Regional Heroin Discussion v. Sweet Sixteen (v16)

[maxalfie]

I just thought about it and I realised that Christmas is the only time that the rest of the country gets to experience 'cold turkey'.

 

[brimz]

everyone got this same kit .

Dark stuff cooks light strong stuff

 

[blondin]

Underneath the article highlighted by blondin, links to some very interesting stuff connecting Savile, pedophiles in high places, a press blackout, Blair and the Iraq war.

Its a great website for alternative news - Im in to all that and conspiracy theories

 

[blondin]

nearrly evrything ive been getting since the drought inc now is light brown powder - kick ass gear

 

[thattoh]

Just wanna say thanks to brimz, samhaingrim and mugz for dealing with the prick in the appreciation thread. I read his comment last night and was going to reply but I knew that if I started I would just be throwing coal onto his fire. Narrow minded tossers expressing views like that only re-enforce stereotypes and prejudice, and I ain't gonna bite.

 

[brimz]

No worries i only spotted it today n had to say something . The fact thAt his brother passed away makes it all very confusing .

 

[thattoh]

I agree mate, but it has fuck all to do with him coming out with statements like he did, you'd think he would have at least a modicum of understanding. I didn't scroll down the rememberence thread so I wouldn't know who his brother was, or if it was the gear that he died from.

He's the first and I hope the last person on bluelighr that I've thought was a dick and I've no time for, in fact I'm gonna go and try to block posts from him now.

Cheers

 

[blondin]

So has this thread finally come to an end? remember 2 years ago tghere were 100's of posts everyday and in the last 6 months it has got slower and slower with most of the 'original' peeps rarely posting - does that mean that most people are sorted now , got use to the fact they are unable to get proper gear or have stopped ?
I did a roll call post a while back and not that many replied but still it would be interesting who pops in - I now post on a few threads where as before it was 99% this one or the 15 beforehand.

 

[Cornishman]

Dunno if I been lucky but price seems to of dropped drastically.

Still. This is my 4th day clean.
Not enjoying it one bit tho.

 

[brimz]

I don't think it will ever come to an end Blondin . There are to many people that have made strong bonds & friendships because of BL & this thread in particular .

I started posting in other threads ages ago . It get's boring talking about Smack all the time ,.

 

[minddetergent.]

Well I very rarely post but have read all of the gear drought threads. I have barely scored since the drought but yesterday I got some good PD quality gear and after an evening booting I wondered why I bothered....boring buzz.... maybe having used opiates since 93 I am kinda burnt out on them... would much rather smoke some good homegrown sensi... Thats not to say I won't score again but I was just expecting to feel a lot better than I did.

 

[endlessnameless]

ur dead right mate - tings improved a bit in dublin - but its still far from what it used to be - i have using b for 19 years now and i have never seen anything as bad as this b4 - although some folk seem happy with the b thats around - i cant for the life of me understand why?

i live in the same part of dublin as endlessnameless - i have been scoring in this area since 1993 so i know nearly all the dealers old and new - endlessnaeless named 2 different sources were he says he can score b that has him nodding on and off all day - i don't understand that - there is no one else in dublin who either posts on this thread or who i know from around the area who can score b that makes them nod - dublin is flooded with the same bashy b -it just holds you - as in stops wds - endlesnaless is that only person nodding in the whole of dublin - i wonder s it a placebo effect? - i wish that worked on me - i wish i was young again -

Howehyeh pal,

You should consider the fact that when I smoke this half decent brown I've been able to source, I have usually downed around 60-80mgs of valium before hand; that, and I never even bother to smoke brown unless I've have at least two glasses of wine before hand. Looking back through my posts, you should manage to find this - but if not, its here to clarify.

Also, before last mondays toot I hadnt smoked anything in what was nearing a week (and another week before that toot) so my tolerance was waaaay below what it usually would have been. The next toot I'll be having will be monday as I do in my fuck want an addiction again (barely over the last one), but if I can shift these valium I have here I might buy a bag of the same later and I'll let you know whats up in terms of 'being in and out of a nod all day', which I doubt will occur seeing as I only have enough left for a single glass of red wine.

