work i'm burning up with the heat, with sweat running down my back & the next minute i'm freezing cold, you know when you feel as though your actual bones are frozen with the cold? I also get all the yawning & sneezing ect, i'm worried that people in work are gonna sus it out! But my problem is that i don't want to up my dose of methadone! This is nuts, i never knew that i could build up a tolerance to methadone, i thought i could get stable & then start dropping it, i didn't think it would go the other way!!!! 8(
But at least i have given my body a rest from methadone this week, so maybe it will do a better job when i start using it again this week. I gonna stop scoring, i have spent a small fortune on gear this week, i have even spent the rent money on gear, its amazing how quickly you can slip back into daily using again & all the things that come along with it! Its such a lovely feeling coming home from work knowing that there is a tray there waiting for me! Pity it wasn't proper strong gear! Although if it was the good stuff then it wouldn't be so easy to stop using!
I really enjoyed the documentary that Father Ted posted about Ibogaine

i had heard about it before but it was great to see someone actually take it, it was amazing to see the guy David that made the film take the Ibogaine & then two days later he had no withdrawals from the Methadone after 20 years of using!!!

Great documentary, anyone who hasn't seen it should stick it on & watch it.
Jspun San Fransisco sounds like a great place & its deffo on my list of things to do! The only thing that worries me is how customs would react if they saw my Methadone? I suppose there isn't much that they could do, but i'm sure they would tear my luggage apart just for good measure!! But i really do hope to get to San Fran some day!!
So thats all folks!

I'm gonna finish off this tray & go to bed, the stuff i'm smoking to~night is the best that i have gotten so far this week, but its still pretty much just drought quality gear! Things ain't back to normal yet! What I want is the proper strong gear that will hit me with such a strong wave that it actually makes me get sick! I know that probably sounds disgusting, but i'm sure most of you know what i mean!
