Great documentary that one. There is also another on LSD which is worth a watch...
Anyhows. After NY this year I am at the point of retiring from MDMA consumption. Pretty much have been a for a while now but I think this is it this time
I started munching late 2000, mainly with speed then sampling MDMA for the first time late that year or early 2001. From memory it was a white pokemon (ahh the joys). I was a relatively heavy user in 2001 (at least once every weekend maybe more. 1-3 bickies each session amongst other things). Each year after my usage has halved/or quartered, or perhaps more to the point where the four years its been maybe once or twice a year if that. And I havent replaced it with anything else (ie. Work, wife, house, kid, responsibilities are priorities now).
I have had some great biscuits in my time. Back in 2001-2004ish, every weekend I usually ended up with arguably best bickies going around at the time. I have had some of the ones pictured earlier on, also, pokemons, blue melody, white butterflies orange alphas, green ?, green BB's, Red HQ's, orange JA's, pink ladies, green butterflys, blue diamonds, orange stars, blue fish (dont under estimate these little suckers), white/pink hearts, beige safesex/durex, blue barrels, beige 007's, red 3's, pink/purple rolex's, brown melody, yellow tulips, brown A's is about as many as I can recall. One of these would easily get me where I needed to be and a second/third would finish the night (nothing works for me after the third apart from empty brain feeling). This was the case even as late on as 2005.
In the last 4yrs the quality has steadily declined from what I can see based on reading forums, pillreports and contacts with people still in the scene. The last time I can honestly remember a great peak off one pill was a yellow tulip in 2005. Other than that I had a great cap in 2008 which was officially the last real peak I had. Other stuff I have taken chances with has just been utter crap to the point where a couple of times I have just turfed them out.
This year I took the chance again. I had a brown CK's. These had some reasonable reports in some cases. However, it seemed it was the younger generation poppers reporting this and the experienced users seemed to say otherwise. Chargey after about 3hrs, long lasting, kept me awake, then had me poo-ing through the eye of a needle about 8hrs after, along with 4 other mates (and no we ate different meals from different locations - all very experienced users and never experiencing this before). Where was the love? Obviously MDEA/MDA/Speed? Who knows what else, maybe some turbolax or metamusil.
Once again, disappointing. Sure its who you know, but once there was no drama at all from anyone 90% of the time, most sources are still the same and generally pillreports was covered with reviews of great stuff. Its not like that now. Sure tolerance increases, but the tulip proved to me in 2005 that I was still loving it, since then I can count on 2 hands the amount of occassions I have taken stuff from a tolerance perspective, and of those times only once has been good.
I wont be looking for a while, I can only be disappointed so many times. Sorry Molly, its been the greatest, best times of my life, but the love seems to have gone. RIP for now. I hope you visit me again one day.
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. Yeah your right about it. If you have a look back over the years there are probably people with similiar concerns as we are having now.