K'dOUTinAZ
Bluelighter
Over stimulation for all of us.
It was the four of us.
A journey not to forget
With characters passing bye
Friends in devil disguise
Who would haunt me later
But not today, today I wake with a smile
I wake with you, your smile
Your smile...
A flop house, parties of sorts
I couldn't remember the names of all the peeps
There were so many, too many?
Too much for a seventeen year old
Two teenagers look to the stars
Up all night with something to say
One with a control problem
One with an independent advantage
Kept inside those days
Two hearts share significance
Driving around all night
Up all night, there was nothing to lose
Clubs and drugs
But no violence, no comotion, no loathing
Where will this van take us today
We don't know, thats the beauty
One got scared
One got trapped
Two hold upon to each other as good as they could
Somethings aren't meant
But feel so right
Teenage sex day to night
Teenage drinking, smoking pot
It was all fun then
But one character lost control
He met the devil in disguise
An amphetamine of sort that dragged him under paranoia
Paranoia of relationship
Where is she tonight?
Where is everyone going?
I couldn't live without you
These dirty razors
The scars on my arms and legs
They still scar
But one vacation apart was enough to drive one crazy
One bottle of morphine
Wild cries, wild acts
Without you Sonia, I could not live
Time heals all scars
Does it really?
Fork my chest skin upon and watch this heart beat
The scars still bleed
Stabbing myself in places covered with tattoos
To cover the scared child within
7 years later
When pictures were brought
Back to life, a curse for a simplton
You claimed all this time that you would die for me
Nightmares of killing me
You could not undestand an insane mans heart
The party ended somewhere around nineteen
Where dignity was lost
Where self-esteem was a thing of the past
Where a terrible addiction afflicted
My emotions
How to deal with them I did not know
I don't know where you are now Sonia
The last time I saw you I was such a wreck
You said that I looked sad, pathetic
Let us talk about nothing
We're here after all to meet others
Are WE?
Maybe you still speak of me
I don't speak of you
Only in my heart
Sonia Clemens
Where have those days gone
I close my eyes to try and remember a smile across my face
But it brings only a tear
Only another tattoo to cover
Your pushing me away
But I shoved you
These days
Well they only bring that sort of
False happiness
In chemical form
It still doesn't feel the same
It never will
I'm slipping back away
And this time you are not here to catch me
This environment is polluted
I marry
To keep lonesome thoughts of you
The love is mutual
But what was it
With you Sonia?
That stole my heart?
I cannot explain to anyone
I keep this inside
Cover it up with this obvious
Dark ketamine in Arizona
Kitty cares and kills me
Throwing me back and forth
She is always in the closet
I hate you
I love you anyway
She helps me dissociate
To a place where I might just find you
Sonia
I'm your slave
This is my true face
K'doutinAZ
A scared child inside
Violence to survive these emotions
My mask is off
Jordan M.D. is my name
And you scare me
It was the four of us.
A journey not to forget
With characters passing bye
Friends in devil disguise
Who would haunt me later
But not today, today I wake with a smile
I wake with you, your smile
Your smile...
A flop house, parties of sorts
I couldn't remember the names of all the peeps
There were so many, too many?
Too much for a seventeen year old
Two teenagers look to the stars
Up all night with something to say
One with a control problem
One with an independent advantage
Kept inside those days
Two hearts share significance
Driving around all night
Up all night, there was nothing to lose
Clubs and drugs
But no violence, no comotion, no loathing
Where will this van take us today
We don't know, thats the beauty
One got scared
One got trapped
Two hold upon to each other as good as they could
Somethings aren't meant
But feel so right
Teenage sex day to night
Teenage drinking, smoking pot
It was all fun then
But one character lost control
He met the devil in disguise
An amphetamine of sort that dragged him under paranoia
Paranoia of relationship
Where is she tonight?
Where is everyone going?
I couldn't live without you
These dirty razors
The scars on my arms and legs
They still scar
But one vacation apart was enough to drive one crazy
One bottle of morphine
Wild cries, wild acts
Without you Sonia, I could not live
Time heals all scars
Does it really?
Fork my chest skin upon and watch this heart beat
The scars still bleed
Stabbing myself in places covered with tattoos
To cover the scared child within
7 years later
When pictures were brought
Back to life, a curse for a simplton
You claimed all this time that you would die for me
Nightmares of killing me
You could not undestand an insane mans heart
The party ended somewhere around nineteen
Where dignity was lost
Where self-esteem was a thing of the past
Where a terrible addiction afflicted
My emotions
How to deal with them I did not know
I don't know where you are now Sonia
The last time I saw you I was such a wreck
You said that I looked sad, pathetic
Let us talk about nothing
We're here after all to meet others
Are WE?
Maybe you still speak of me
I don't speak of you
Only in my heart
Sonia Clemens
Where have those days gone
I close my eyes to try and remember a smile across my face
But it brings only a tear
Only another tattoo to cover
Your pushing me away
But I shoved you
These days
Well they only bring that sort of
False happiness
In chemical form
It still doesn't feel the same
It never will
I'm slipping back away
And this time you are not here to catch me
This environment is polluted
I marry
To keep lonesome thoughts of you
The love is mutual
But what was it
With you Sonia?
That stole my heart?
I cannot explain to anyone
I keep this inside
Cover it up with this obvious
Dark ketamine in Arizona
Kitty cares and kills me
Throwing me back and forth
She is always in the closet
I hate you
I love you anyway
She helps me dissociate
To a place where I might just find you
Sonia
I'm your slave
This is my true face
K'doutinAZ
A scared child inside
Violence to survive these emotions
My mask is off
Jordan M.D. is my name
And you scare me
