Still no change in Dublin. Well to be honest i've given up even asking around about it, i was so disheartened since i scored last week & the gear was as weak as ever. What is wrong with this stupid country?
UK has had good gear for probably 2 months at this stage, why can't these so called big hard men manage to get a bit of gear into the country?! Is it because so many people are happy to buy the low grade stuff? After all there would be a lot more money to be made for the dealer if he can cut his gear down to nothing & still make plenty of cash off it!
So anyway i'm the only freak left on Bluelight who can't score, i'm gonna go to bed & cry, BOO~WOOooooo........!!!
Oh yeah before i go off crying, something weird happening with my methadone this week. I went to the chemist on Friday & they gave me & my bf both our 60mls there & then & then we got our 4 days take away (we pick up twice a week)
Anyway the next day i felt withdrawals from about 11 in the morning, (& i had only taken my methadone in the chemist at 7pm the night before.) I was in work & i felt awful, i was hot & then i was cold & i had awful stomach cramps, you know all the usual symptoms, I thought the working day would never end. I took my methadone as soon as i got home, but i have felt the same all weekend, it feels like i'm only taking 40mls instead of 60mls, & my bf feels the very same!
I wonder whats wrong? Is the methadone out of date? Or is someone in the chemist watering it down with that stuff they use when people are on the blind dosage? Maybe someone in the chemist has a little thing for methadone?! I don't know?!
I'm trying not to think about it, coz i know from experience how my mind can play tricks on me & make my body feel like its withdrawing when its not. Just like last week when i rang the guy i score off at 10am & arranged to meet him at 6pm after work to get gear off him, it was my first time scoring in 7 weeks!! I was so excited & the guy told me on the phone that the gear was amazing, & then once i got off the phone my body felt like it was going in withdrawals, all the usual symptoms! Just coz i knew that i was scoring that night!! & after all that the gear ended up being low grade crap!!

Its mad how the W.D's can just come on. But my methadone does seem dodgy!!!