Realization

[PartyKid420]

Whats up? I've been looking at Bluelight for like 2 years now and have basically been a looker and not a poster. Well I've learned so much from this site and I think its time to just start posting, so here it goes.....
All the places I've been
All the people I've met
And still I live a life full of regret
All my life I lived the dreams of other people
I was good at it, better then equal
Until one day that I realized
The dreams that i worked for weren't the dreams in my eyes
I was scared, I was lost
All the years wasted were at a great cost
I could have been doing what I wanted to do
Controlling the one that stepped into my shoes
Dad I'm sorry soccer wasn't my thing
Everytime I say it, I know it makes your ears ring
It hurts you deep on the inside
Because I didn't live the life you saw for me in your eyes
At about 16 I chose another path
One where I was always trying to make quick cash
That i would then waste on different chemicals
That twisted my mind and made many nights memorable
Getting fucked up was the life for me
Today was the farthest I could see
My future...no I couldn't see there
Though I thought there was noone, one girl did care
But I ignored all of her pleas
No matter what anyone said, I wouldn't agree
I lost my best friend
And right then it should have been the end
But I didn't care, the drugs eased the pain
Even sunny days were filled with rain
Then I met some people that I'm lucky to have met
They helped me escape the life of regret
Chillin with them helped me to see
The kind of person I could be
Over a year we got very close
In May we travelled to some place remote
We went to a "witch festival" or something like that
We experienced a whole new world and then came back
To a place that we have always called home
But for some reason I think we should leave this place alone
For soon it is our turn to go out in the world
To make an impression, show them how we twirl
Fire in circles and make things disappear
We even have a brother that can't hear
Nothing can stop us, we know how to be true
True to ourselves, and true to our crew
Will we succeed in this thing we've begun
Noone will know till the day we are done
As long as we show the world who we are
I'm sure that we'll make it real far...

 

[frostyangel]

This was a very touching piece.
Although, I can say that I only relate to this alittle, your emotions were well expressed.
It's sad when a parent(s) try to make you become what they never were. Some people don't understand the impacts they have on children. So much of the what should be, and aren't suppose to bes. Instead of letting the child grow into "Their Own" person.
Be strong, a parent should love you no matter what path you decide to choose, some parents it's just takes alittle more time to except the real you inside.