Reformation of Dereliction

[Trevylianos]

How does one enter into dereliction in any form? By neglecting their choices. Only through choosing to do something or not do something do we find ourselves with an outcome of some kind. Change your input, fix your output.

I have found myself rolling with some sketchy people lately and I've even found myself scheming to do things that I don't value. I mean I have been indulging in fantasies online I don't value IRL but it's not directly causing any harm as if you would violate someone's property or personal space and sanity offline.

I regret talking about thinking of robbing a kid's cannabis. Like I started thinking about it only when I was heavily intoxicated on alcohol but even then it's like I'm not trying to assault him for anything just a grab and run scenario and you can't outrun this. This kid is hard though dude. I started thinking about how it could backfire and I would get wrecked by someone half my age because he carries weapons and is bigger than me and is a hard city boy. He can scrap like a junkyard dog.

Anyways I need to change here. For myself and others.

 

[Trevylianos]

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[Trevylianos]

I wouldn't rob him if I wasn't pressed savagely and these drug laws being reversed would fix this. If alcohol were a Schedule I compound and marijuana was sold like it is now for leisure use.

I realize you probably are disgusted with this and I am and I have no plans to rob anybody for anything. If there's one line I don't want to cross after having trespassed so many already it's taking something from an individual without compensating them. I pulled some shit last night just for a couple hits from the kid's joint and I ran from him when he pulled a baton out and started talking about doing some horrific beating with it. I can't believe how a kid talking like that can scare the daylights out of me but it was also raining out and I wanted to be indoors so I bolted.

Enough about this.

I won't rob him nor will I talk about something this selfish and shitty again. Not saying I'm all better now but I realize robbing someone is crossing a line even in a black market and if you do it and get away with it things come back around in the distant future if not near.

Going to escape in synthetic dreams now. Not sure when I will logon here again but I should do some stuff offline here first in terms of change.