Recovery, relapse, and accomplishing nothing.

[thevikingninja]

It's hard not to get down sometimes. Heroin took away so many things. I never learned to drive, I sold my body, I stole, lied, cheated, dropped out of school... Yet after almost 5 years I still don't drive, work a horrible 20hrs a week at minimum wage, never went back to school, its like I never moved forward. Then I relapsed, and nothing changed. I'm trying my hardest to stay sober again, but sometimes it's hard to see why I bother.
I just needed to get that out.

 

[hebb22]

You could have all of those things and so much more if you stay clean. It wouldn't even take nearly as long as you might think. Stay clean because you're worth it and things do get better. Those goals are so attainable, they just take a little footwork

 

[FnX]

Don't want to sound harsh, but don't take all things for granted just for getting and staying sober. But know this, if you had the willpower in you to get sober in the first place, you sure as hell have the willpower to move forward if you want to. It's just a different kind of struggle. Surely you can afford to save some money when all of it doesn't go to dope? Use it wisely.

 

[szuko000]

Did you ever do anything to foster growth in yourself? Were you still in the same position you were? I got clean once and things didnt change because i didnt change. I was smoking crack and my girlfriend was still using dope so we still were not accomplishing anything so I relapsed probably largely because i was still repeating the same day over and over even though I was "clean" Funny enough relapsing got my girl clean and my second round of being clean i set goals for myself. Real goals like "have a car in 6 months" "start trying to rediscover my love for learning" I took the reins of my recovery this time rather going through the motions.

Sometimes drug use is a symptom not the root of the problem. If you cure the symptoms you dont care the issue. We are all capable of finding real happiness in this world but its something you fight and struggle for. The world will do its best to hold you down inhibit you from self discovery through material possession even the recovery places are not about empowering the individual its all about how the individual can not fend for themselves and must rely on a group to achieve their goals. That is the worst BS you can tell a recovering addict.

Start by making small goals and being happy you achieved them. All accomplishments are worth recognizing and reward for the individual and again society makes it seem like small accomplishments are meaningless, i assure you that even saving 1 dollar because your sober is worth celebrating. You can do whatever you set your mind to, anyone who reads this.