recovery4life
Greenlighter
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- Mar 15, 2014
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Hello Fellow BL friends I had introduced myself a couple days ago and my love for the concept of this website. Im getting used to navigating the site, and trying too spread some support to those that are stuck in the vicious cycle of addiction. I wanted to Share my Story In hopes that I can touch one person in dire need of some HOPE and Guidance, For maybe there is someone that reads this can relate to my experience and not waste anymore time being trapped in the chains of addiction.
6 yrs ago I graduated highschool early and completed my first semester of college. My future was bright But I wasn't happy, I felt like I was missing out on women, party's, drinkin. While I was focusing on school all I would hear is all the crazy stories of what happened that week and I guess I felt jealous or maybe like I was letting all the fun pass me by. long story short I stopped going to school and joined the party scene. Alcohol was never very appealing but regardless I drank to get loosen up and b social, bcuz I was a shy guy, especially when it came to getting girls. So alcohol was a great way to boost my confidence and become fearless. Yet I always hated the hangovers which kinda outweighed the benefit of getting drunk. Once I hit 20 yrs old I started using coke which I liked a lot more then drinkin, at first I always snorted it, until I learnd how to cook coke, then I started smoking it aftr that I never snort coke again bcuz I loved the much more intense high and the come down wasn't as shitty. Yet never did I like the come down. At this point I wasn't going to school and I wasn't using everyday, I was working as a server at a big sports bar full time and living on my own And I was living comfortable. Everything was still manageable at this point I was having fun, I always had money in my pocket, I almost happy all I was missing was a girlfriend. I didn't like being alone and I wanted that feeling that I was loved. The month after I turned 21 my best friend was hit by a car and suffered some severe injuries. This is when my life began to go down hill slowy. My best friend got out of the hospital after a week, and came home w/ a scripts for mass amount of painkillers. Being my best friend I was with him everyday and was tellin me that I had to try these pills and I was always a person to try something once. After the first time I used norcos it was like I found the feeling I had been searching for all my life, after that I didn't really care about any other drugs. Just after a matter of months I was devolping quite the habbit and tolerance for opiates, I began meeting new people in the pill world and began try all and any opiate, But after I found the original oxycontin I started snortin 40mg a couple times a day. then my tolerance began to get higher, so there for I was snorting more.. While my addiction was growing I couldn't of found the girl who later be my fiancé at the worst time. I was head over heels for this girl and thought I found what Would make my life complete. She had no idea I was a drug user and opiate addict. she found out and the fact that was hiding it upset her more then anything. We split up and I was dpressed my use became heavier.but just a few weeks later she wanted me back knowing of my problem, and she wanted to try it and I told her that she did not want to start using opiates but I wanted her back so I broke down and let try it, After that it was off to the races. She loved it more then I did and her tolerance grew and grew at an incredible rate and now we were both hooked on one expense pill habbit. This is when I met a connection that introduced me to heroin. It was so much cheaper and stronger we both feel in love with the drug. Our whole life revolved around making sure we had enough heroin to get thru a day or while we planned on how we would be able to pay for our next fix. after snorting heroin for about 3 months we both decided we would try injecting it and after that it was like The first I ever got high and we both thought we found the best way to use heroin. it was no longer then 3 weeks after we started shooting heroin my fiancé found out she was pregnant. I didn't know what to do I was so scared of being sick as was my fiancé so we continued our use. My fiancé used heroin throughout her whole pregnancy and my son was born addicted and had to undergo a methadone maintenance in the hospital for 28 days b4 he was completely weened off. He was Born feb 14th 2013 DCFS by the grace of god did not take him away from us as long as we could undergo treatment and pass weekly drug test. In the end I went to California to seek inpatient rehab cuz I could not bare the thought of not being a father to my son, and I just wanted my life back. the fiancé got help as well in Chicago. While going through the recovery process I felt like I didn't really love my fiancé an I told her that over a phone call and after that she was so upset she started dating a guy in rehab and that was the end of our drug induced relationship. Im proud to say I have a little over a year clean and sober. My son is now one yr old and he is such a happy and smart baby. God has blessed my life and shown me there is a happier life without the use of drugs and alcohol. im 25 years old and only been thru 1 treatment center and god is giving me a life I never thought I could regain.
