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I was talking about his attempt to establish a Hamsterdam for fighting which blew da fuck up and got everyone infarcerated.
 
rockstar 69 said:
It's not my fault you're old, fat, ugly and absolutely diabolical banter ;)
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leave it out rockstar, she's not fat or ugly, and her patter is just a bit nuts, a lot nuts sometimes, that's why I like her.

Please don't equate me with knock's white knight for this, I just like Yellow, don't even know why, actually yeah, she was smiling and laughing on webcam once and I saw a genuinely lovely woman there <3

puke emoticon anyone? watsons? jancrow?
 
Oh my god not you aswell.. this just further proves my point. EADD no longer understands sarcasm and being a cunt.

Spew.
 
PLUR is in the air.

Motherfucking awesome gif of a child being sick on his birthday cake didn't work.

I happen to like Yellow too. I like a lot of people in this place, in fact most of em, most of the time. Being shitty to each other (and yes, she does it too) doesn't do anyone any favours.
 
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Stop it Rockstar!
 
rockstar 69 said:
It is time you moved home Mugz. You are not handling things anymore.
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Moving home is an absolute last resort, I just got back from the doctors, she signed me off for another 3 weeks, then I have 3 weeks annual leave so wont be going back to work for 6 weeks now. I will most likely get kicked out of my flat here because I'm not going to be able to afford the rent, so I'm going to have to talk to my dad and say bluntly to him "You can either lend me enough money to pay my rent and stabilise things or I'm gonna have to come back and live with you and be jobless" So I think that he will lend me the money to get rid of the payday loans and pay my rent so things can stabilise, either that or getting my US Residency sorted and getting out there. I don't think I can afford the residency thing now though, too many outgoings and not enough incomings. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

You are right though rockstar, I'm not handling things anymore, not at all, I just want to be able to handle them without moving back home. I'm gonna sell my ps3, dvds, tv and maybe even my signed film posters to try and get out of this. Not going to be easy though, gonna go see the CAB tomorrow and see if there is any help that I can get because I'm only going to be getting half pay, the doctor said there may be some financial help that they can sort out, I doubt it though.
 
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wooh! made it work.

EDIT: Mugz, don't sell the posters, you've mentioned them before, I think they're very dear to you. PS3s and shit like that are replaceable.
 
Mugz said:
Moving home is an absolute last resort, I just got back from the doctors, she signed me off for another 3 weeks, then I have 3 weeks annual leave so wont be going back to work for 6 weeks now. I will most likely get kicked out of my flat here because I'm not going to be able to afford the rent, so I'm going to have to talk to my dad and say bluntly to him "You can either lend me enough money to pay my rent and stabilise things or I'm gonna have to come back and live with you and be jobless" So I think that he will lend me the money to get rid of the payday loans and pay my rent so things can stabilise, either that or getting my US Residency sorted and getting out there. I don't think I can afford the residency thing now though, too many outgoings and not enough incomings. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

You are right though rockstar, I'm not handling things anymore, not at all, I just want to be able to handle them without moving back home. I'm gonna sell my ps3, dvds, tv and maybe even my signed film posters to try and get out of this. Not going to be easy though, gonna go see the CAB tomorrow and see if there is any help that I can get because I'm only going to be getting half pay, the doctor said there may be some financial help that they can sort out, I doubt it though.
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They have that "sick and tired" saying printed on the ceilings of my local nick. They sent round a drug counsellor to see me, and she said "do you have a drug problem you'd like help with?" and I said "yes, I do. You cunts keep arresting me", and she closed the flap.

