I'm a junior studying engineering management at Miami University and I have one of the hardest choices ahead of me in couple days. I have 1/2oz of lemon haze and 2g shrooms (in liquid form) coming from Agora this weekend or early next week and I need to make the choice if I want to use them or just give them to a friend. Might sounds like a obvious choice to you guys, but I don't know which choice is in my best interests.
Little more background on me. I'm a Christian and God is literally the most important thing to me. I believe Christianity has the potential to cause happiness and joy that can't be found anywhere else in this world and I really love God. I don't feel guilt when I mess up and I base my beliefs on the fact that God loves and likes me. I have my doubts, but I want to keep believing in God for rest of my life because I know I can be fully satisfied in him when life stops sucking. When I believe and all powerful deity whose love for me is infinite who promises I can spend eternity with him, is on my side, I can find happiness and joy no matter whats happening to me. Unless I'm too numb to feel almost anything and care about things I should care...
I've most likely been depressed last 7 years and about 6 months ago I started to get help for it. I've tried 3 different antidepressants and none of them do anything. Last winter I smoked weed for the first time and continued smoking for 3 months because it was the greatest thing I've ever experienced. I was able to have feelings of happiness, love, curiosity, appreciation for beauty, and just feel happy to be alive.
I have many awesome friends who really care about me and I'm really open with them about my depression, serious suicidal thoughts and life in general. I haven't smoked weed for 6 months and I quit then because I thought going after God with everything I have would be enough to make me happy.
So now the issue I need help with.
Your honest opinions if starting the use of weed and possibly shrooms in my life situation seems like a smart choice and make my life better.
Any feedback and advice is appreciated
Little more background on me. I'm a Christian and God is literally the most important thing to me. I believe Christianity has the potential to cause happiness and joy that can't be found anywhere else in this world and I really love God. I don't feel guilt when I mess up and I base my beliefs on the fact that God loves and likes me. I have my doubts, but I want to keep believing in God for rest of my life because I know I can be fully satisfied in him when life stops sucking. When I believe and all powerful deity whose love for me is infinite who promises I can spend eternity with him, is on my side, I can find happiness and joy no matter whats happening to me. Unless I'm too numb to feel almost anything and care about things I should care...
I've most likely been depressed last 7 years and about 6 months ago I started to get help for it. I've tried 3 different antidepressants and none of them do anything. Last winter I smoked weed for the first time and continued smoking for 3 months because it was the greatest thing I've ever experienced. I was able to have feelings of happiness, love, curiosity, appreciation for beauty, and just feel happy to be alive.
I have many awesome friends who really care about me and I'm really open with them about my depression, serious suicidal thoughts and life in general. I haven't smoked weed for 6 months and I quit then because I thought going after God with everything I have would be enough to make me happy.
So now the issue I need help with.
Your honest opinions if starting the use of weed and possibly shrooms in my life situation seems like a smart choice and make my life better.
Any feedback and advice is appreciated