-recovery4life
6 yrs ago I graduated highschool early and completed my first semester of college. My future was bright But I wasn't happy, I felt like I was missing out on women, party's, drinkin. While I was focusing on school all I would hear is all the crazy stories of what happened that week and I guess I felt jealous or maybe like I was letting all the fun pass me by. long story short I stopped going to school and joined the party scene. Alcohol was never very appealing but regardless I drank to get loosen up and b social, bcuz I was a shy guy, especially when it came to getting girls. So alcohol was a great way to boost my confidence and become fearless. Yet I always hated the hangovers which kinda outweighed the benefit of getting drunk. Once I hit 20 yrs old I started using coke which I liked a lot more then drinkin, at first I always snorted it, until I learnd how to cook coke, then I started smoking it aftr that I never snort coke again bcuz I loved the much more intense high and the come down wasn't as shitty. Yet never did I like the come down. At this point I wasn't going to school and I wasn't using everyday, I was working as a server at a big sports bar full time and living on my own And I was living comfortable. Everything was still manageable at this point I was having fun, I always had money in my pocket, I almost happy all I was missing was a girlfriend. I didn't like being alone and I wanted that feeling that I was loved. The month after I turned 21 my best friend was hit by a car and suffered some severe injuries. This is when my life began to go down hill slowy. My best friend got out of the hospital after a week, and came home w/ a scripts for mass amount of painkillers. Being my best friend I was with him everyday and was tellin me that I had to try these pills and I was always a person to try something once. After the first time I used norcos it was like I found the feeling I had been searching for all my life, after that I didn't really care about any other drugs. Just after a matter of months I was devolping quite the habbit and tolerance for opiates, I began meeting new people in the pill world and began try all and any opiate, But after I found the original oxycontin I started snortin 40mg a couple times a day. then my tolerance began to get higher, so there for I was snorting more.. While my addiction was growing I couldn't of found the girl who later be my fiancé at the worst time. I was head over heels for this girl and thought I found what Would make my life complete. She had no idea I was a drug user and opiate addict. she found out and the fact that was hiding it upset her more then anything. We split up and I was dpressed my use became heavier.but just a few weeks later she wanted me back knowing of my problem, and she wanted to try it and I told her that she did not want to start using opiates but I wanted her back so I broke down and let try it, After that it was off to the races. She loved it more then I did and her tolerance grew and grew at an incredible rate and now we were both hooked on one expense pill habbit. This is when I met a connection that introduced me to heroin. It was so much cheaper and stronger we both feel in love with the drug. Our whole life revolved around making sure we had enough heroin to get thru a day or while we planned on how we would be able to pay for our next fix. after snorting heroin for about 3 months we both decided we would try injecting it and after that it was like The first I ever got high and we both thought we found the best way to use heroin. it was no longer then 3 weeks after we started shooting heroin my fiancé found out she was pregnant. I didn't know what to do I was so scared of being sick as was my fiancé so we continued our use. My fiancé used heroin throughout her whole pregnancy and my son was born addicted and had to undergo a methadone maintenance in the hospital for 28 days b4 he was completely weened off. He was Born feb 14th 2013 DCFS by the grace of god did not take him away from us as long as we could undergo treatment and pass weekly drug test. In the end I went to California to seek inpatient rehab cuz I could not bare the thought of not being a father to my son, and I just wanted my life back. the fiancé got help as well in Chicago. While going through the recovery process I felt like I didn't really love my fiancé an I told her that over a phone call and after that she was so upset she started dating a guy in rehab and that was the end of our drug induced relationship. Im proud to say I have a little over a year clean and sober. My son is now one yr old and he is such a happy and smart baby. God has blessed my life and shown me there is a happier life without the use of drugs and alcohol. im 25 years old and only been thru 1 treatment center and god is giving me a life I never thought I could regain.
-recovery4life