Mugz, you are putting off the innevitable not moving home now. Leave your flat and take the 6 weeks pay. Maybe even travel up to cambridge to see your doctor to keep getting signed off and getting paid (if you have it in you to be that unscrupulous). Get your dad to pay off your pay day loans if he will, and use that 6 weeks to actually relax. I honestly think you need a break from everything, including the most mundane of things like looking after yourself. You are clearly overwhelmed, depressed, and lonely, I think because you're such a caring and kind person and can't be there with your mum. You are using drugs as an escape, and every time I see you use them you're barely enjoying them, especially in the aftermath. There's no shame in going to stay with your dad for a bit to get healthy and happier. You might even be able to put enough aside in that 6 weeks to get your residency permit, then you can go and start your new life afresh. There is no benefit to you paying off rent to a landlord when you could be sat at home with some company for free.
 
For what it's worth, I don't like any of you.

With the notable exception of the clique, of course.
 
Ha, thank fuck my clique-o-vision spex arrived in this morning's email.



Mugz, MSB is speaking a lot of sense there.
 
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Stop it Rockstar!
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I was actually hoping you'd jump to her defense, but you failed. Bad gimp. Back to the cupboard. Do not post pictures of your cock.

Mugz what MSB has said is sound advise. I think you need a bit of family support and be closer to old friends for a bit. It sounds like things in Cambridge really aren't working, and I don't think selling your possessions is going to really make that much difference in terms of a "clean break", sell your PS3 etc if you want, it will help with your debts a bit, dont sell things that are dear to you. I also have the impression things have gone that badly with not making it to work the very thought of going in there where people know you are suffering badly from anxiety is adding to it all.

You need time to chill. Eat healthily and do some exercise, try seeing a few old friends, avoid drugs and possibly here for a while. Get your head back together and look for another job closer to home until things are more stable.
 
I really don't want to let my family know that I'm struggling, I've been lying to them for the last few months about my mental health and attendance at work, as far as they know everything is fine up here with me. They don't need the extra stress, if I can get out of it without letting on that I'm struggling then it will be good for them. Since I have 6 weeks in a row off work, I might abandon my flat and move my stuff back home, and then come back up for one more sick note when I'm due back and then travel around the UK for a bit or try and get the residency in the US. I'm at another point where I don't have a clue what is the best option for me, I want to be in america with my mum and sister, but I want to sort things out here first so I can take some money over there with me. I think I just got caught up in all the residency excitement the other day, I think it is unlikely that I'll be able to do that in the next few months. I need to sort the UK out first. Maybe I can get there for xmas though.
 
Good, but I don't want to go back to living with him, as it was always a lot more strained when I was living with him compared to just visiting. He has said a lot of times that he is really happy that he lives on his own now, so I dont think he would welcome me back with open arms, but he would have me back bedgrudgingly.
 
Suck your pride up and just go home mugz! Or if you want to spare your pride just say you've got an extended period of time off and you'd like to come home for it because you don't know anyone near you or something? You have been singing the self improvement, dig myself out of my hole, tune for a long time now and you've only dug yourself deeper.
 
I know I should but I just dont want to have to do that. I'll see what my pay is at midnight tonight, if it is too low to be able to sort things then I'll tell my dad what's been going on, if it is normal then I might be able to get out of it if I sell my ps3 and bike and some dvds
 
Honestly, if you get on with him well enough, give going to him a shot. He's your dad, sounds like you get on well enough that his first instinct will be to want to help you, same as yours is not to bother him. I really know from personal experience what it's like being in the shit but not wanting to burden family with your problems. Thing is you're really obviously not going anywhere on your own at the moment except deeper into trouble. You don't have to be with him for long but I think you have a lot to gain by straightening things out with him and admitting you need some help.

And yeah, stop taking drugs, you don't even seem to enjoy them most of the time. I get the feeling that you're looking for something you're not going to get from them... it's always 'bit of phet would give me some motivation' or 'I need those blues to calm me down' and while that may be true in the short term you're not going to actually solve anything with them, just get deeper and deeper into this shit. When you've been tinkering with your brain chemistry for a long time, as you have, you need a proper break, healthy eating and a routine to get you level again, not random substances to lull you into a false sense of wellness for a couple of hours at a time.

Please Mugz, give it some serious thought.
 
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