I wish I could post this in the MDMA forum. Maybe it will discourage those who feel that using each weekend is safe and fun.
It's something I wrote about recovering from MDMA abuse. After a period of 6 months using on and off, I decided to kick it. I look healthy now. I gained back normal weight and I function normally.
but there is always a part of me that was permanently affected. I don't see people or the world the same way...
One starts to feel normal functioning as "mandatory" rather than of choice. You try and try to be your old self, perhaps even better self maybe. But there is always this disappointment with yourself, the world, and this horrible new way of living.
You start to drink, smoke excessively. Always thinking about way too many things.
Deafened
Ever sit for a moment
Let’s say, on a birthday or anniversary
And wonder
How did I get here?
I never knew what changes occurred
I never questioned my logic or thinking
These past few months were
Long and torturous, but so quick to pass
But don't be sad, its a cause to be happy
You understand the true nature of people
You understand yourself better
The future seems far off, and time is in unending supply
Funny, because now time is the last thing you want
It's something I wrote about recovering from MDMA abuse. After a period of 6 months using on and off, I decided to kick it. I look healthy now. I gained back normal weight and I function normally.
but there is always a part of me that was permanently affected. I don't see people or the world the same way...
One starts to feel normal functioning as "mandatory" rather than of choice. You try and try to be your old self, perhaps even better self maybe. But there is always this disappointment with yourself, the world, and this horrible new way of living.
You start to drink, smoke excessively. Always thinking about way too many things.
Deafened
Ever sit for a moment
Let’s say, on a birthday or anniversary
And wonder
How did I get here?
I never knew what changes occurred
I never questioned my logic or thinking
These past few months were
Long and torturous, but so quick to pass
But don't be sad, its a cause to be happy
You understand the true nature of people
You understand yourself better
The future seems far off, and time is in unending supply
Funny, because now time is the last thing you want
