Recovery/ Relapse

[daciditno]

I have been addicted to opiates for around 3 years now but have recently been sober for right around 4 months. Tonight though I railed 2 grams of coke which isnt even a drug that I enjoy doing, I railed 180 mg oxycontin and then took 4 tussicaps which each have 10 mg of hydro in them. Additionally I took 5 Klonopins. I haven't figured out why I decided to do this specifically because I have been sober for 4 months and I am currently being medically treated with suboxone therapy and had been doing exceptionally well up until tonight. I am overwhelmingly fearful that this was the first step toward returning to my old life of lying cheating and stealing. I refuse to go back to that but I need help so this does not happen again. The main issue that I find myself struggling with is how to go about the day without the drugs. I realize that this question has been around for as long as drug addiction itself and I certainly dont believe that I am the only one struggling with this problem and know that this step is most often the most difficult to beat. What I would like to ask any recovering addict out there who has struggled with he same issue and topossibly provide some insight and techniques based on their own personal experience. As of now I just dont know how to live a normal day without some form of drug . Mainly I am looking for pointers that may have helped other individuals achieve a more fulfilling daily life without the opiates. I really hope someone will help me on this because I am totally lost and fearing yet another full relapse.

 

[fizzle]

This is the wrong kind of "Support" This is for technical support and general site issues, so I'm going to move this to The Dark Side for you, where you should get the answers you are looking for.

Try not to stress about it too much, almost everyone who deals with addiction ends up relapsing at least once during their recovery, and for most people its more than once. Just start over and try again, take it one day at a time and eventually you will get there. Have you tried rehab or just general support groups? I wish you the best of luck. In the mean time, dont be to hard on yourself.

 

[T. Calderone]

I have a close friend who had been clean more than 3 months, and moved into a sober living house. Trouble is, his friend moved in downstairs and when they get together-forget it. So his doc is crack and he feels like total crap each time he relapses. Last week his "friend" decided to go for a beer run at 2 am and crashed his car, then bolted. So he's stuck there, cops show up and even though he wasn't drunk, was impaired on xanax. He spent 6 days in county jail plus his car is totaled. (Nice friend) So he moved out of that place and rooming with a lady from the NA program.
So my advice to you is hang with people who don't use. This is key! Some people don't care for meetings but at this vulnerable stage, it can't hurt. Give it a try and you can meet some really good people, trying to be straight just like yourself. Wish you the best, theresa