 

[blondin]

its funny you mention valium and wine cos i some times think that when i take these two things the buz or mong out isnt that different to gear. I forgoten what the rush is like when fixing and might get some works as i only have a little gear left and see if i can find a vein as for me when i was injecting it was all about the rush and i do get kinda bored with sitting there smoking till my eyes close

 

[thattoh]

Just got given a £20 thing for taking a mate to his brothers and letting him use my phone to meet his man. It was the first thing out of an new oz and off a new bloke. Nice light coloured and cooks to a light brown in the works. Fucking lovely, just woke up now, been gouching since 5:30. It's the nicest gear I've had for a good few month.

I just wish I'd bought my gear out of that new batch, instead I told him to give it me out of the old stuff, cos I didn't know what the fresh tackle was like. Bummer!!!

So I'm now waiting for my bird to fall asleep cos she doesn't know about the freebie I got so I can do the other stuff in. I'm greedy like that, there's no way I can save gear. No matter how smashed I am, if I've got shit I'm gonna have a hit, there's no way on gods green earth can I save it till tommorow. Since I first started taking drugs I've never been able to save them.

On a separate note, I know the H thread has diminished to just a few post a day, I joined at the start of the drought when you just couldn't keep up the amount of posts. I hardly posted and was more interested reading what was going on up and down the uk (and getting mighty jealous of blondin ). Since things picked up I've still been reading the thread everyday even when on holiday, but just lurking in the background. It's only recently that I've been posting fairly regular on this thread and on others around the site. I would hate for the thread to die, cos even though I could run over you and not know who you are, I feel like I do know you all and enjoy reading stuff that gets posted by like minded people.

Long may we keep this thread alive!!

 

[ructions]

@Ructions,hello mate, I hope you are doing well.
I read your post earlier and you can resist scoring the brown. You know yourself that it's gonna be sub-standard before you've even bought the stuff.
So save yourself the cash(xmas coming) and the disappointment and each time you stop yourself from scoring it gets easier.
I honestly don't even think about scoring anymore,it's just not something that enters my mind anymore.
The freedom that not scoring brings with it is great. I just wish I could have done it a lot sooner & saved myself a fortune.
Anyway mate, whatever you decide to do I hope that you have a good weekend.

Hi Maxalfie! I was at the clinic to-day getting my script and for the first time since this drought started I didn't score afterwards! I admit that it was killing me coming back home after the clinic without any gear but I'm okish now!

I'm keeping myself busy busy BUSY!!! I started a full time college course in September (I'm back in the educational system after a 25 year break!!!) and since we came back from the Halloween mid-term break the teachers have been piling on the assignments, so I've been getting stuck in to keep my mind off scoring! Also I'm in work tomorrow and Sunday so that will keep me out of mischief as well! No time to score or even think about scoring!!!

I find by keeping my mind busy and by not spending too much time sitting around the house is the best way to avoid temptation! Any-time I get a weak moment I just keep thinking that even if I did score I probably wouldn't get stoned anyway coz even the better batches of gear going around Dublin at the moment aren't that strong! I'm not saying that I'm never gonna score again, but I'm just gonna quit for a while so I can save a few quid for xmas. At least I have my methadone script to keep me feeling well coz there is no way that I could handle withdrawals!

Your doing really well Maxalfie!!! And your really positive about not scoring! I guess it gets easier the longer you stick with it, its a matter of breaking the habit of scoring. That is all that it has been the last two years, its just a habit of scoring after the clinic and hoping that the good old pre-drought gear is back. But at this stage I know that there is no pre-drought gear around, it took me a LONG time to cop on, but the penny has finally dropped!

Thanks for the encouraging messages Maxalfie! I'm glad to hear that the cravings get less as time goes on! I wonder if I'll last till Christmas with-out scoring?!

