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It's so good to see you post BabyGurl. 
I'm also glad to hear that you're doing better. Sometimes when we're not doing too well, it can be difficult to remember that the suffering is only temporary.
I'm also glad to hear that you're doing better. Sometimes when we're not doing too well, it can be difficult to remember that the suffering is only temporary.
T. Calderone
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Babygurl, I'm glad you got to spend time with your family. That had to feel so good and knowing they are still there for you. More so than your boyfriends believe me, if I had known I was going to lose my mom so quick, I would have spent more time with her. I know how it feels because I've made some bad choices in partners. I never saw it for what is really was until it was over and the damage well done.
You can make it on your own and you might miss him for a while but you're better off. I know you're scared to rush into sobriety but the inebriated you isn't the real you. The drugs have brought you comfort but even at much higher doses, they're losing their effectiveness aren't they? This isn't how you were meant to be, you deserve so much more! Don't take offense to what I'm saying, please I just really think you need some help. You can pm me anytime to talk, for real I'm so worried for you and I'm a good listener! (( ))
You can make it on your own and you might miss him for a while but you're better off. I know you're scared to rush into sobriety but the inebriated you isn't the real you. The drugs have brought you comfort but even at much higher doses, they're losing their effectiveness aren't they? This isn't how you were meant to be, you deserve so much more! Don't take offense to what I'm saying, please I just really think you need some help. You can pm me anytime to talk, for real I'm so worried for you and I'm a good listener! ((
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BabyGurl3171
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Ty everyone. I'm feeling so much better!!
I quit opiates. Cut back a lot on benzos n weed. Alcohol only once every 2 wks maybe n only a buzz not drunk.
Gotta watch my ADHD med tho. Been snorting it bc it seems to work better but it went from my rx'd amount of 60 mg a day to 120 mgs snorted through out the day. I caught myself so I'm cutting myself back. Yesterday I only did 90 mgs. Today 80 mgs over 10 hrs. Only 60 was snorted. Tomorrow I'm hoping to stay at my 60 mg dose or no more than 10 mgs over.
One step at a time! ?
I quit opiates. Cut back a lot on benzos n weed. Alcohol only once every 2 wks maybe n only a buzz not drunk.
Gotta watch my ADHD med tho. Been snorting it bc it seems to work better but it went from my rx'd amount of 60 mg a day to 120 mgs snorted through out the day. I caught myself so I'm cutting myself back. Yesterday I only did 90 mgs. Today 80 mgs over 10 hrs. Only 60 was snorted. Tomorrow I'm hoping to stay at my 60 mg dose or no more than 10 mgs over.
One step at a time! ?
