xtcgrrrl
Bluelight Crew
I'm posting this here because I didn't know where else to put it. I've been reasonably sober for a while now, a little occasional crack use, but tonight I scored 7 bags of crack, of two different kinds, and a couple bags of dope. This is from a new guy and his stuff is WAY better than what I was getting before. I did 2-3 of the crack bags, finishing up with one of each kind, and got an AMAZING bellringer. I can still feel it. The dope is excellent quality too and he didn't skimp on the bags like some do in the god-awful neighborhood I have to go to to cop. I've got a really nice, pleasant high right now and everything is right with the world 
and it's good enough stuff that I'm not fiending like crazy - I'm finished for the night and will have some left over for tomorrow and possibly the next day (although I wouldn't count on it lasting that long, lol.) But best of all, I'm ALONE in my room, which is the way I prefer to be high. For some people drugs are a very social experience, but I like to be alone, so that I can reach out online if I want to, or just listen to music or read or watch a movie. I really hate that, for girls, sometimes you end up in places with people you'd rather not associate with, and if a guy is buying your drugs for you they expect you to put out. Which I've done, actually, although when I'm high I'd rather not have sex...I just want to enjoy the high to the fullest WITHOUT extra sensations butting in. I know this makes me seem kind of like a whore, but I bet a lot of girls who've been into drugs heavily have done the same thing...gone along with having sex just because they feel obligated to someone for getting drugs for them. But to be alone, comfortable, in my nice CLEAN room that doesn't reek of stale food or old cigarette smells or worse...the places I've done drugs in have sometimes been absolutely DISGUSTING. But it doesn't matter as much when you're high. But because of those experiences, I REALLY appreciate being somewhere I feel totally, absolutely, 100% comfortable. I've got my vape, I've got pills to help me sleep. bottled water, I'm warm and clean and in a cozy environment. There's really nothing better. Anyone else feel the same?
and it's good enough stuff that I'm not fiending like crazy - I'm finished for the night and will have some left over for tomorrow and possibly the next day (although I wouldn't count on it lasting that long, lol.) But best of all, I'm ALONE in my room, which is the way I prefer to be high. For some people drugs are a very social experience, but I like to be alone, so that I can reach out online if I want to, or just listen to music or read or watch a movie. I really hate that, for girls, sometimes you end up in places with people you'd rather not associate with, and if a guy is buying your drugs for you they expect you to put out. Which I've done, actually, although when I'm high I'd rather not have sex...I just want to enjoy the high to the fullest WITHOUT extra sensations butting in. I know this makes me seem kind of like a whore, but I bet a lot of girls who've been into drugs heavily have done the same thing...gone along with having sex just because they feel obligated to someone for getting drugs for them. But to be alone, comfortable, in my nice CLEAN room that doesn't reek of stale food or old cigarette smells or worse...the places I've done drugs in have sometimes been absolutely DISGUSTING. But it doesn't matter as much when you're high. But because of those experiences, I REALLY appreciate being somewhere I feel totally, absolutely, 100% comfortable. I've got my vape, I've got pills to help me sleep. bottled water, I'm warm and clean and in a cozy environment. There's really nothing better. Anyone else feel the same?
