Really scared help me

[miliefisathand]

first of all, im very very glad you are safe. the worst is over. now.

i'm along with others in that my most sincerest hunch is you consumed some kind of RC. doc or dom
really really high doses of stimulating psychedelics often hurt the head.
i was once hospitalized for taking 20 hits of 2ce while told it was 2 hits. the dealer has since had the worst karma, busted and dealing with 10 years of probation.
anyhow, the tension for all that cosmic energy can cause a lot of strain on the noggin.

quitting weed in general has been attributed to a wide host of physical pains in the ass to include headaches. combine that with a bad trip and you are one shaken person.
just rest, and walk and breathe. extreme trips tend to feel like dying so realize you are living and rejoice in that.

also sometimes when i trip to hard the following weeks i resolved to go "straight edge" are you sure this is your new way of life?
your current situation may benefit from some herb. if I were you i would try a tiny bit and see if it helps.

 

[miliefisathand]

I felt your situation so interesting that I created this account to share my thoughts on your experience.

I have had a very seasoned experience with many different psychedelics in their countless shapes and sizes.. and I've helped a few close friends through a similar situation to what you are describing.. which was induced by what could be considered an extremely irresponsible dose of the synthetic cannabinoid, JWH-018.

I would suggest, if you can get a hold of it, 1 - 1.5 mg doses of APO-LORAZEPAM (as needed) to counteract your anxieties. What I have described this post-trip psychosis in the following manner;

Your brain, mind, consciousness, state of being.. what ever you would choose to label it, Is a muscle much like the ones we use everyday in our bodies. Our brain has existing psychoactive receptors, that are working to receive the psychedelic metabolite.. Much like the processes carried out within us when we work out physically..

What your describing.. seems like you put to much stress on that particular muscle.. and like other muscles put in relative situations, the muscle will tear or rip and require rest and rehabilitation.

I would suggest NOT engaging in ANY sort of mind challenging drug use, use only Lorazepam which will remove feelings of anxiety, and allow you to sleep. Also i recommend the natural extract "Ginko Biloba" to regulate your mood and cognition.
These are the only chemicals you should be ingesting for at least 2 months.

Stay away from mental health clinics, they do not understand spirituality, and will not permit you to remain in society if they believe you will relapse on any form of psyche.
Drug culture is frowned upon and criticized wrongfully. Do not seek help from these types of establishment.. seek help from those who have actually EXPERIENCED what you are right now.

Hope this helps.

-"Mostasteless"

this person, listen to him. this is wisdom.

 

[MostastelessMC]

this person, listen to him. this is wisdom.

You are too kind. Thank you.

@scaredgirl, as i mentioned in my response to your PM. I have had a wonderful and very informative experience with 5-HydroxyTryptophan myself, and if you are leaning towards taking that regularly I could never advise against it. I would suggest however regulating how much you are taking and be very cautious not to over-do it.

5-HTP, will increase your serotonin levels. And as we have learned through the use of things like LSD, Serotonin is responsible for many of your brains important and hormonal processes. So in this case it MAY regulate your imbalances, but being as the impaired state was induced by a psychedelic like LSD, it is quite possible that your serotonin levels are already quite high as it is, and taking 5-HTP just might push those levels right off balance. Everything in the universe operates based upon an important element of relationships, or in this case a better word to use would be BALANCE. Creating an imbalance in the brain is very dangerous, 5-HTP is a marvelous chemical... but like all marvelous chemicals, they must be used with moderation and great care and responsibility.

Quite simply, take small amounts and weight their effects. Find an amount that feels good WITHOUT exceeding into a danger-zone, then formulate how many times you are going to take it a day, and at what dosage.
5-HTP is not something you take once at an extremely high dose for a singular experience. It's something you have to take at lower doses, daily to secure long term changes in your brain.

I will reiterate -- I can never advise against something as great as 5-HTP. However in your situation, as a frequent psyche user. It may not be necessary as it seems you have already created a sort of imbalance.
I would view 5-HTP, based on its legality.. to anyone who is not a frequent psyche user, as a medicine of the mind. For the broadening and expansion of the human condition.

You on the other hand, may not need it.
use your own discretion. You command your own reality, and you know your mind better than anyone else.

Tryptophan can be found in many different fruits and vegetables, such as banana's and potatoes, the quantaties there-in are insignificant.. But it does give 5-HTP a very natural vibe.

