d-amphetamine69
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MODS DONT DETELE THIS. I am messed up right now on the below substances taken 1 hour prior to my writing of this message. I will fix it when Im sober and we can decipher my mind. this will be a great thread
*11:50pm central us time* *dose was 1 hr before <- time)*
150 lbs male
2.5mg clonzepam no benzo tolerence- taken like 23 min before i started smoking
.5 gram cannabis - dense sticky brick weed. visable orange hairs. half sweet half skunky smelling. Dark in color but it gets you high
50mg sertraline (zoloft) daily
oh by the way i have exreme sensitivity to weed
Notes i want to remember this trip but wont because of clonopio =]
Cannabinoid recptors = how we dream at night
*side note. eyes closed i see moving pulsating fractals on a plane black infinite notging absense. like a painting.tunnel shaped.*I NORMALLY HAVE GOOD CORRECT PUNCTUATION* cow
parabola just turned on on my playlist and the music feels earthy, like a kinda dark forest not scary tho.
same concept Screen saver = dreams the same reason. the BIG truth. *IMPORTANT( current time is 12:09am
going to check my eyes to see how fucked i look--- red eyes average. pupil size normal it was quiet and then "PPK Resurection" came on and the beat when i heard it it was as if i could in some distant minds eye see plane of space and the sound waves travel through them. *happened in a split second of pure droplets of time matrix style*
*time 12:12am*
Oh shit I just heard a noise at the window and it scared the fuck outta me*
damn that was a buz killer. Oh by the way I take Clonazepam because I suffer panic attacks when i smoke weed. thats why i took then KPINS. So I dont Freak out like "omg everyones gonna kill me and fucking im in hell" shiiiiiit.
Oh and my other revelation was that the reason i react different to weed isis because i tried it a few times at first and my brain suddenly started viewing it as a toxin when i normal brain thinks it is fine,. so then my brain shuts down the gaba receptors when thc comes in to make me sense bad things like paranoia and panic. When in a normal brain their gaba levels would stay the same even with the thc. its genetics.
*12:17* and strawberry fields forever just came on*
Jesus is sounds slow motion.
I wonder if the klonopin is hitting me harder. but i dont really have anything to compare it to. My fucked up ness is like 2x as hard right now holy shit that way trippy exrtreme time and space dialation. *12:19* I want to think of how long ago i took the kpin and when the peak should be compared to what time it is now to know if its going to get stronger but i cant remember how to do the math.
*high paradise-1200micrograms*
*closes eyes*
Fractals and patterns they are intricate but seem to form a tunnel when i focus on them in the center of vision.
*need to find my cell phone* 12:24am I found it same time.
try nitrous with weed and clonazepam. -revalation.
the dreams i have that i remember being sober. I see them in my minds eye and its like im experience the dream. just like dreaming, dream and reality are starting to bridge together. Is the dream my real life, and my "normal earth life" a dream? Or vise versa. *just had daja vu* been having it all night* Cannabis makes you dream with the rest of your brain still on.
*Kinda feel like im coming down cannabis high wise* considering smoking more.
the fact that it is impossible, is how it it possible. the creation of what is and never is and never will be. complete opposites exist only because they must not possible to be seperate or they cease to exist.
*12:38
movie must watch when FUCKING STONED- Wristcutters a love story. and of course toy story.
If i were having these thoughts in my head right now, i would be in a psych ward for good reason. That is, if i wasnt under the inflenence.
*12:46
just had a revolation about the reason of everything. it was because of the two sided thing. there had to be 0 dimension and it was the force known as the war because its nohting but 50% good and 50% bad constant like "polar oposites" but they are contained" in some odd limit of infiity and they push against and create their "space" the zero dimension of just existance. think of it like neclear physics. they have to create something by being there together which is a force, which creates the first dimension space and time. because the force 0 had to expand to become of finite again, it needed direction, so perfect flat is 1st dimension. but when the two forceses of 0 were pressing on eachtother in a rhytmic motion "think of a sound visualiser" they created a strong force in the middle of them, which made "up and down" what we know as the third dimension (looks like a lower case letter T, well to create 4th dimension you need to visualise the finite 0 force pulsating like opposites of magnets and inside the dimensions. when the all meet back it the center their force combined with the angle of the t plus the up and down we create the center. We are every molecluar, atomic, every bit of eneregy all of us but were all of one. we expereience the forever ness of each molecule and its atoms"
12:59am just finished wrinting all that ^ Well my memory is fucked and im the clony has me wanting to lay down and rest now.
