My husband started taking Kratom October of 2013. He tried all of the strains and felt nothing. Now my husband does not have any prior abuse with illicit drugs, alcohol, or prescriptions except a brief accidental addition to oxy about 5 years ago. I suppose he began taking Kratom because he wanted to feel relaxed? Finally only the UEI gave him the feeling he was looking for. He asked me to try it. I took one and felt horribly sick and weird. I have never drank alcohol or done any drugs. He had asked me to try it because he wanted to see how it affected me. I was so mad at him for giving that pill to me as it really made me feel super ill, sick, and strange. I did not like the feeling. I felt like I was going to die. He felt nothing like that...he said he felt good. He took one pill daily for about 8 months. No addition really.
However, he began to increase his intake of the UEI. He began taking two pills daily because we were on vacation and he was stressed. I had been warning him from the beginning that this stuff is going to be addicting. He argued with me and told me not to judge him and swore it was safe, non-habit forming, and no withdrawals. So after fighting non stop I finally said, fine its your body. Do what you want. Since he gets EXTREMELY defensive about his Kratom, I just let it go. He is a big boy after all.
Now I dont know how it happened but he is now up to taking 4 pills 5 times a day!!!! This is UEI. We are talking 10grams daily. We are talking about 525.00 and this shit only lasting him 8 days. We are talking panic attacks when he misses a dose. We are talking sheer terror when shipping gets delayed on his Kratom. We are talking about his life. He now sees he is addicted, well , at least he is finally opening up to me and talking about it and asking for help. He caught a cold and had to mix kratom use with Mucinex DM, Dayquil etc. My husband had his first panic attack and I almost had to take him to the ER. Its the only time I've seen that man cry. He is going to try lowering his doses after our Disney trip next week. He wants to be off this stuff altogether.
I'm not here to judge anyone or to belittle the love of my life. I love him so much and I am really afraid for him. This stuff is getting expensive and its affecting our sex life. On top of it all I have been trying to gently warn him to be careful and his defensive attitude toward GENTLE, NON-JUDGEMENTAL suggestions have left me sitting here saying, I freaking told you so. Am I mad? Yes. I am mad that he let this happen to us. See this stuff affects more than the user. It affects children and spouses. Its not cool that my kids are going to be asking whats wrong with dad when he attempts to come off this stuff. He is scaring the shit out of me and I am truly horrified at what withdrawal looks like for him. I know many of you may throw up a guard when I talk bad of kratom. If you are going to defend kratom to me, I dont want to hear it. You havent seen what I have seen and nothing you can say will make me think this stuff is anything but the devil in pill form.
I'm sure many of you can relate to his situation. My question is this. How can I be the best help to him as he faces this beast of a withdrawal process that is coming up? When should I seek help for him if he turns suicidal? What type of dose lowering should he try? I am all he has in this world besides our kids. He has no friends, no loving family, so I am it. I dont want to screw up and hurt him. But lets be clear, I'm mad that this is happening to the man I love. He has brought us to a place I never thought would happen to us. I am pissed that he basically tricked me becuase he wanted to feel good ALL the TIME. HELP! Help me help him. What do you wish your loved one would have done or not done to help you?
However, he began to increase his intake of the UEI. He began taking two pills daily because we were on vacation and he was stressed. I had been warning him from the beginning that this stuff is going to be addicting. He argued with me and told me not to judge him and swore it was safe, non-habit forming, and no withdrawals. So after fighting non stop I finally said, fine its your body. Do what you want. Since he gets EXTREMELY defensive about his Kratom, I just let it go. He is a big boy after all.
Now I dont know how it happened but he is now up to taking 4 pills 5 times a day!!!! This is UEI. We are talking 10grams daily. We are talking about 525.00 and this shit only lasting him 8 days. We are talking panic attacks when he misses a dose. We are talking sheer terror when shipping gets delayed on his Kratom. We are talking about his life. He now sees he is addicted, well , at least he is finally opening up to me and talking about it and asking for help. He caught a cold and had to mix kratom use with Mucinex DM, Dayquil etc. My husband had his first panic attack and I almost had to take him to the ER. Its the only time I've seen that man cry. He is going to try lowering his doses after our Disney trip next week. He wants to be off this stuff altogether.
I'm not here to judge anyone or to belittle the love of my life. I love him so much and I am really afraid for him. This stuff is getting expensive and its affecting our sex life. On top of it all I have been trying to gently warn him to be careful and his defensive attitude toward GENTLE, NON-JUDGEMENTAL suggestions have left me sitting here saying, I freaking told you so. Am I mad? Yes. I am mad that he let this happen to us. See this stuff affects more than the user. It affects children and spouses. Its not cool that my kids are going to be asking whats wrong with dad when he attempts to come off this stuff. He is scaring the shit out of me and I am truly horrified at what withdrawal looks like for him. I know many of you may throw up a guard when I talk bad of kratom. If you are going to defend kratom to me, I dont want to hear it. You havent seen what I have seen and nothing you can say will make me think this stuff is anything but the devil in pill form.
I'm sure many of you can relate to his situation. My question is this. How can I be the best help to him as he faces this beast of a withdrawal process that is coming up? When should I seek help for him if he turns suicidal? What type of dose lowering should he try? I am all he has in this world besides our kids. He has no friends, no loving family, so I am it. I dont want to screw up and hurt him. But lets be clear, I'm mad that this is happening to the man I love. He has brought us to a place I never thought would happen to us. I am pissed that he basically tricked me becuase he wanted to feel good ALL the TIME. HELP! Help me help him. What do you wish your loved one would have done or not done to help you?