I'd say as long as you are careful, GO FOR IT!

 

[scaredgrl]

(MostastelessMC) Cannot PM you because your inbox is full.....thanks for the information. I am just seriously confused about what to do at this point..I'm not sure how much of my post you read through so Let me explain this to you and see what you think...I started feeling very crazy and all the symptoms I described in my post after a week long drug binge. Started with shrooms, heroine, MDMA and ending with the LSD. I felt just fine with everything except the lsd -which I know you know that. So I took the LSD on Feb.11th and the day after I tried some weed and that freaked me out really bad ended up in the er..so after that I was on nothing at all besides a little bit of ativan for a moth straight. I felt absolutely insane like I was in a dream and I was never going to wake up, constant panic attacks, it was hell. Well after a month of going at it alone(besides the benzos) I finally decided to try the celexa I had and my symptoms did improve. I felt more like myself and happy....I think that my serotonin levels must be too low and that is why it helped? I read your response on my post and you suggested staying off all the meds and that is confusing me a bit. I do not like the idea of fucking with my serotonin levels after my ordeal but I think that an ssri is the only thing that has made me feel better. I am currently on zoloft and have been feeling really weird...called my doctor today and he insisted i give it another week. Ugh I am just very confused don't know whether to listen to the doctor or just try to get off these meds.....I am also afraid of serotonin syndrome and i think that the anxiety over that isn't helping matters so idk what I am going to do...not to mention the insomnia that the zoloft has caused..It is terrifying because I can fall asleep initially but then at some point I wake up and just stare....When I finally snap out of it it feels like I never slept at all and was just staring all night. It really freaks me out...it is like 11:46 right now and I am scared of going to sleep because I know I will wake at some point and just stare into space for hours...

 

[88brenno]

Staring spell is a form of a seizure I think, perhaps you could get a sleep study done?

 

[featherknife]

Scaredgirl..................

You are not dealing with ego death. Almost every single one of your sentences begin with "I". That is your ego. You have more ego than you need. The symptoms that you continue to describe, while probably exacerbated by the large dose of LSD you took, are part of your OCD, which is an anxiety disorder. You should not ever do psychedelic drugs. You should stop trying to medicate your problems with street drugs, and get serious help for what is a mental disorder that will not go away on its own, and it wont go away because you are taking every drug you can get your hands on. A lot of the treatment for anxiety disorders is based on understanding exactly what is happening to you and learning as much as you can about the problem. Look in the DSM....the diagnostic manual for mental disorders. Almost everything you have said is textbook anxiety disorder symptoms. You have a serious mental disorder, and you need to listen to your doctors, and counselors. You experienced a psychotic break, and you are lucky that it wasn't permanent. Be careful. Work on good nutrition, get as much sleep as you can, and listen to your medical professionals. This isn't hopeless, but it is very serious. The people on here who are telling you that they know exactly how you feel probably don't, unless they also have a similar mental disorder. Good luck with this.

 

[scaredgrl]

Featherknife thank you for your post. I have not posted on this thread in awhile with an update so here it goes...I stopped Zoloft(terrible stomach pain,constipation)and I am now taking 20mg celexa in the morning and .25 Xanax throughout the day...It has been very rough dealing with the side effects, but overall I have a much better grip on reality, and I am thinking much more rationally these days. The past two months have been the most difficult times of my life, and it has been a rollercoaster going from one type of crazy feeling to another and now I still have panic attacks which no medication can control but have learned to just -deal with it- 8). I feel like I am on a mind altering drug and cannot escape the way it makes my brain feel, but I realize that I need to be on this drug and that it is ok to not feel like the same person I was. It is actually very very scary to not have a constant whir of thoughts going through your mind like something else is in control. To actually be able to control every thought that goes into my head is a factor in my anxiety now. I often have insomnia because I cannot just let my thoughts drift me to sleep..I have the ability now to have total silence inside my head and can think of anything I choose. Lastnight before I went to bed I made sure I was thinking about someone I have a big crush on and sure enough he consumed my dream. It is kind of cool but scary too. Overall I am glad I went through this experience...I have finally addressed some major issues in my life and see things clearly for the first time in my whole life. I agree I am never going to do psychedelics again. I know that I might be able to have a good experience as long as I was mentally better, but I don't want to take that risk.and maybe not weed either... idk...