When i wake up tomorrow I will come back and organize this into a full trip report for people to read i just needed a safe place to post it for everyone to read the full raw story as it happened.
*11:50pm central us time* *dose was 1 hr before <- time)*
150 lbs male
2.5mg clonzepam no benzo tolerence- taken like 23 min before i started smoking
.5 gram cannabis - dense sticky brick weed. visable orange hairs. half sweet half skunky smelling. Dark in color but it gets you high
50mg sertraline (zoloft) daily
oh by the way i have exreme sensitivity to weed
Notes i want to remember this trip but wont because of clonopio =]
Cannabinoid recptors = how we dream at night
*side note. eyes closed i see moving pulsating fractals on a plane black infinite notging absense. like a painting.tunnel shaped.*I NORMALLY HAVE GOOD CORRECT PUNCTUATION* cow
parabola just turned on on my playlist and the music feels earthy, like a kinda dark forest not scary tho.
same concept Screen saver = dreams the same reason. the BIG truth. *IMPORTANT( current time is 12:09am
going to check my eyes to see how fucked i look--- red eyes average. pupil size normal it was quiet and then "PPK Resurection" came on and the beat when i heard it it was as if i could in some distant minds eye see plane of space and the sound waves travel through them. *happened in a split second of pure droplets of time matrix style*
*time 12:12am*
Oh shit I just heard a noise at the window and it scared the fuck outta me*
damn that was a buz killer. Oh by the way I take Clonazepam because I suffer panic attacks when i smoke weed. thats why i took then KPINS. So I dont Freak out like "omg everyones gonna kill me and fucking im in hell" shiiiiiit.
Oh and my other revelation was that the reason i react different to weed isis because i tried it a few times at first and my brain suddenly started viewing it as a toxin when i normal brain thinks it is fine,. so then my brain shuts down the gaba receptors when thc comes in to make me sense bad things like paranoia and panic. When in a normal brain their gaba levels would stay the same even with the thc. its genetics.
*12:17* and strawberry fields forever just came on*
Jesus is sounds slow motion.
I wonder if the klonopin is hitting me harder. but i dont really have anything to compare it to. My fucked up ness is like 2x as hard right now holy shit that way trippy exrtreme time and space dialation. *12:19* I want to think of how long ago i took the kpin and when the peak should be compared to what time it is now to know if its going to get stronger but i cant remember how to do the math.
*high paradise-1200micrograms*
*closes eyes*
Fractals and patterns they are intricate but seem to form a tunnel when i focus on them in the center of vision.
*need to find my cell phone* 12:24am I found it same time.
try nitrous with weed and clonazepam. -revalation.
the dreams i have that i remember being sober. I see them in my minds eye and its like im experience the dream. just like dreaming, dream and reality are starting to bridge together. Is the dream my real life, and my "normal earth life" a dream? Or vise versa. *just had daja vu* been having it all night* Cannabis makes you dream with the rest of your brain still on.
*Kinda feel like im coming down cannabis high wise* considering smoking more.
the fact that it is impossible, is how it it possible. the creation of what is and never is and never will be. complete opposites exist only because they must not possible to be seperate or they cease to exist.
*12:38
movie must watch when FUCKING STONED- Wristcutters a love story. and of course toy story.
If i were having these thoughts in my head right now, i would be in a psych ward for good reason. That is, if i wasnt under the inflenence.
*12:46
just had a revolation about the reason of everything. it was because of the two sided thing. there had to be 0 dimension and it was the force known as the war because its nohting but 50% good and 50% bad constant like "polar oposites" but they are contained" in some odd limit of infiity and they push against and create their "space" the zero dimension of just existance. think of it like neclear physics. they have to create something by being there together which is a force, which creates the first dimension space and time. because the force 0 had to expand to become of finite again, it needed direction, so perfect flat is 1st dimension. but when the two forceses of 0 were pressing on eachtother in a rhytmic motion "think of a sound visualiser" they created a strong force in the middle of them, which made "up and down" what we know as the third dimension (looks like a lower case letter T, well to create 4th dimension you need to visualise the finite 0 force pulsating like opposites of magnets and inside the dimensions. when the all meet back it the center their force combined with the angle of the t plus the up and down we create the center. We are every molecluar, atomic, every bit of eneregy all of us but were all of one. we expereience the forever ness of each molecule and its atoms"
12:59am just finished wrinting all that ^ Well my memory is fucked and im the clony has me wanting to lay down and rest now.
When i wake up tomorrow I will come back and organize this into a full trip report for people to read i just needed a safe place to post it for everyone to read the full raw story as it happened.
