Recovery from Too Much Meth

[mirahan]

I am a male, 6'-3"; 220 lbs; 44 yrs old. (Yes, I know, too old for this dumb behavior)
I am decent with a computer and decided to look into the places on the internet that house markets for drugs that would normally be inaccessible to me.
I found 1 gram of meth and ordered it. I had done meth many years ago and remembered how good it made me feel.
I have done cocaine before on occasion, and thought that the weights of these two substances were comparable in dosage regimen.
Boy was I wrong. I smoked a little, but was mostly unsuccessful with that, and I snorted the rest. I probably did 750-850 mg over the course of two nights.
This past Friday and Saturday night was when I did it.
I have been feeling weird, really weird for the past week. I has been getting better, but still present.
Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday were pure hell. Thought I was losing my mind.
I am trying my best to eat, but still am having a hard time really getting my appetite back.
I can sleep, but only if I take .5 mg of xanax.
I have been supplementing with vitamins, 5-htp and hydrating well. Also trying to do light cardio in the morning.
My brain gets foggy and I feel jumpy and spacey at the same time.
How long can I expect this feeling of anxiety and panic to keep persisting? Any advice on what to do that I am not for recovery?

Thank you for the anticipated responses, and don't worry, I am NOT going to be doing meth again ever, and definitely never going back to the wrong side of the internet again.

 

[mirahan]

Maybe I can be thankful that my stay here was so short.
In the past couple days I have made great strides. Two tough workouts have me feeling back near normal.
Sorry if my post was in some way inappropriate, whether it be for this forum, or against the rules somehow.
I know I will never return to that dark, dark drug of methamphetamine. I felt like it almost was my undoing.
Maybe it was best I had to reply to myself here and that we never got to know each other.
I am going to check out now, and not look back. I have some great things waiting on me that do not involve intoxication at all.

 

[Muzda Jonxx]

Maybe I can be thankful that my stay here was so short.
In the past couple days I have made great strides. Two tough workouts have me feeling back near normal.
Sorry if my post was in some way inappropriate, whether it be for this forum, or against the rules somehow.
I know I will never return to that dark, dark drug of methamphetamine. I felt like it almost was my undoing.
Maybe it was best I had to reply to myself here and that we never got to know each other.
I am going to check out now, and not look back. I have some great things waiting on me that do not involve intoxication at all.

No, I just think you said it all in your post. I'd get off the xanax, that stuff will suck worse than meth in the long run. Although, that being said, I can't see 0.5mg here and there doing too much damage.

 

[Moreaux]

I'm glad you were able to quickly see the disadvantages of meth - that is a nasty drug. Eating healthy (clean), adequate sleep, and exercise are some of the best things you can do to heal. I agree with Muzda - benzos are insidious and ultimately make stress and anxiety worse in the long run. Some other supplements to try that really help with sleep are Relora, melatonin, and kava. If substituting them for Xanax I would throw magnesium and 5-htp into the mix. If you frequently take Xanax, do not just quit, do a taper. How long have you been on Xanax?

 

[morphine-dreams]

Meth does a number on your dopamine so I'm not surprised you're still not feeling quite right. Honestly, try not to think about it as best as you can and go on with life. It'll resolve soon enough. I don't see anything wrong with taking benzos as needed, just don't take them daily or for too long. Diphenhydramine and melatonin might help with sleep, if I don't have benzos that's my combo of choice for when I take adderall a bit too late (and lots of weed). I always recommend lots of weed for just about any come down or withdrawal. It seriously works better than everything but benzos for me. Good luck. I know it's hard not to worry with anxiety being a main symptom, but it's very self perpetuating. Any distraction will be good for the time being, and remember that plenty of people try meth once, hate it, and then return to normal.

 

[Muzda Jonxx]

I'm glad you were able to quickly see the disadvantages of meth - that is a nasty drug. Eating healthy (clean), adequate sleep, and exercise are some of the best things you can do to heal. I agree with Muzda - benzos are insidious and ultimately make stress and anxiety worse in the long run. Some other supplements to try that really help with sleep are Relora, melatonin, and kava. If substituting them for Xanax I would throw magnesium and 5-htp into the mix. If you frequently take Xanax, do not just quit, do a taper. How long have you been on Xanax?

Coming off xanax was the worst withdrawal of all, I could only cope with it for a day, then I caved and got on a monster dose of vallies instead. It gave the sensation of my teeth physically rotating in their sockets. It doesn't get any worse IMO, I was in a fucking board meeting at the time.

 

[Moreaux]

Coming off xanax was the worst withdrawal of all, I could only cope with it for a day, then I caved and got on a monster dose of vallies instead. It gave the sensation of my teeth physically rotating in their sockets. It doesn't get any worse IMO, I was in a fucking board meeting at the time.

OMG - I couldn't image! I had to quit my job when I got off Xanax. I was a software engineer and could form a cohesive thought. I know what you mean about the teeth - it felt like I was chewing on an electric cable - but then I felt like I had live current under my skin for a long time. I think words are inadequate to fully express how torturous benzo withdrawal is - and it lasts so long.

 

[Muzda Jonxx]

OMG - I couldn't image! I had to quit my job when I got off Xanax. I was a software engineer and could form a cohesive thought. I know what you mean about the teeth - it felt like I was chewing on an electric cable - but then I felt like I had live current under my skin for a long time. I think words are inadequate to fully express how torturous benzo withdrawal is - and it lasts so long.

Sux balls, hey? Stay away kids, these benzos exist only to fuck shit up.

 

[Erikmen]

I'm glad you were able to quickly see the disadvantages of meth - that is a nasty drug. Eating healthy (clean), adequate sleep, and exercise are some of the best things you can do to heal. I agree with Muzda - benzos are insidious and ultimately make stress and anxiety worse in the long run. Some other supplements to try that really help with sleep are Relora, melatonin, and kava. If substituting them for Xanax I would throw magnesium and 5-htp into the mix. If you frequently take Xanax, do not just quit, do a taper. How long have you been on Xanax?

I totally agree about meth, it seems and may look alright but it can cause irreparable lung damages.
Anyways.. I have personally had a very good experience with Melatonin and Kava, they are both quite effective. And not at all a problem to use regularly once you get it in the right dosages.

 

[Jabberwocky]

OMG - I couldn't image! I had to quit my job when I got off Xanax. I was a software engineer and could form a cohesive thought. I know what you mean about the teeth - it felt like I was chewing on an electric cable - but then I felt like I had live current under my skin for a long time. I think words are inadequate to fully express how torturous benzo withdrawal is - and it lasts so long.

Yeah, when I hear about people using loads of etizolam with the 6 hour half life I want to let them know all about the really long taper to get off 30 mg valium

 

[Moreaux]

When I was on Xanax it was prescribed by my psychiatrist for situational minor anxiety, though at the time I thought it was horribly unbearable anxiety and was ignorant to true anxiety. I was not educated about benzodiazapines, and failed to research Xanax. I stayed on it for ten years, which I deeply regret. I took my last Xanax six years ago and am still healing from the horrific excitotoxicity of being forced to quit cold turkey.

As bad as my experience was, I cannot fathom how people will cope having to quit some of the RC benzos that are readily available to purchase now. I have read where users develop a tolerance quickly and the daily dosage that they take to compensate, and often wonder how they will reclaim their lives as it almost seems an impossible task even with a taper, provided tha they are able to find a physician willing to go along with such a long term taper.