 

[pinkpapaver]

^ i can't get thru a painful lady time without scoring...football focus has not distracted the desire enough

 

[endlessnameless]

...I'm keeping myself busy busy BUSY!!! I started a full time college course in September (I'm back in the educational system after a 25 year break!!!) and since we came back from the Halloween mid-term break the teachers have been piling on the assignments, so I've been getting stuck in to keep my mind off scoring! Also I'm in work tomorrow and Sunday so that will keep me out of mischief as well! No time to score or even think about scoring!!!

Thanks for the encouraging messages Maxalfie! I'm glad to hear that the cravings get less as time goes on! I wonder if I'll last till Christmas with-out scoring?!

Ructions thats wonderful fair-play to to you missy!! Listen tell me, what are you studying? Did you get a grant? Thats what I'm hoping to do, but they wont give me a grant to go back to Griffith because it's a private college, and I wanted to go back because I already had a year of the course completed and it wasnt at all cheap...so going back to another college will likely mean starting from year one all over again. Fuck it, if I can get a grant to do it I will - because there certainly aint any jobs on offer bar acting work and thats very sporadic as it is.

I doubt I'll hold out till christmas myself as I like to have a toot on payday (mondays) and then at the weekend, but I'm thrilled to announce my actual physical addiction is almost gone. I still wake up in the mornings feeling like I'm in an icebox but hopefully that'll soon ease. I mean I'm sitting here in a t-shirt in the coldest room in the house (my bedroom with the bogey radiator and draft that comes through under the window-sill of course) and I'm not too bad so meh, I'll have a cuppa tea and it'll grand.

All my friends are all strung out so I've been doing everything on my own as of late (I've always preferred it that way anyway) but I learned just 15mins ago that my best friend is no longer strung out on heroin but zimmovane/zopiclone instead...which is worse really as cold turkey of those buggers will kill you, and he looks much more out of it on those than he ever did while shooting smack...but at least he's not using needles and hopefully I can use this monday to pull him away from the rest of the gang who are still shooting up, thieving, assaulting - you name it - to get their fix.

 

[ructions]

Hi Endless... I didn't get a grant coz I'm a mature student and coz I'm working. You probably would get a grant coz your living at home with your parents. Although getting a grant out of our poxey government is another story, have you seen the students protesting over not getting their grants yet? The next college year doesn't start till next September so you have LOADS of time to get ready! Go for it!

Methadone...
On another note I have been on a methadone program for around 7 years, but I've only been passing my drug tests the last year. Yesterday I got a letter from the 'Drug Treatment Centre Board' asking me to come in and talk to their consultant psychiatrist next week???

I showed the letter to my Doctor in my methadone clinic yesterday and he says that he doesn't know what its about? I have never been to the Drug Treatment Centre Board before, I don't even know who they are? Has anyone else who is on methadone in Ireland got a letter like this? Or does anyone in the UK or Ireland know what it might be about? Why do I have to see a psychiatrist? Seems weird!

EDIT....

I just went onto the Drug Treatment Centre Board's web site, but I didn't find out anything about why they want to see me?

But I did find this very heart-breaking report. They did a 20 year study on women who were using heroin while pregnant. After 20 years over half of the women were dead And the ones who were alive seem to still struggle with addiction & unemployment. Very sad report. They reckon that pregnant women are worse effected then other users. I didn't use drugs, drink or even smoke cigarettes when I was pregnant, but I guess it must really effect mothers psychologically when they do use drugs while pregnant....

http://www.addictionireland.ie/news/article.asp?NID=140&NCID=1

 

[blondin]

Hi Ructs i posted a stat the other day ...only 4% of opiate addicts ever put it down down for good. Thats why i decided a long time ago that i wont ever stop as i have no need to , got a house, kids., job and you would never think i was a user by looking at me (which can make it hard meeting new dealers ). My dad use to have a couple of scotches every night i prefer a shot of gear or an oxy or maybe some wine and a valium and if none of the above my phy tabs.
Been rock bottom and now i have 'it' under control -just lucky and self preservation kicks in plus i have a guardian angel who was my great great grandfather and known the world over in his time.

 

[ructions]

Hi Blondin I had a look for that stat that you posted the other day but I can't find it, did you post it on this thread?