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Recovering Heroin Addict Discovering Crack and Xanax

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seanimal

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Hello all. I am - like the title says - a recovering heroin user. A NEWLY recovering heroin user, might I add. (6 days sober).
Recently, my dealer texts me telling me he has bars. "Oh awesome!" I think to myself.
Oh and the day before, I thought I had focalin, and I was going to try to iv it...only to find out (BEFORE IVING) that it was strattera. Bummer.
So I go see my suboxone doc today, and find out I have 80 $ left over.
Since I got fucked over with the focalin/strattera thing, I had my mind set on uppers. (Anything but dope, right?)
Wrong. I bought 4 xanax bars and 4 5 $ bags of crack. I have shot 2 of those bags in 15 mins and I took 2mg xanax.
Anyways im kinda freaked out because I really like this feeling of being barred out plus the rush of the crack.
I like it a bit too much.
Anyone find themselves in this situation? Or something similar?
Any advice would help...or just chit chat idk. I DO NOT want to get addicted to this shit.
Kinda scared :(
 
look man,this EXACT thing happened to me.
I was put on 16 mg subs but had to pick up at a clinic in the hood.
I ended up with binges on rock twice a week for two or three years.
sometimes more often.
all this time I was taking valium.
yeah,it's hard.fucking hard.
wishing you all the best,brother.
 
Its insane man....whole different thing than dope. Its hard to explain and it took me a bit to actually get used to it. Like, after my first shot I was dreading the next. But after 2 more....I WANT MORE. Lol.
Im doing my best to not fucking binge frequently...I JUST got off dope, I dont need this.
I think when it comes down to it...I am just a stone cold drug addict.
Sheeeeeyit. :/
 
it's devastating the way it fucking hits your seminal vortex or whatever.
but crack....
one is one too many and a thousand never enough.
you ALWAYS want more.it's so hard to stop smoking once started.
the thing is to not start.

I binged on crack from 2007 until the beginning of 2010.
not that long.
but I hated it.
it's too obsessive.
 
crack made me loose my fucking mind only meth and xanax bars equal crack in how bad it makes me at making decisions stop while you still can
 
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