Really need some tips on how to stop shitting on myself...

[webology]

Hi

im 20 years old, have a job, and I smoke cannabis.

the thing is i keep taking mcat at the weekend and fucking myself up and spending like half of my wages (£60-140) on it (foolish I know, but I really struggle to see it in this perspective on friday. I then end up working half the week just to pay off the debt for the Mcat, but by the time its friday again its like my brain blocks out the negative thoughts associated with taking mcat (comedown, feeling like a zombie next day, heart load, panic attacks etc..) Honestly, I think the initial buzz is 'good' if you can call it that, but I've done it enough times by now to realize that the bad just outweighs the good for me. anyone who's took it before will surely be able to relate, to some extent or another.

I snort it so once I've had that first bit the reinforcing effect kicks in and from that point onwards its just one massive binge. I really need to stop as its getting to the point now where I'm having to borrow off my parents because my money doesn't last me all week.

Basically I just want to quit the shit for good but it's really become an integrated part of my weekend and I know too many people around here that take it to simply avoid it. I just want to be able to find it in me to be able to take control of the situation and never do Mcat again.

Thanks in advance

 

[DeathDomokun]

If you don't feel like you're able to just say no/stop at this point in time, you could very well cut ties with your dealer/friends who indulge, change clubs/bars/where ever it is your friends/dealer spends their weekends, and just hit the bong.
If it's become a part of your weekend, change what you do on the weekend. If it's become a part of your relationship, create new relationships (and end the destructive ones whilst they're destructive)

 

[stardust.hero]

Hey webology I had a pretty tough run with mephedrone as well. I can totally relate to the rational thinking being thrown out the window on Friday. And of course the binging. I am assuming you are in the UK and you can get it at street level now? I can't even imagine how hard that must be for you. I got into drone while it was still an internet chemical so luckily when my bag was empty I couldn't make a phone call to get more. It would be a 4 or 5 day shipping time instead. That didn't really help the binges if I had a few grams worth from a recent order though.

You are going to have to find it in you to stop all together. Change some kind of pattern so you can't buy it in Friday. Force yourself on a bus to another city so you miss that Friday party and throw off your schedule with the drug. Something that will force you. Ask a friend to take your paycheck. Tell your dealer you don't want to buy anymore. You are going to have to be strong and find a way to throw off the cycle.

Keep us updated on how you are doing.

 

[J.Wallace]

The thread title is really deceiving. I opened this expecting this to be about somebody who literally can't stop shitting on themselves...

 

[DeathDomokun]

Hahahah you're not the only one Wallace

 

[webology]

Thanks for the replies, and haha fortunately I have never managed to shit on myself literally

I guess I really do need to stay out of everyones way, the really awkward thing is though i've got his laptop and I need to give that back to him so I'll have to see him again soon -.-

 

[slackhands]

Me and my mates used to kill a few grams of Mephedrone (If that's what you are referring to) at the weekend. That's when it was legal and cheap and most importantly pure. I never used to feel bad taking Meph in that it never gave me headaches or made me dehydrated unlike all the stuff I very occasionally buy off the street now. Tbh my current view, is that unless I know exactly what I'm taking and the possible consequences I'll refrain from taking these substances on a weekly basis, and make it more of a monthly thing (except leap years cause they're special )

 

[Vaya]

Come up with a game plan beforehand when you need to return the guy's computer. Trust me, if you work as hard at this as you do working to pay for the mephedrone, it'll be a huge asset to your making it through the meeting without having blown more money on the stuff. Either tell him you have an appointment somewhere and need to just dip in and out, or tell him the truth about your addiction and the course of action you plan to take in order to address it. Either way, stardust.hero is absolutely spot-on with her comment that you are going to have to stop taking it altogether. Like cocaine and most other stimulants I used to snort, mephedrone is endlessly reinforcing. It seems like a good way to make yourself feel active and involved during your time off from work. Addressing these thoughts the right way really means keeping away from the stuff altogether. Mephedrone has huge potential in leading towards full-blown, life-dominating addiction. Even if success has to come about by moving slightly farther out of town, or to a different location entirely, that is oftentimes the only way to avoid those throngs of people you have come to know who use meph, and I'd still suggest doing it.

It's not your comfort, or money, or anything else at stake. Most often, it's the very livelihood that makes you.... you.
I wish you well
~ Vaya

 

[Cyc]

Sea snails, when they were undergoing evolution of their shell, developed torsion. Torsion was the ability for the carapace of the snail to protect the vulnerable head. Evolution favoured a twisting of the internal organs and shell, until the proto-snail was essentially shitting on its own head.

In response, snails underwent a process known as detorsion, where the shell moved back 90 degrees, to allow for better placement of the anus with regard to the mouth. The phrase, "don't shit where you eat" comes to mind here.

So maybe, like the sea snail, you need to pull back 90 degrees. In vertebrate terms, this means moderation.

 

[tripnotyzm]

Mephedrone is evil. It got banned in my country so the people around me stopped buying it online.
If it didn't end up banned i am very sure i would be in heavy trouble right now.
You need to take a look at what life would be like when heavily addicted to a substance like Mephedrone/m-cat/whatever-its-called.
Just because it is so easily accessible and you have a weekly income to support the evil, doesn't mean it is any less damaging than Heroin or Meth.
They don't even know the long term side effects & damages from Mephedrone abuse.
Seems like you still have a chance to turn things around before it gets too out of your control.
Just remember, (and i know this sounds harsh), you can keep getting high off this very mysterious product every weekend, but it does have the potential to kill you.. if it doesn't waste you away to nothing and force your butt into the street first.
Take care and lose your habit man Money is better without it. Life's better without it.