i thought id try a blog again. to not harrass bluelight staff, my husband, child and closest friends with mindless banter; but as an outlet for the inner workings of my day (highly uninteresting) for no purpose other than to let go.
everyone needs a good vent; and so do i. theres nothing dramatic or exciting going on; but my brain is boggled over with shit that id sooner flush than take on board; so here goes.
im out of induction this week; and with monday being a public holiday; the past two days at work have been very "sink or swim" with clients; and with staff. im still trying to find my niche and find where i fit in socially/ethically. the transition is awesome; yet tiring.
im trying my damnest to have an open armed policy; without coming across as a push over nor an asshole.
standing your ground with your superiors, yet maintaining solidarity and professionalism is a dirty grey area that will take at least a year to iron out; and one that im willing to work the distance towards.
today i'll openly admit (shot to the heart!); i failed miserably; by my standards.
i recieved mad feedback from my clients and boss; although my manager was pissed that i wasnt available to be there at her beck and call. too many vaginas on the dancefloor.
i much prefer working with a healthy balance of males (if not more than) and females; as it minimizes bitchiness and work politics. you get a job done. it passes; things move ahead at a rapid pace with minimal emotional envolvement; good form.
working with women theres SO much to consider; and views to contemplate; not to mention emotional/apparent professional sidelines to worry about.
its difficult finding a healthy balance this soon into my new job. all i can do is keep my wits about myself, and take one day at a time.
fingers crossed ill do well. my heart is in it; so i SHOULD succeed. im giving it my all; lets hope i flourish as a result.
everyone needs a good vent; and so do i. theres nothing dramatic or exciting going on; but my brain is boggled over with shit that id sooner flush than take on board; so here goes.
im out of induction this week; and with monday being a public holiday; the past two days at work have been very "sink or swim" with clients; and with staff. im still trying to find my niche and find where i fit in socially/ethically. the transition is awesome; yet tiring.
im trying my damnest to have an open armed policy; without coming across as a push over nor an asshole.
standing your ground with your superiors, yet maintaining solidarity and professionalism is a dirty grey area that will take at least a year to iron out; and one that im willing to work the distance towards.
today i'll openly admit (shot to the heart!); i failed miserably; by my standards.
i recieved mad feedback from my clients and boss; although my manager was pissed that i wasnt available to be there at her beck and call. too many vaginas on the dancefloor.
i much prefer working with a healthy balance of males (if not more than) and females; as it minimizes bitchiness and work politics. you get a job done. it passes; things move ahead at a rapid pace with minimal emotional envolvement; good form.
working with women theres SO much to consider; and views to contemplate; not to mention emotional/apparent professional sidelines to worry about.
its difficult finding a healthy balance this soon into my new job. all i can do is keep my wits about myself, and take one day at a time.
fingers crossed ill do well. my heart is in it; so i SHOULD succeed. im giving it my all; lets hope i flourish as a result.
