REALIZATION

[unicorn83]

walking down a long dark road,
not knowing which way to go
an endless battle with deamons in my head
from a beggining of a day till i lay on my bed.
endless tears, of sadness, and confusion, will i smile again with no chemical intrusion?!
day after day, night after night, feeling helpless yet fight for 'what if i might'.
walking between the bursts of joy, people smiling people who can enjoy. i look at the lights with a pill in my hand, smile at the person next to me, hand it over and say enjoy your night.
i have found the light that struggled to shine, i smile with all might thanking god for this high.
natural, satisfactory, and beautiful as life, i have walked through my dark tunnel, but found the light, the light of life that i will hold on to for the rest of my life

crap in ever way, except it's meaning to me

explination: i wasn't addicted to pills but seemed only happy on them, but today i can get the same feeling of happiness sober.
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'id rather live in an illusion than face harsh reality' me
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[Sara Tonin]

Of course you can, sweetie! Happiness is in your own power...that alone should make you happy. A pill is just an accessory.

 

[unicorn83]

THANX for that sara!! i know..but it took me a pretty long while to figure that out!! i still wish i figured it out sooner, as my life changed due to the fact i didnt know how to be happy, but just as well as our fellow BL nietzche says...everything will be ok in the end!!

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'id rather live in an illusion than face harsh reality' me
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